Jude’s Childhood And Trauma Was Not Unrealistic OR Outlandish, I Suffered It Daily And Millions Of

"I was raised Catholic," he began. "But you're not now?" the judge asked, frowning. "No," he said. He had worked for years to keep the apology out of his voice when he said this.

Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life

the fact that jude willem jb + macolm were never able to all be together again… they hung out for the last time and didn’t know it! they’ll never be able to argue about silly things in their dorms anymore what if i killed myself

“ ‘Sometimes it’s because I feel so awful, or ashamed, and I need to make physical what I feel,’ he began, and glanced at me before looking down again. ‘And sometimes it’s because I feel so many things and I need to feel nothing at all- it helps clear them away. And sometimes it’s because I feel happy, and I have to remind myself that I shouldn’t.’ “

A Little Life, Hanya Yanagihara

jude following brother luke into the greenhouse (and into the truck, and into motel after motel)

JUDE😭

thinking about how jude knew that two of his fellow students were on the spectrum so he researched their special interests so he’d be able to ask them questions they’d want to answer and make them more comfortable </3

JB talking about Jude

jb messaging jackson:

"The only person who sees Jude for exactly who he is, is Malcolm..." "..and Jude hates him for it, Jude resents him for it.." "..the interventions Malcolm makes in his home."

- Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life Play interview

"Willem's flaw is pretending....." "when you're having sex with someone, you can usually tell when they're not enjoying it.."

(indirect, Hanya's words, yet not in the interview ; "Harold's greatest flaw is not trying hard enough. He has compassion and love for those in his life, but he should have gone further."

"Andy, simply, is a bad doctor.")