Hi

hi

trigger warning: sexual misconduct

i have started school since September and I have been badly sexually harassed and assaulted. I manged to tell my mom and my teachers about it and I got blamed and mocked gossiped talked about, lost my friends including blocked, and I have been feeling really trapped. uncomfortable and I have been hiding alot of what has been going on.

recently, it got worse and i have been hiding everything 3 months ago after i last spoke up was the end of september. i spoke up and just realised nobody really cares or listens and thinks im lying. my sister has been such a bitch recently, she hates me for no reason, and she uses my sexual harassment and assault as a way to mock and hurt me (e.g “you wouldve been the next (another sexual assault survivor name), its ur fault” etc etc

the things these boys did r horrendous and I cannot write it down cause its too much to put on here and I feel like crying if I get reminded as I write them on here.

someone mind helping me?? im really lost and my mental health been fucking up and I have been trying to restrict myself from drinking and isolating myself from everything everyone and I just feel like doing it and my suicidal thoughts got even worse and I just been thinking of doing it before the new year.

I am just so tired. anyone help??

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2 years ago

today at school, i had some “friends” and one friend went “who’s ready for pride month?” and they were all cheering in the classroom and then this one friend who sat next to me (found out she makes fun of me sometimes) said so much horrible things about trans people and the lgbtq community (mostly the trans and non binary community including genderfluid)

they started saying they hate trans people bc we “take the piss” and they never understand why we go by he/they and she/they and that and they invalidated neopronouns too saying “wtf are neopronouns? some neopronouns users actually have pronouns like meow/meow, xe/xem, etc” like why would i wanna call you that like that’s so stupid (laughs)” and they started talking about this teacher who got sacked bc he misgendered a student who was trans and trial for 3 days and now they went “oH nO OfFENsE but what is genderfluid? what is that? bc why am i a man the next day, a female today, a trans next day, and demi fucking the next week like that’s so confusing and you can’t change genders like that so they need to stop that HAHAHAHHAA” and the “why do you guys use he/they pronouns? and she/they and whatever? like you can’t use more than one pronoun and gender equals pronouns like stop being stupid” LIKE I FELT SO INVALIDATED OMFG

“and i never understand the non binary mfs who use more than one pronouns or say their gender is this that like THERES ONLY 2 GENDERS. female and male. nothing else???”

and they just said so much more like oh my god (message me if you wanna hear the rest) and i just hate them for it. I BROUGHT MY PRIDE FLAG for celebration in my bag and thank god i never brought it our bc yall wouldve invalidated me.

i hate people. lgbtq ppl are extremely valid. yall cishets and straights NEED TO SHUT UP.


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2 years ago
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YESSSSSS I HIT THAT MILSTONE AYYYEEEEE


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3 months ago

i dont care who makes fun of kpop fans or whatever. mfs who hate on us for liking music differently and i dont care who make fun of what i like and love watching but kpop is DIFFERENT and feels different to most people. some see it as a way of being themselves or a connection to different music and people and thats ok and i love seeing that. for me kpop makes me feel a huge range of emotions and feelings.

one of the things i love in the whole world is that as someone who listens to kpop on a regular and daily basis (everyday ALWAYS) for so many years, seeing people who r just like u is so freeing. u could make a reference and everyone will get what u said

another thing i love in the world is seeing CHINESE people in kpop. people like chenle and renjun from nct, people like jun and the8 from seventeen, and more. people like that make me feel safe.

it makes me feel extra connected to a certain aspect of my cultural identity. i grew up hiding the fact that i am asian (desi, arab & chinese) and that i was all kinds of asian, and seeing those idols make me feel so connected oh my god like ways to learn my language by watching them teach fans or them speaking it and making it easy for us by what words means and sentence structures, their culture, their food, their traditions, the way they look, the way they r passionate about where they r from, it makes me feel such a huge connection into being chinese and make me want to know more about my culture like you guys dont understand how FREEING that is for me after hiding that aspect of my identity for so many years OH MY GOD


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i hate it here kpop chinese chinese culture but like i said it makes me feel so fucking happy that there r people like ME in the world i grew up with my momma hiding that shes part chinese from her mother (my grandma) and her generation goes far back to mongolia explaining y i got the birthmark i remember being exposed to hatred towards China and racism and the covid it was TERRIBLE. and the comments? AWFUL i even literally hated china so much i remember during covid lord the racism got worse i still remember people at school making fun of me for being asian and mocking that i dont know english i remember a mf mocked me for not “appearing” indian meanwhile a bengali told me ill never be like them or a hijabi telling me islam is a beautiful culture than me. and arabs r better looking and allah (god) hates me since im a fucking arab??? like how r u a hijabi discriminating against ur own people watching kpop and seeing KPOP idols who r CHINESE by NATIONALITY makes me feel SEEN and happy. and it gives me a heads up that just because im black and look different doesnt make me any less asian cause guess what?? white asians black asians etc EXIST it makes me feel such a huge connection to my culture and continues to inspire me on my people and how amazing we r and most kpop fans r asian as well as black mixed white etc also help. knowing they r asian fans who like kpop just like i do and look different makes me feel seen. that i am ONE of those asian fans who like kpop and dont just think of myself as a “black girl who hides her identity” it hurts me that i dont look anything alike everyone sees me as black or not asian or white enough and it hurts. esp wayv. bro i feel so fucking SEEN U DONT UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH IT MEANS TO ME “ur not asian” babe not only am i desi arab chinese. my grandmas brother is chinese n viet whilst his grandfather is chinese. be fucking fr wayv/nct ten is thai and chinese and it makes me feel so happy than anything in the world that thailand is one of my cultures. i feel free idc what anybody says. kpop is everything to me and i am fucking keeping this shit for the rest of my life and passing it to (my) future generation(s). AMEN. been in kpop for 8 years and best believe imma do this shit until im 90 BEST BELIEVE THA
2 years ago

i got outed by my “friends” to others that im gay now ppl are being weird about it and they’re “disappointed”

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2 years ago

NO WAY TEAM SWEET WON??? THATS LITERALLY IMPOSSIBLE HOW


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1 year ago

happy juneteenth 💖

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2 years ago

HAPPY HALLOWEEN YALL ♥️♥️♥️


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2 years ago

ok y’all, i got told to rot in hell cause i was gay, had alot of homophobia today and outed the number of times and ppl being weird about it. just people pretending to be gay when they aren’t.

yeahh..

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1 month ago

anyways,, hi guys i took a dna test last month. its been 2-3 weeks right?? i got results.

interestingly i woke up, and thought “lemme check one last time” and all I saw was waiting in transit.

and then randomly, my momma got an email and says it sent us a notification that it REACHED the lab, analysed & said the results MAY verify but the results will come through. their currently analysing my sample right now oh my god

they are so fucking scam on this shit. it said it will take 6 weeks and guess what? it will ACTUALLY be ready on April 28th TO may 12th. thats like more than 6 fucking weeks BUT either way not complaining 😭😭 im so excited

Anyways,, Hi Guys I Took A Dna Test Last Month. Its Been 2-3 Weeks Right?? I Got Results.
Anyways,, Hi Guys I Took A Dna Test Last Month. Its Been 2-3 Weeks Right?? I Got Results.

life is so good right now

been dying to know the sides of my moms family but I know too much of my moms side and still want to know more, so we agreed to the 23andme kit and now we r waiting for the results which takes 5-6 weeks

but once of my uncles, are updating us about digging our family tree and right now, he is saying there is too many mixes in my dads family

bro said that. MY DADS side. has senegalese. swiss. italian. spanish. sweden.

thats the most recent we found and my dad sadly died so I couldnt get to ask him anything.

but being italian and spanish is shocking because he did make me visit his spanish side. my mom said EVERY time she is in that mfing house she IS ALWAYS seeing a flag that has red white and green. she didnt know what that was. but like. ITS THE WAY I WAS THINKING ABOUT VISITING SWITZERLAND AND WANTED TO LIVE THERE in the FUTURE and then boom, a gene has been found.

i love being mixed


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