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CW: This is a vent post.

Someone fucking blocked me because I was trying to have a civil conversation with them.

I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING.

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Cureaesthetic nasty confessional

Nene or FuMomo | 28💞 | Proud yaoi lesbian | bigender she/he | Proship/Profic Fujo | CEO or Risem and...

Why the fuck would you do this. I did NOTHING to you. ABSOLUTELY FUCKING NOTHING. I guess that's what I get for trying to ask a simple question. Wouldn't be the first time someone referred to me being gracious as "odd", and I have a feeling that both times they didn't mean it as a compliment. I'm absolutely powerless to do anything about this. That's what bothers me most. I HATE feeling powerless, because I am. I ALWAYS WILL BE. THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO BUT CRY ANYMORE. ALL OF THIS BECAUSE I SAID THAT THE IDEA OF "HUMAN EMPATHY" IS ABLEIST TO PEOPLE WITH LOW/NO EMPATHY. GUESS WHAT, FUCKER, I'M ODD AND PROUD OF IT. USE WHATEVER LABEL YOU WANT, "WEIRD", "ECCENTRIC", "STRANGE", "ABNORMAL", "R3TARD3D", IT MAKES NO DIFFERENCE. I AM HERE. I AM LOUD. I AM ALIVE. AND I WON'T ALLOW MYSELF TO BE WALKED ON LIKE I AM NOTHING. This is what I get for being hopeful, for being kind, and for being passive.

Nothing.

YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

Look at pickled Spam back there ♡

Take them home? Theres 7 of them (one is at the bottom)

I’m going to scream. The grass is still green, I’m still seeing birds and the temperature is bearable. In the middle of November. In fucking Minnesota.

yet they still try to claim that climate change is a hoax and that everything’s fine, yeah “our best interest” my ass they fight for themselves not their people. I’m just a teenager but I can’t even try to worry about drama and celebrity shit because the adults in control of my country, my home are going to kill the world before I have a chance to grow up in it. How am I supposed to care about anything that doesn’t directly affect me when I’m wondering if I should by all of the classic books before the end up getting banned andd if the ones I’m going to write will fall to the same fate, because I’m not letting so many voices, MY VOICE go forgotten even if I have burn in place of the very words I and so many others write. so many people tell teenagers to just focus on grades which is practically impossible when I have to think about whether or not I’ll have to use the fact that three women in my mother’s family have had breast cancer including my mother herself to convince the doctors and government to let me have top surgery. How am I supposed to care about grades when I might not be able to get into college because it would be made harder or less acceptable for me to go just because I had the misfortune of being born female and that means I have something these men want. That is if I make it through high school without being shot of course. the politicians say they’re doing all of this for the children (obviously that’s why they want to ban drag you know/sar) but won’t listen to us when we cry for change as they instead walk in the other direction, they say this is for us but then they make a world where green grass and birds make me want to scream

they won’t listen to our screams now it’s about time to start biting and scratching

For those outside of America going "why don't you fight back" or "don't you guys know what's going on?" let me explain something to you.

We know.

There is nothing a lot of us can do right now.

We are either minorities surrounded by Trump supporters or struggling to make ends meet or (most likely) both.

These first few days are designed to exhaust us. It's the same tactic he used during his first administration. Overwhelm the media and the masses so that the more sinister things he does gets swept under the rug.

And honestly, a lot of us are checked out because we spent the last four years warning people about a second term because our lives were on the line and those we thought cared about us proved they didn't.

And now we're just trying to find some sort of semblance of happiness in this joyless world we're now living in. We fight when we can, we bring attention to what we can, but a lot of us are just fucking exhausted.

So please, cut us some slack. We've been fighting for the last eight years, we still have to fight for the next four.

Right now, survival is the only rebellion we have.

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It’s uncanny how similar Trump is acting like Hitler. People are now doing the Nazi salute. They’re drawing the symbol. The KKK was seen in Kentucky asking people to join them. ICE has been ripping families apart. Companies have pulled back Diversity Initiatives. We’re no longer part of WHO and there won’t be any communication from the CDC at least until February 1st. We’re being censored and the news can’t be trusted. Thousands of Americans didn’t know there were protests against Trump yesterday outside the U.S. Quotes from The Handmaid’s Tale and Anne Frank have been compared to what’s going on right now.

According to The Lemkin Institute for Genocide Studies and Prevention the U.S. has officially been given a red flag alert for Genocide.

I’m exhausted but I will never stop being angry.

It really hurts to see how shame-based american culture is. If anyone was wondering, I don't capitalize the a in america because I don't respect capitalism :]

I wonder if completely ignoring my problems will make them go away.

SHOUT IT FROM THE ROOFTOPS! ♡

if you don't do anything else today,

Please have a moment of silence for the people who were killed instead of freed when news of emancipation finally reached the furthest corners of the american south.

have another moment for the ledgers, catalogs, and records that were burned and the homes that were destroyed to hide the presence of very much alive and still enslaved people on dozens of plantations and homesteads across the south for decades after emancipation.

and have a third moment for those who were hunted and killed while fleeing the south to find safety across the border, overseas, in the north and to the west.

black people. light a candle, write a note to those who have passed telling them what you have achieved in spite of the racist and intolerant conditions of this world, feel the warmth of the flame under your hand, say a prayer of rememberance if you are religious, place the note under the candle, and then blow it out.

if you have children, sit them down and tell them anything you know about the life of oldest black person you've ever met. it doesn't have to be your own family. tell them what you know about what life was like for us in the days, years, decades after emancipation. if you don't know much, look it up and learn about it together.

This is Juneteenth.

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