Having Fun With My Button Maker

HA! I have the same problem with the adjective ‘sexy’. 

weird asexual experience: i used to think i was straight and everyone around me was just grossly exaggerating sexual desire. like with the internet, and everything here being “the best thing ever.” so i started doing it too. and now even though i know that when a sexual calls someone “hot” they really do mean “i actually want to have sex with that person,” sometimes i see someone and i think or even say “he’s hot,” because even though i don’t want to have sex with them, i find their appearance pleasing and i have learned that that’s called “hot”.

Dean Winchester | 11x04  Baby

For whenever I'm having a tough day at work

I was kicked out of my best friend’s wedding party and then the next week I was told I wasn’t allowed at the wedding. It’s been a year and haven’t spoken with her. Still not over it.

why does no one talk about how friends can break your heart so devastatingly intimately sometimes a million times worse than romantic partners why does no one talk about friend break ups

RIP Vine †

squeezy-cheez The greatest factor for me has been the consistency of my experience. I spent years deeply confused about what I was feeling. At first I thought I was a late bloomer. Then I thought I was homosexual, because I think a lot of women are beautiful. Then I thought I was straight, because men are gorgeous. But during conversations about sex I was firmly not interested. I've repeated my disinterest over and over again in conversations and journaling through the years. And this was long before I knew and used the term asexual. I was talking with my cousin over coffee one night. We were discussing her new boyfriend and so forth. I confessed that I was a virgin; she was a little shocked and asked why. I told her I wasn't interested. She said that maybe I was asexual, it was something that had come up in her human sexuality course. I remember the next day I sat down and researched asexuality. I cried. No label has ever given me so much relief. This thing I was internally agonizing over for years had a name. I don't really think about sex on my own, the subject typically has to be brought to my attention. When the conversation does get going I feel so abnormal and uncomfortable. I feel broken almost every time. I struggle all the time with who I am. I worried, like you, that I was making it all up in my head. But the history of my experience is there. And most importantly, when I identified as asexual nothing about my experiencs changed, except that nowadays I am on average happier.

Ahhhhhhhh

Stop.

Pyre.