I Hate Saying This But Y'all I Need A Bit Of Help Here (anyone Who's Lgbtq)

this made my day because

i went to this restaurant and i saw this nice ass manager and he was really friendly and basically offered anything we needed and while my family was talking to him, they had a few of piercings including lip ring and loads of badges, and they use he/him pronouns!!!!!

AND THEY TOLD ME IN SIGN LANGUAGE THAT THEY WERE A NON BINARY (gender) ARO (aromantic | romantic orientation) LESBIAN (sexuality) AND USES HE/HIM PRONOUNS (thank god my family doesn’t understand what was happening) and i told them i was nonbinary/trans who uses he/they and explained my sexuality to them since i was questioning and used queer as an umbrella term and HIS SMILE OH MY FUCKING GOD

THEN THEY GOT REALLY FRIENDLY AND MY FAMILY DIDNT NOTICE ANYTHING

when we left, we took each others numbers, AND I USED HIS PRONOUNS AND HE WAS SOBBING LIKE HE WAS GETTING ALL EXCITED AND HAPPY NZULSMSKQ

and he was super friendly to Me and my family and my family was really nice to him (even though they’re extremely lgbtqphobic) but like,, we were just really happy together

I found my queer peer !!!! LETS GOOOOO

Today’s the best day like the best !!

i met the girl i had a little crush on, i was walking and i saw her in the place for food while walking by but my mind went, “stop! that’s your crush. go say hi and don’t be scared” so i thought, “hmmm I’m gonna go say hi to her”, i sat down and went, “hi!” and she went “hi !! ” while waving at me and i went, “how are you” and she said she felt nice and asked me the same and i said, while brushing things off (i think she noticed i was frightened to say hi), “I’m good, i was just scared of saying hi.. haha” and she went, “hmm????” with this suprised face and i repeated and BRO LET ME TELL YOU

I panicked when she leaned across the table to say “hey,” WHILE TOUCHING MY HANDS WHILE SMILING and went, “you shouldn't be scared okay baby? Im going to be here for you so dont be frightened” AND SMILED AGAIN AND BRO MY HEART SANK SO HARD

So I went, "I tried to say hi but you walked off but I don't think you noticed cause you were probably going somewhere" and my heart went "💖" so quick.

So I said, "I was new so I didn't understand much but I really wanna be friends" and she's like "okay then sweetheart, my name is [name] and you?" And she's like "mmhh neat" when I answered

NO CAUSE SHE LITERALLY HUGGED ME AND DRAGGED MY HAND ALONG WITH HERS

the panick in my mind and face was so visible, it wasn't a joke

I was so nervous like I was panicking, my eyes widened so hard

so she's like, "mmhm so where you wanna go?" while asking me she touched me,

my fucking heart jumped out of my chest like I was so weak for this girl

SHES SO FUCKING CUTE I CANT ANYMORE

GOODNESS i JUST WANNA AAAAHHHH

No cause I almost kissed her because we got close but she scramed away

I am telling you

If I never got away or she didn't, I would've kissed her.

THERE AND THEN.

omfg SHES SO CUTE ????

Can't remember since it happened hours ago but I finally GOT TO MEET HER

we're friends.

I could not take her to the bathroom because it was raining and I had places to go and I was rushed so I had to leave her behind

I feel bad :((

I WENT TO THE BOYZ CONCERT YESTERDAY AND HOLY FUCK I SANG EVERYTHING FULLY SO LOUDLY STRAINING MY LUNGS TO THE POINT THEY NOTICED THE BACK AND KEVIN SAID 'I LOVE YOU TOO' AFTER ME SCREAMING WHEN IT WENT SILENT

LAST NIGHT WAS TERRIFIC...

life is so good right now

been dying to know the sides of my moms family but I know too much of my moms side and still want to know more, so we agreed to the 23andme kit and now we r waiting for the results which takes 5-6 weeks

but once of my uncles, are updating us about digging our family tree and right now, he is saying there is too many mixes in my dads family

bro said that. MY DADS side. has senegalese. swiss. italian. spanish. sweden.

thats the most recent we found and my dad sadly died so I couldnt get to ask him anything.

but being italian and spanish is shocking because he did make me visit his spanish side. my mom said EVERY time she is in that mfing house she IS ALWAYS seeing a flag that has red white and green. she didnt know what that was. but like. ITS THE WAY I WAS THINKING ABOUT VISITING SWITZERLAND AND WANTED TO LIVE THERE in the FUTURE and then boom, a gene has been found.

i love being mixed

Taste by skz that releases yesterday is for WHORES ONLY

absolutely satisfied

life is so good right now

been dying to know the sides of my moms family but I know too much of my moms side and still want to know more, so we agreed to the 23andme kit and now we r waiting for the results which takes 5-6 weeks

but once of my uncles, are updating us about digging our family tree and right now, he is saying there is too many mixes in my dads family

bro said that. MY DADS side. has senegalese. swiss. italian. spanish. sweden.

thats the most recent we found and my dad sadly died so I couldnt get to ask him anything.

but being italian and spanish is shocking because he did make me visit his spanish side. my mom said EVERY time she is in that mfing house she IS ALWAYS seeing a flag that has red white and green. she didnt know what that was. but like. ITS THE WAY I WAS THINKING ABOUT VISITING SWITZERLAND AND WANTED TO LIVE THERE in the FUTURE and then boom, a gene has been found.

i love being mixed

i think i could be bi.

update: i saw the same girl today and like ahhhh OH MY GOODNESSSSS

STORY TIME;

Short actually since we didn't talk much or I didn't do much.

I was walking today and saw her. She looked so fucking cute god I wanna say hi so badly, I wanna kiss her

She's so cute with her braces i just a aahh (it's an Asian girl, me and her meet good so it's fine) and I looked at her and she looked at me then I INSTANTLY looked away then looked back. And I went up (not too close) to her and said hi and waved and HER LITTLE NOSE SCRUNCH I AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH SHES SO FUCKING ADORABLE SAVE ME (braces and glasses)

and she's just smiling too

Then I said how are you and she nodded (I'm guessing she said yes)

I just

God she's such a cutie

PLEASE I WANNA HUG HER SO BAD

I CANT ANYMORE 😭😭

???

hi

trigger warning: sexual misconduct

i have started school since September and I have been badly sexually harassed and assaulted. I manged to tell my mom and my teachers about it and I got blamed and mocked gossiped talked about, lost my friends including blocked, and I have been feeling really trapped. uncomfortable and I have been hiding alot of what has been going on.

recently, it got worse and i have been hiding everything 3 months ago after i last spoke up was the end of september. i spoke up and just realised nobody really cares or listens and thinks im lying. my sister has been such a bitch recently, she hates me for no reason, and she uses my sexual harassment and assault as a way to mock and hurt me (e.g “you wouldve been the next (another sexual assault survivor name), its ur fault” etc etc

the things these boys did r horrendous and I cannot write it down cause its too much to put on here and I feel like crying if I get reminded as I write them on here.

someone mind helping me?? im really lost and my mental health been fucking up and I have been trying to restrict myself from drinking and isolating myself from everything everyone and I just feel like doing it and my suicidal thoughts got even worse and I just been thinking of doing it before the new year.

I am just so tired. anyone help??