Welcome to my blog. A friend of mine suggested this website, showed me the ropes, and now I'm here. Since I haven't used my real name in decades, you can just call me Blue. I am a witch that died centuries ago, and long story short my soul was transferred to a doll's body after being infected with a disease that was created by a Lovecraftian nightmare hellbent on making Earth part of its body. I am ready to do this...blog thing. Also, if you notice anything odd just ignore it.
OOC: I stream whenever I can, but when I do I try to stream on Tuesdays and Thursdays at 8 p.m. I like to play old and indie games so if that is your thing come on by my Twitch. I also occasionally post videos on my YouTube as well :)
I also have a summary of Blue's backstory if anyone wants to read it. Just know that It's long and it's told from Blue's perspective.
RULES: -Please be 18+, I'm not a Lewdtuber by any means but I still don't feel comfortable with minors following me.
-Please don't ask personal questions (e.g. where I live, how old I am, etc). Some questions are fine but the real personal ones I just won't answer.
-Obviously don't be rude, hateful, yatta yatta you should know how to act like a decent person by now.
-When I post art, all I ask is to not have them reposted anywhere. I know my art isn't amazing but I still want to say it just in case. I'll add any more if I remember anything else, brain no work o(-<
Sorry everyone, im gonna have to cancel tonight's stream. I'm regrettably sick, and while that doesn't usually stop me, this time I can barely talk cuz of my throat ;-;
Idk if I'll stream tomorrow but we will see how I feel by then, hopefully better ;-;
Ok so I've been seeing complaints about Book 7's ending by a few minority not only here, but from other platforms as well. While everyone is of course allowed to dislike something, let's tackle a few points:
Malleus deserved a harsher punishment
Everyone witnessed Diasomnia's moment. Everybody knew he accidentally killed Lilia. Everyone knows how much Lilia means to Malleus. So everyone knows that there's no punishment harsher than the eternal scar of accidentally killing your own father.
And that's not enough, because he lost majority of his power. THIS is his prolonged punishment. We should remember that his entire life revolved around being the strongest, so all of his foundation hinged on that. If you're an artist, it's like losing your dominant hand and having to relearn how to draw with your other. Except in his case it's like losing both his hands so he needs to learn how to draw with his feet.
While it's true that he's far happier now than he was when he was strong, that doesn't mean he won't go through so much suffering as a consequence. For 200 years. 200 years of being weak means he's not fit to be king; no Dark Fae will follow a man akin to a common Fae. His nobles will not respect him. He's now a very easy target, since he's not indestructible anymore.
This basically means he's currently a pretty decoration to Briar Valley. An unemployed trust fund kid. Random people will likely mock him or treat him like an amusing animal in a zoo.
Which means he will have to build his reputation from the ground up, against all odds, as a disgraced prince.
Malleus tried to kill x and x
No he did not. He genuinely thought he found a breakthrough and was doing the world a service by making immortality accessible to everyone. Remember that he used to be the strongest; he thought nobody was just capable of this feat until he did.
He was quite literally insane at that moment. When he did accidentally kill Lilia, he snapped to his senses and immediately reacted like a small child. He doesn't want to believe it, because he would never do something like that. He simply doesn't want to kill anyone-- what he wanted was the opposite: that nobody needs to die anymore.
Everybody left him off the hook so easily
We get a lot of scenes explaining this. Sure maybe for you their reasons are bullshit, but the fact is that this is a Disney story. He would never be executed. But the following are from different accounts from different characters.
There were actually very few injured, because even though he was insane in dragon form, a part of his morality was there and he unconsciously avoided hurting people as much as possible. There are more injuries that happen in Spelldrive than who Malleus injured, according to Epel.
For the rest of the student body, they were simply having the best dreams of their lives. Many compared to it an amusement park and want to experience it again.
The other overblotters tried to protest, but were reminded that they too almost killed people. Some were genuinely out to kill people while Malleus wasn't.
Most people on Sage Island are actually good people, unlike NRC students. They embody the values of Fantasia Mickey, where the apprentice was given a second chance instead of being exiled because he showed actual remorse.
He is entitled and thinks he's always right
Yes he's entitled. But that's part of his character. He thought he was right, insisted he was right, but when he was defeated and told otherwise, he accepted it wholeheartedly. He was the only overblotter who actually apologized in public, recognized he did wrong, thanked everyone for helping him, and swore he will become a better man.
He literally can't take back anything that's happened. Kicking him further will not achieve anything.
Why didn't he talk it out with Yuu instead of immediately jumping to overblot
He doesn't even understand that he's feeling something negative. Nobody taught him to recognize his own feelings. He was raised to be strong and independent, so his first instinct was to deal with the problem himself.
He can't even talk it out with Lilia and Silver; there was no way he could talk it out to a friend he just met that year.
His power literally hurts his surroundings when he tries to feel things. He's likely afraid of accidentally striking someone with lightning or drowning them in storms if he admits that he's feeling down.
He didn't know too much negative feelings could lead to an overblot. He was already out of his mind before he knew it.
There could be more but these are off the top of my head.
Hey everyone!
Sorry I've been absent for the past..what? a couple of months? Shit has just been happening so I haven't had time to stream, make a video, or even post anything orz
So to catch everyone up on what's been going on, my room is slowly getting destroyed by water.
So I'm still sleeping out in the living room since my floor is starting to warp like...really badly. So bad that I have to walk on the floor beams so I don't fall through my waterlogged floor. On top of that, the hole that the raccoon created is still not completely fixed. Me and mom had checked the room a couple of days ago and there’s some mold slowly growing on the ceiling not too far from the hole. So even if everything was fixed I still wouldn't be able to sleep in there.
A family member did come over to make a temporary fix for both the hole and floor about a month or so ago, but the temporary fix for the hole just fell off a day or two ago so now I smell wet installation every time I walk in.
On top of that, the water is spreading into the hallway and bathroom. So we have to watch our step everytime we go near my room or the bathroom least we will start to sink.
So I’m gonna have to pack my belongings and move them somewhere else least they accidentally get waterlogged, fall forward, or through the floor.
But there is some good news to share.
I never really said all of this out in the open like this but basically Mom had a heart attack about 3ish years ago, she had gotten heart surgery and what not but the surgeon fucked up somewhere cuz not only did she still feel pain from the surgery, but the bottom part of where they had made the incision never healed causing more problems. It’s been like this ever since she got the heart surgery. On top that, just recently an actual, honest-to-good wire that they had used to keep the ribs together became loose and had started to poke out of the hole that never closed on her chest.
We had been trying to get this fixed for the past 3ish years, yet almost every doctor we talked to didn't want to actually do anything and kept telling us to go to different doctors, plastic surgeons, or back to the original surgeon who did this to begin with. The main problem was that the original surgeon that had done her heart surgery in the first place had retired, the plastic surgeons outright said ‘we can't do anything until you talk to a heart surgeon,’ or another doctor didn't want to touch her in fear of a POSSIBLE lawsuit. ORZ
This was twice as frustrating since the closest hospital that treats this sort of thing is an hour long from our house, and my very easily motion-sick ass didn't help things either.
We had only just now found a doctor who could help take the wires out and clean her wound so it could heal properly and not cause any pain to her. I'm still unbelievably pissed that it took this long for an actual doctor to finally help us instead of sending us off on another wild goose chase that would last for actual months. Thankfully, everything went as planned, the doctor made sure to clean everything up. Right now, she's out of surgery and is catching some much-needed Z’s. We would have gone home today, but her right eye was hurting so badly that we opted to stay at the hospital overnight.
That's what has happened these past few months. Sorry if this post looks like the ramblings of a madman, I haven't had a a decent night of sleep these last couple of days so my vision is a bit blurry. >_<
I’ll add my stream schedule to the pinned post but I stream on Tuesday's and Thursdays at 8pm.
But the reason I am making this post is because I'm gonna have to cancel tonights stream. I ended up with heat stroke and I feel violently ill >_<
Tuesday's just aren't my day it seems :c Hopefully I can stream on Thursday but we’ll see if I feel better by then
Sorry everyone, but i'm not gonna stream tonight.
My mom is having a bit of a sick day and im having really bad sleep episodes despite having slept all of last night and the night before. I swear we'll finish Parasite Eve but just not tonight ;-;
Will be a bit late to the stream!
My computer is giving me so much sass today! >:T
Gonna be a wee bit late to the stream! Computer got updates but the damn thing is stuck on 100% installation :|
But we shall continue with our Twisted Wonderland watch party with book 4 so get y'alls snacks!
As much as I would love to stream tonight, the storms around us is getting pretty bad. Im gonna go ahead and cancel tonight's stream just to be safe.
If tomorrow looks good and there aren't any scary storms then I might stream on Thursday but if not then I shall wait for Monday with our regular schedule!
Sorry about that everyone, but please be safe!
*waddles forward*
Once again, im gonna be a bit late to streaming tonight orz
“恣意天変” (capricious natural disaster) full Diasomnia song mv
with mp3 download