This Game.... It Was Before Its Time...

honestly? im anti self dx but i kinda feel like it can be good? like if u do a lot of research and just know like “hey i probably have this disorder. i should try to get a proper diagnosis so i can get treatment for it.”

but dont just like. look up some disorder and see that one of the symptoms is sadness and just go “oh :’( i have this and you have to respect that uwu” cause my man i can assure you that you are not a fucking doctor.

Bliss - Ladynoir Fanfic

please enjoy this little fanfic i wrote!

Another day, another feeling of heartache for Marinette. Almost everyday now she would see Adrien and Kagami together, always looking so close. Marinette was starting to think maybe she should get over Adrien. Give someone else a chance. She hated the way she felt everyday, always feeling miserable and jealous and holding back feelings of anger. She didn't hate either of them. It just hurt to see Adrien with another girl. Especially after all the time she'd put into him.

Marinette walked into school, her back slouched over and dark bags under her eyes from crying all night. Alya quickly rushed over to Marinette.

"Hey, girl, what's up? You don't look so good," Alya threw her arm around Marinette, trying to comfort the poor girl.

Marinette had to hold back tears. She felt kind of silly, feeling so upset over a boy.

"Well.. it's about Adrien," Alya's eyebrows perked up in interest. "Basically, going to his fencing matches and seeing him with Kagami.. it just really hurts. I just kinda know that he'll never like me back." A stray tear slipped from her unusually dull eyes, but Marinette quickly wiped the tear away, not wanting Alya to see her cry.

"Oh, Marinette.." Alya pulled her into a tight hug, caressing her carefully as if she was fragile. She pulled away after a few seconds, then put her hands on her shoulder and looking intensely into Marinette's eyes.

"Mari, you don't deserve to be hurt like this. You deserve a guy who will recognize the amazing girl that you are. As nice as Adrien is, he is incredibly dense,"

"But I don't think I can move on so fast.. I really like Adrien. I really do," Marinette sighed.

"I understand, girl. But for now, let's get to class.." Alya put her arm around Mari again, and they walked to class.

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When Marinette and Alya took a seat, Nino shared a worried look with Alya. "Dudette, are you good? What's wrong?" Nino whispered.

"It's about Adrien.." Was all Marinette had to say for Nino to understand. Of course Nino would know all about his bro and Kagami. He didn't think that their relationship would affect Mari this much. Luckily Adrien wasn't here yet to hear this exchange.

"Oh dude.. I'm sorry.." Nino sympathized, feeling quite worried about her mental state right now. She didn't look so great.

The conversation had to end soon, as Adrien walked into class just then. Nino gave Marinette one last glance, trying to comfort her, and turned around.

"Hey, Nino," Adrien waved, taking his seat next to him.

"Hey, dude," the two shared a fist bump like they did every morning. Adrien took a look back to see a depressed Marinette.

"Nino, is Marinette okay? What happened?" He leaned close to his bro as to hide what he was saying from the girls behind him.

"Sorry dude.. I don't think I should say.." Nino shrugged and got out his work for class.

Adrien looked at Marinette, confusion filling him. He didn't enjoy such vagueness. Ladybug did this to him sometimes too. He hated it. He was worried about Marinette. She was his friend. Shouldn't he have a right to know?

Marinette could barely look at Adrien. His adorable green eyes filled with worry just hurt her heart even more. She covered her eyes with her bangs, wanting to avoid meeting his gaze. She buried her face into Alya's shoulder, unable to control her tears. Alya held her gently, quietly reassuring her.

Adrien was so confused, worried, and kinda angry that his friends were keeping him out of the loop. He just turned around to focus for class. He hoped it would clear up later, and that Marinette was okay.

-----

It was time for patrol. She was dreading this. She knew Cat Noir would be able to pick up her sadness. He was very persistent and she didn't want to talk about it. But she had a duty to the city.

"Marinette, why don't you take a break for today?" Tikki squeaked, flying up to her holder's face. "You can just transform to tell Cat Noir that you won't be coming!"

"I don't want to leave Cat Noir alone. He shouldn't have to patrol the whole city by himself," Marinette pet Tikki's head softly. "But thanks, Tikki. Don't worry though, I'll be fine. Maybe patrolling will clear my head."

"Tikki, spots on!" Marinette yelled out, being enveloped in a pink light, and then being covered in her Ladybug suit. She climbed up out onto her balcony and swung away.

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She met up with Cat Noir at their usual meeting spot. "Hey, kitty," she said, sounding less enthusiastic than normal.

"Hello, m'lady," he bowed deeply, before taking a seat next to her on the top of the building. He observed her carefully, noticing her bluebell eyes looking so lifeless. Her posture slouched.

"Are you okay, Ladybug?" he asked. Her mood was reminiscent of Marinette from earlier. "Did something happen?"

"It's probably silly," Ladybug laughed dryly. "It's just about a boy. He getting closer with someone else, and it kind of hurts," She was surprised she shared that to him.

"Sorry. I know you have feelings for me. I don't mean to hurt you," Cat Noir suddenly pulled her into a hug. But she didn't pull away. She felt comfortable. She felt better. She felt... loved.

After what felt like forever, Cat Noir pulled away. Ladybug could feel the heat building up in her cheeks. Maybe Cat Noir wasn't the worst person to love.

"Thanks, k..kitty.." she stammered over her words, feeling embarrassed. A familiar warm feeling was filling her heart. The heartache from earlier seemed to be slowly ebbing away, being replaced by that warm feeling. She couldn't describe it. But it felt nice.

Cat Noir could see the blush forming on her cheeks. The life coming back into her eyes. Had he done that? It made him blush too. She looked adorable, and the fact that she appeared to be warming up to him made him love her even more.

Ladybug could basically see the hearts forming in his viridescent glowing eyes. She could feel her heart beating in her chest. Her face must've been as red as her suit, as she felt very hot. She gulped nervously, seeing Cat Noir's mischievous grin. Maybe it was time to get over Adrien. Maybe it was time to give a chance. She could feel herself slowly getting closer to Cat Noir. Now there was only a gap of a few inches.

She quickly closed the gap between them, their lips meeting. Ladybug couldn't help herself. Cat Noir couldn't either. At first, he was taken aback by Ladybug's actions. But he wasn't going to take it for granted. He pushed against her lips too, loving every moment they were spending. He placed a hand on her face, caressing her pink cheek gently. She had placed a hand in his messy hair, ruffling it up even more. They were both in heaven. This was bliss.

When they finally pulled away after being basically inseparable. They were breathing heavily, their foreheads leaning against each other as their eyes stared into one another's.

"I..I love you, Cat Noir,"

"I love you too, Ladybug."

ok ok, but hear me out

adrigaminette (adrien+kagami+marinette) and like adrien and marinette get a small rivalry for kagami who is just so confused. alya is obviously cheering for mari while the sweet boy nino is conflicted because mari and adrien are both his friends and he wants to support both of his pals. with ladybug and cat noir they are always looking out for kagami, and fighting for who saves her. ladybug will give her a miraculous. (idk which one) then identity reveal blah blah then all three end up together. :D

I read a drabble fic where in one of the chapters had Adrien being akumaized instead of Kagami in Oni-Chan (The akuma had a space theme that I personally really liked). You wanna take a crack at that prompt?

I know the thing you’re talking about I think. I can’t find it but someone else probably has a link. 

So, there are very few times I like writing Akuma!Adrien, because 99% of the time I write Gabriel as having ‘Akumatizing Adrien’ as one of the lines he will not cross. 

The few times I do write it, I have it be a situation where Gabriel 1.) didn’t realize it was Adrien’s emotions he was picking up on until the Butterfly took over, and 2.) is a situation where Gabriel would think this could help Adrien more than hurt him. 

‘Akumatized over Lila’s bullshit’ is one of those things that works for me!

I’d go with more of an emphasis on ‘personal space’ than an outer space theme tho. 

Akuma!Adrien’s main power would be, well, personal space. Creating a barrier around himself. But the barrier would have different levels depending on how much he wants to let someone in. 

Lila would immediately get shoved to a ‘does 50 feet or less mean anything to you at all?’ barrier. Might get painful if she was at ‘ground zero’ so to speak, but I’ll be nice and say that instead of slamming her through a window or wall she gets politely teleported into a trashcan. 

As an Akuma, Adrien would have to go out and search for Ladybug to fight her. I’ll discuss her and the barrier later, but it does mean we get to see other people. 

Random strangers Adrien passes would be stuck at a 20-40 ish feet radius. 

Most of the classmates are allowed to the 10 foot barrier. Characters who Adrien is close to like Nino, Alya, Chloé, and Kagami are allowed to the 5 foot barrier. And they are very worried about him. This could get counted as a ‘Lila gets called tf out’ thing, as they ask Adrien what happened and he goes off on Lila’s actions. Not just how uncomfortable she made him, but also all her lies because he’s realized she’s dangerous so fuck the ‘High Road’, Akuma!Adrien is bluntly honest. 

And now we get Ladybug! 

Ladybug is able to get into the 5 foot barrier, but is unable to get closer. She’s allowed so close because, duh, Adrien loves her. Which is a hell of a revelation when Akuma!Adrien is very blunt about that. 

She doesn’t figure out he’s Chat Noir though. He’s aware enough to keep quiet about that. Ladybug is worried about Chat, but assumes he got caught in one of the other barriers. 

After a few attempts to get Adrien to let her in further, Ladybug realizes that the problem is that as much as Adrien wants to let her in, the ‘Akuma’ sees her as a threat. If Ladybug gets in, this whole thing stops. Which annoys Hawkmoth because if Ladybug doesn’t get in, Adrien can’t retrieve her Miraculous. 

After realizing this, Ladybug tries another tactic. She swings off and detransforms outside the barrier, thinking maybe ‘Marinette’ can convince him more than Ladybug. 

Marinette easily makes it past the first barriers, to where the rest of the class is at the 10 foot barrier. She isn’t that surprised, as all of the classmates are there already. 

What does surprise her is that there’s no resistance letting her into the 5 foot barrier, with Alya, Nino, Chloé and Kagami. That gets a few reactions from everyone. 

Marinette goes to lean aganst the last barrier, to beg Adrien to let her in. Only there isn’t another barrier. Not for her. Because while Adrien hasn’t admitted it yet, he loves her just as much as Ladybug. But the ‘Akuma’ doesn’t see Mari as a threat. 

After cautiously making her way too him, and shoving down any ‘ohmygoditsadrien’ nervousness because she’s in Ladybug Mode™, Marinette grabs whatever the Akumatized Item is and smashes it. 

That has Adrien turning back to normal and while he’s confused af he’s not upset enough to be Akumatized again. Mari makes up a ‘uh… I should go get Ladybug!’ excuse and bolts off to transform and purify the Butterfly. 

Meanwhile, everyone else fills Adrien in on what he did as an Akuma. Alya especially asks questions about Lila, and Adrien does admit to all the bullshit that was going on with her. 

Alya, Nino, Chloé and Kagami then all tease/interrogate Adrien about Marinette. Alya and Nino tease, Kagami interrogates, and Chloé does both. Kagami realizes she’s obviously lost to Marinette if Adrien let her in. Chloé’s just like ‘I know I’m kinda trying to be nicer but really?? Her??? You absolute dork!!’. 

Adrien’s just confused. Luckily Alya was recording so she can show him how Mari was the only one allowed to touch him. Adrien’s confused until they mention that even Ladybug was stopped by a barrier. 

Adrien has a small crisis before realizing ‘holy shit I might be in love with her’.

“After I completed the main quest line for the first time, I was at such a loss and felt so empty and pointless that I went back to a save right before I had to take Martin to the Elder Council Chamber. I’ve been exploring all of Cyrodiil with him at my side, I’ve grown so used to him being my companion that I’m too scared to touch my completed save file.”

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Awkward Confession - Jesskas Fanfic

So I wrote this really late at night so it's not the best but I was really nervous last night for no reason so I needed something to relax so here you guys go! Enjoy! It's Male!Jesse x Lukas btw.

Lukas let out a yawn, rubbing his eyes tiredly. He had stayed up all night working on his book. He looked outside to see the sun coming up already, and he sighed, knowing he had things to do. He closed the book and just laid in bed, just trying to relax for a bit. Then he heard a soft knock at his door. He pulled himself out of bed reluctantly. Nobody usually visited him. He opened the door to be surprised with Jesse.

“Jesse! What are you doing here so early in the morning?” he greeted and invited him inside.

“Oh, I just wanted to come down and see you. I guess I didn't really think about the time,” Jesse said, his tone a bit jittery as if he was hiding something. “I was lucky you were awake,”

“Well, I'm really glad to see you. I know we don't have much time now a days to hang out, so these little moments are always great,” Lukas smiled, giving him a small hug. He sat down on the ground, Jesse following suit and taking a place next to him.

“How's your book going?” Jesse asked, curiosity evident in his voice.

“Glad you asked. It's actually going really good so far, just needing a few revisions, and I'm hoping to add at least six more chapters,” he looked proud of his work, his blue eyes beaming.

“I can't wait until it's finished. It'll be a great read, Lukas,” he praised, Lukas becoming a bit flustered and uttered a ‘thanks.’ Jesse opened his mouth to say more, but closed it shut right after. He looked nervous, continuously fidgeting and scratching his head.

“Jesse, you look kind of off. You know you can tell me anything, right?” he reassured, patting his back. Jesse gave him a weak smile of gratitude.

“Well, I just really missed you. I just don't know what to say anymore. It's weird,” he admitted, his face growing pink. “I mean, not that I'm uncomfortable around you, hehe,” he added on quickly. Lukas raised an eyebrow at him, knowing that's not the whole truth. Jesse's eyes darted around the quaint little house anxiously, as he began to sweat.

“Uh.. Well. I guess I kind of like you?” he looked like he was about to die. Lukas froze for a second, then ‘very intelligently’ answered.

“Well, I like you too! You're my best friend!” Which received a facepalm from Jesse. Confused, Lukas tilted his head.

“Gosh, why do you have to be so cute?” Jesse whispered to himself, not so quietly. He immediately froze, smiling fakely in embarrassment. Lukas then understood what he meant earlier, turning a dark red.

“Haha.. you really think that way, huh?” Lukas teased, trying to play it off but failing miserably. “I guess me too?”

Jesse nearly fell over while sitting down. Incredible.

“You do?” he was very excited, but still had a bright pink dusting his cheeks.

“...Yeah.. yeah I do. Oh my gosh, I do!” Lukas didn't even realize he felt this way. He was freaking out in his sudden awareness of his feelings.

“Great!” Jesse threw his arms around Lukas, laughing at his reaction. Lukas managed to chill out a bit, hugging him back. Impulsively, he brought his face closer to Jesse's, their faces just inches apart.

They were very red, and very, very awkward.

“Umm, sorry..?” Lukas said.

Jesse just laughed slightly, then closed the gap between them, their lips colliding. Lukas' eyes widened, then closed slowly as he deepened the kiss.

After what felt like eternity, they seperated.

“Should I put this in the book or-”

“No please don't.”

Someone finally says it!!!

Can we stop this, it’s getting old

Y’all act like you didn’t make mistakes when you were 13-16 year olds

Can everyone just realize that while the writing may be faulty that they’re actually kind of realistic. Not everyone is mature enough to recognize the best decisions when you’re that young and we often make selfish decisions when other people enable us

Does that completely excuse bad behavior or justify hurting others? No. 

But at least we have an understanding of why people do the things that they do, which extends to our main characters.

I find it refreshing that Marinette isn’t perfect and as we keep progressing we see that neither are Kagami or Adrien. Marinette has a huge jealousy streak and it’s a major flaw that’s brought up so I can see how that’s tiring but speaking as a girl who was also the jealous type around Marinette’s age, it’s actually nice to see how a real teenager is depicted. Yes, acting on jealousy is incredibly selfish and we hurt other people unknowingly, but we shouldn’t completely label things as “good” or completely label things as “bad.” Marinette is a good character with a few bad characteristics and she tends to do a few bad things, but it’s better than having her be this squeaky clean character who is completely devoid of flaws and setbacks. It makes her more relatable and it makes it more empowering when she’s rewarded for the good things that she’s done.

I can see why everyone is kind of tired of seeing Marinette acting jealous/petty or why everyone is frustrated that Chloe isn’t getting a redemption arc, but you also have to realize that people don’t just change over night and that they actually have to actually dedicate time to recognize their mistakes and grow from them. People tend to relapse or fall back into bad behavior, not every redemption arc or growth arc is straight. 

Wouldn’t be weirder if Marinette completely accepted Kagami as Adrien’s love interest when she’s shown to be in love with him and has previously acted on impulsive jealousy? Wouldn’t it be a little weird if Chloe was super nice to everyone and did the right thing all the time when she’s always been a spoiled brat? Wouldn’t it be weird if our protagonists didn’t act like the characters they’ve always been established as? 

So please stop complaining about our characters not acting perfect, when you should just take it as it is and stop getting upset when they don’t reach your projected expectations

boys complimenting me:

me: :// 

my teacher leaving an ‘excellent work!!!’ on my essay: 

me, holding a wall for support: bro i’m just…..bro i’m just really teary i’m ghjdgfsdhjfjsdhf i’m hgjggjkhfkdjgj wow thank you idk what to say….bro idk why i’m fjhdsfkjdfg crying right now 

i really cannot stress enough to yall just how good oblivion is