The Thing That Destroys Me About Eveline Is That She Knows How Damaged She Is. She Knows She Hurts People.

the thing that destroys me about eveline is that she knows how damaged she is. she knows she hurts people. she lashes out and she destroys things and she finds fun it it but at the end of the day she wants to be loved. she wants to be treated kindly. she wants a dad and a mom and she wants them to love her. but she knows, no matter how long she and ethan spend together in death, in the mold, that he won't ever forgive her. he can't ever forgive her. he may make peace with her existence, and he may be occasionally kind to her, but he cannot ever forgive, and he cannot ever love her. and it's all eveline's fault. she has no one to blame but herself. she knows killing rose won't make ethan love her, but she's already dug her hole too deep. if she's gone this far, she might as well do something to try and make herself feel better. killing rose doesn't do anything - for eveline, killing rose would be like smashing a vase at the wall. feels good in the moment, but then you have to clean it up, and it doesn't fix anything. she's already lost ethan. what's the harm in adding another stick to the fire?

eveline is every child with behavior issues' worst fear come to reality. sure, it's not entirely your fault that you're like this. but you've done so much. you keep hurting people and hurting people and hurting people and acting out. and you can beg for love and beg for forgiveness but you'll never get it. her "birth" mother, Miranda, didn't want her. her "adoptive" mother, Mia, didn't want her. and her "father", Ethan, doesn't want her. no matter where she goes, no matter how much she tries, no one wants her. and she has to sit with that for eternity. she can't grow or change- she's permanently stuck with the emotional capabilities of a 10 year old. she sits out eternity in pain. poor, poor, eveline. she was doomed from the start.