thinking about shauna listening to jackie talk about jeff like he never even mattered when shauna is pregnant with his baby because she just wanted something jackie had and wanted to be wanted by someone who wanted jackie and now jackie doesnt even care anymore and shauna is stuck with this forever. and then jackie dies and then the baby dies but not before shauna has to give birth to him in the wilderness in winter surrounded by people who eat the dead and now fucking jeff sadecki is the last thing she has of either of them and what the hell is she supposed to do with that? she's stuck with him forever.
thinking about shauna beating lottie almost all the way to death to get all of that rage out of her and then when that rage is out of her they give her a knife and tell her to slit natalie's throat, and then when natalie runs and shauna is let off the hook for one thing for once they give her the knife again and tell her to cut up javi, the closest thing to a baby, so they can eat him, and now she's stuck with this, too. and all that rage she burned off didn't go anywhere, really. it's still right there.
and then im thinking about shauna watching lottie and everybody else crown natalie the queen for virtue of not dying, which is the same thing everybody has been doing, except for jackie and the baby and javi who all took chunks of shauna with them and left her with nothing but a knife.
im thinking about shauna who watches everybody gossip and laugh through the springtime knowing that when winter comes she will be the person who will have to cut them all up one by one so the rest of them can live and its very easy to see why she isnt friends with any of them anymore by then. she looks at them and she sees cuts of meat and how is she supposed to look at anybody normally ever again after that?
and its cruel, of course it is, everything she does to coach ben. it's not his fault, it's not about him at all, really, except that he is exactly the problem. he's innocent. he judges them. he sees what they have had to do to survive and pretends he never profited from any of it. pretends to be above it, uninvolved. he judges them. he judges her.
and shauna needs complicity from these people. she needs somebody else to know what it feels like to hold the knife. she needs people to be stuck with those guilty votes forever. tai with the gun and melissa with the knife and natalie at the butcher's table so that she's not the only one. and so ben is the sacrifice.
i saw somebody say that shauna doesnt want natalie to have to feel the pain of butchering a person, thats why she puts the cloth over his face. but that's not true. she *needs* natalie to know the pain of it, the guilt of it, the weight. The cloth is a lie she told herself would make it easier but she knows that Natalie is about to know what the inside of this man's joints look like either way and that she's going to be stuck knowing that forever.
they are going to be rescued someday and everybody will say "we did what we had to do to survive" and shauna needs to not be the only one who really has to mean that when she says it. and i guess she has that now. or she's about to.
i’m finally back with another name list! this time it’s beautiful uncommon names + their meanings, enjoy! Female: Adeena - Noble, gentle, delicate Agrafina - Wild Horse Ailith - Seasoned warrior Aislin - Vision Alaia - Beautiful shore Aloïsia - Famous warrior Amadrya - Tree Nymph Amara - Eternally beautiful Amaris - Child of the Moon; promised by God Ambrosine - Immortal Amice - Friend Anneliese - Favour; Grace; my God is a vow Annika - Sweet faced, God has favoured me Annistyn - Resurrection Aoife - Beauty, radiance Arianwyn - Woman of Silver Ariella - Lioness of God Asena - She-Wolf Asra - Travel at Night Asterin - Star Atalia - God is great Atarah - Crown Aurelia - Golden Aviva - Springlike and fresh Avyanna - Strong, powerful, beautiful Ayelet - Musical instrument; Gazelle Aziza - Precious Bathsheba - Daughter of an Oath Behtan - Strong beauty Bellona - War-like Betina - God’s promise Betla - A Woman who finds God in her oath Blyana - Strong Brina - Protector Briony - To grow; to sprout Briseis - One whom Achilles loved Cecily - Blind Cerelia - From the Springtime Ceren - Young Gazelle Charis - Grace and beauty Chaska - Star Goddess Chryseis - Golden Citlali - Star Goddess Clemenza - Merciful Corvina - Raven-haired Cynth - Moon Goddess Cyrilla - Lordly Czarina - A born Empress Cǽlestis - Heavenly Davina - Beloved Davrusha - Bee Desdemona - Ill starred Dhara - The Earth Dinah - God will judge Drusilla - Fruitful Dušana - Soul; spirit Edlynne - Princess Eira - Merciful Elara - Moon of Jupiter Eletta - Little Elf Elide - Battle Elizabella - Pledged to God Elowen - Elm Elska - To love Elspeth - My God is bountiful Enya - Fire Epona - Protectress of Horses Essie - Star Estefania - Crown Evolet - To breathe Farren - Wanderer Faustine - Fortunate Fenelle - White shouldered one Feyre - Human huntress Fiametta - Little flame Fifer - One who plays the Fife Filomena - Lover of strength Flanna - Red-haired Fleur - Flower Forsythia - Peaceful one Gadina - Flower garden Giséle - Noble offspring Hadassah - Myrtle tree, righteousness Hedda - Fighting a battle Hollis - One among Holly trees Imrie - Musical one Inerys - Literary inspired Ingemar - Of the Sea Ione - Violet coloured stone Iridessa - Resembling a Rainbow Iscah - She will look out Isolde - Ice-ruler Jenica - God’s gracious gift Kainda - Hunter’s daughter Kanani - The beauty Katalin - Pure Kathika - Bestower of courage Keelin - Slender; fair Kenna - Born of Fire Keturah - Incense Keziah - Cassia tree Kirsi - Frost Kova - Tough Ksenia - Wanderer, welcoming Leora - Light unto me Liusaidh - Warrior Loana - God is gracious Lovanna - Graceful warrior Luludja - Flower of life Mairéad - Pearl Makatza - Untamed; wild Malka - Queen Malle - Beloved Margita - Pearl Maris - Of the Sea Marzena - Dreamed one Mattea - Gift of God Maven - Brilliant; intelligent Mavi - Blue Meara - Sea Medha - Peacock Melantha - Dark Flower Melisande - Work; strength Merindah - Beautiful Miliana - Industrius; eager Minka - Resolute; strong Mirella - Admired; peace; wonderful Morgayne - Bright sea Muriel - Shining sea Nadalia - Born on Christmas Nadia - Delicate Narah - Queen of the Wolves Nascha - Owl Navya - Worthy of praise Nayadeth - Powerful Nayaya - The Apple of the eye Nereida - Sea Nymph Nesryn - Wild Rose Neysa - Pure Nila - Blue Nilsa - Defender Nimue - Lady of the lake Noelani - Heavenly mist Odelle - Harmonious Olene - Ancestor’s relic, heritage Opalina - Precious Gem Orlaith - Golden Orpah - Fawn Orsolya - Little She-Bear Penrose - Little Village Photine - Light Poloma - Bow Prisca - She who is ancient Renna - Little prosperous one Reumah - Exalted Reyna - Peaceful Queen Rhosyn - Rose Rieka - Protecter of the Wolf Rohana - One who travels a higher path Rohese - Fame; kind Ruthella - Friend Ríona - Pure Sabella - God is my oath Sadira - Lotus tree Salōmē - Peaceful Samaira - Enchanting Sansa - Charm; praise; invocation Saoirse - Freedom Sarai - Princess Savea - The Swedish nation Seallie - A Princess Selah - To pause and reflect on God’s word, to praise Sereia - Mermaid Shaye - Hawk-like Shivani - Flower Sidra - Like a star Sigrún - Secret victory Sitara - Star Solandis - Delicate flower Sorcha - Radient Svenja - Swan battle maiden Sybella - Prophetess, Oracle Tamar - Date Palm tree Taysa - Bound together Tova - Good Vaia - Purple Flower Valda - Spirited Warrioress Valeriana - Strong Vanadey - Forest Goddess Vanya - Butterfly Vela - Constellation in the Southern Sky Venelia - Of the Sea and Wind Verity - Truth Verna - Born in the Spring Victoriana - Victorious, grace Vigdís - War Goddess Viorica - Bluebell Viveca - Life Winola - Fair one Xiomara - Welcoming Zemira - A song Zephaniah - God has concealed; protected Zerenity - Calm Zilla - Shadow Zina - Shining, going back Zisel - Blinded Zoraida - Enchanting Woman Male: Aksel - Father of peace Alarik - Noble leader Alasdair - Defender of Men Alaster - Defending men; help Alec - Defender of Mankind Alejo - Helper; defender Aleks - Helper and defender Alesandro - Mankind’s protector Alessio - Defender Amadeus - Love of God Amory - Brave; powerful Andrik - Manly Andronicus - Man of Victory Anik - Soldier Arden - Great Forest Ashby - From the Ash tree farm Aytac - Moon crown Beauregard - Beautiful gaze Belen - Arrow Bemus - Platform Braddock - Broad Oak Bram - Raven Calix - Handsome Carsten - Follower of Christ Casimir - Polish, peace Caspian - Place name Cephas - Rock Cicero - Historian Cillian - Church Col - Victory of the people Connell - Strong Wolf Constantine - Constant Cy - Proud Dake - Dragon Demitrius - Lover of the Earth Deo - God-like Destan - By the still waters Drayce - Dragon Dru - Vision Egan - Little fire Einri - Home ruler Eliezer - God is my help Elis - Jehovah is God Embry - Flat-topped Hill Emeric - Leader Emir - Commander; Prince Emlen - Rival; eager Ender - Biblical Village Enoch - Dedicated Ephraim - Fruitful Erastus - Beloved Errol - Leader Erzsebet - Pledged to God Estevan - Crown Evander - Strong Man Ezekiel - God strengthens Ezio - Eagle Fallon - In charge Faustus - Lucky Felipe - Loves Horses Ferran - Journey; daring; brave Finnian - White Flavian - Blond Gideon - Having a stump for a hand Gwaine - Little Falcon Hagan - Strong desire Hayes - Hedged Valley Hester - Star Icarus - Legendary figure Isandro - Liberator Issachar - Reward Jaxith - Kind-hearted Jedidiah - Beloved of Jehovah Josephus - God will add Kahlo - Spanish Artist Kaius - Rejoice Kal - Most beautiful Karan - Pure Kase - Vigilant; wakeful Kato - Second of twins Keelan - Lean Keir - Dark; Black Kellan - Powerful Kenaz - This possession Keros - The reed of a Weaver’s beam Kosmos - Order Kristo - Christ-bearer Kyrell - The dark Kyril - Lordly Landis - From the grassy plain Layland - Protector of Men Leander - Lion Man Leopold - As brave as a Lion Leven - Life Lucian - Man of light Ludovica - Renowned Warrior Lyle - From the Island Magus - Magician Malkiel - God is my King Manasses - Causing forgetfulness Marcellus - Little Warrior Mattenai - Gift of God Matteo - Gift of God Mattias - Gift of God Maverick - Independent; Nonconformist Mordecai - Warrior Nathair - Snake Nehemiah - Comforted by God Neo - New Nero - The strong one Nicodemus - Vcitory of the people Nicos - Poeple’s victory Obadiah - Servant of God Odysseus - Full of wrath Olin - To inherit Omer - Sheaf of Grain Oren - Strength; fine; tree Orien - The Hunter Orrin - Mountain Othello - Acute Othniel - Strength of God Pancras - All powerful Quintavius - Wisdom; reason; intelligence; eighth Rand - Wolf’s shield Renny - Prosperous Reuel - Friend of God Reuven - Behold, a Son Richter - Judge Ryker - Rich Salvatore - Saviour Sansone - Sun Santos - Saint Silas - Woods; Forest Silvius - Wood; Forest Sirius - Sparkling Solomon - Peace Soren - Thunder Spiro - Spiral Stayros - Crowned Stefan - Crowned Stefano - Crown Sterling - Highest quality Tassos - Harvester Thaddeus - Gift of God Thane - Attendent Warrior Thorin - Thunder Torben - God of Thunder Torren - Swift; strong Trefor - Large settlement Ulric - Power of the Wolf; might Urion - From Heaven Uzziah - Strength of the Lord Vale - From the Valley Valor - Great bravery Vasilios - With royal blood Vaughn - Small Viggo - War Vitalis - Life Ward - Guardian Warlon - English house Warner - Guard; protector Warrick - Strong leader; defender Wendolen - White circle Wolfgang - Journey of the Wolf Wulfric - Wolf power Wylan - Polish Village Wystan - Battle stone Zaire - The River Zaire Zelek - A shadow
You have no idea the sacrifices that were made to put you on that throne.
i hear my heart breaking tonight do you hear it too?
”they’re making the dance about alicent and rhaenyra when its supposed to be between brother and sister weh weh weh” god forbid lesbians have anything
so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god
🌍✨ A Voice from Gaza: Fighting for Hope ❤️🩹
Hi, my name is Mosab , and I’m from Gaza. Life here has been harder than I could ever imagine, but today I’m sharing my story with hope in my heart, because your kindness has already given us so much strength.
This journey hasn’t been easy. The war has taken 25 family members from us—25 beautiful souls we loved deeply. Their laughter, their presence, their love… all of it is gone, leaving behind memories that are both precious and painful. Every day, I carry the weight of their loss, but I also carry their spirit, which gives me the strength to keep going.
Our Journey So Far
When I first reached out, I couldn’t have imagined we’d make it this far. Your support has been a light in these difficult times, and we are so deeply grateful for every single contribution.
But the road ahead is still challenging. Every day, we’re reminded of how much we’ve lost and how much we still need to rebuild.
Here’s what life in Gaza looks like for my family right now:
🏠 Safety: The uncertainty of tomorrow weighs heavily on us.
😢 Loss: The absence of the 25 family members we’ve lost is a pain we carry every moment.
💔 Dreams on Hold: The future feels so far away when survival takes all our strength.
How You Can Help Us Cross the Finish Line Even the smallest act of kindness can make a difference:
$5 may seem small, but for us, it’s a little relief, a moment of comfort, and a reminder that kindness still exists. ❤️
Can’t donate? Reblog this post to help us reach someone who can. Every share matters more than you know.
Why Your Support Matters Your kindness isn’t just about helping us meet our goal—it’s about reminding us that we’re not alone in this fight. It’s about hope. It’s about survival. And it’s about giving my family a chance to rebuild our lives, even in the face of unimaginable loss.
Thank you for helping us get this far. Your generosity and compassion have already brought us closer to a better tomorrow, and for that, I’m endlessly grateful.
With all my love and gratitude,
Mosab and Family ❤️