IM BANGING MY HEAD GHUSHD

Instead

Instead of killing myself I’d colour for hours. Instead of killing myself I’d huddle up and watch movies intended for toddlers. Instead of killing myself I’d play with dollies. Instead of killing myself I’d play with my food. Instead of killing myself I’d spend my day with people who were the age I felt. Instead of killing myself I’d fall asleep drinking milk I warmed in a bottle. Instead of killing myself I coped.

But because I was under 18 I should have just killed myself right? ——————— I didn’t know then that there was a term for it, but are you saying that because I felt better, freer, acting 10 years younger (I was 12) that it was sexual? That I should have just saved myself the trouble and killed myself? Maybe I should have cut instead and just hoped I’d die, I know that was always tempting.

Tell me, what’s sexual about crayons? What’s sexual about dolls? What’s sexual about bottles? What’s sexual about a babbling like a toddler?

YOU turn it into a kink, YOU hunt down underage littles like a pedophile and prey on them. YOU take something that should be innocent and turn it into something vile and full of hate.

It was never a kink.

It was an “Instead.”

explosion

On my period

Big me:don't touch me.

Little me:GIVE ME ALL THE CUDDLES

Big me:i'm not hungry

Little me:I WANT ALL THE SWEETS AND COOKIES...AND PICKLES I FRIGGIN LOVE PICKLES

Big me:this is a normal part of life

Little me:I'M DYING SOS CALL THE AMBULANCE

Big me:*cramps* ow. *takes pain pills*

Little me:*cramps* THIS IS IT. THIS IS THE END. THIS IS HOW I DIE. THIS IS THE TIME I BLEED OUT AND DIE. GOODBYE WORLD.

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Self Love / Banish Negativity Spell

This is going to be a spell for bringing about self love and banishing negativity around yourself.

What you will need: ▪ A black candle ▪ White sage ▪ Oil of your choice (I’ll be using peppermint) ▪ Incense stick of your choice (I’ll be using white lotus) ▪ Optional: rose quartz

This spell is best performed outside, under the moonlight.

Steps: 1. The night before, charge the rose quartz in the moonlight, should you choose to use it. 2. Anoint your candle with the oil of your choice. Choose an oil that will bring positivity/banish negativity. 3. Place the candle in front of you, and sprinkle the white sage in a circle around it. 4. Place the incense of your choice before the circle of white sage, either in a holder or in the ground. 5. Light both the candle and the incense. 6. Holding the rose quartz, meditate. Focus on the flame of the candle, and the scent of the incense. Let the smoke bless you. Let the candle absorb the negativity. Feel the bad energy leaving your body with each breath. Allow only good energy to flow into your body.

Once you feel full of light, and free from the negativity, meditate for a few minutes. After doing so, you may snuff out the candle. Let the incense burn itself out.

Blessed Be 💓

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