From December 2020

a thing that annoys me a lot nowadays is the way the average person unceasingly consumes art in the vast ocean of information that is internet - especially young people.

most treat art as it is some kind of disposable and throwaway thing that serves ephemeral delights and put no effort into understanding it; it’s all about aesthetics and catchy visuals with no real depth or actual meaning.most of us nowadays don’t care who put effort into art - we don’t care who’s the person that manages to evoke and transmit all these feelings. it’s just an endless need to be aesthetic, beautiful and in-tune with modern standards consuming pictures like we consume our food and all the materials that we need to make ourselves “happy” but in the internet it comes for free; we don’t even have to try. 

makes me think the way we praise and give so much credit to older artists like picaso, warhol or dali after so many years but give no respect or visibility to modern artists that struggle to be relevant and the least succesful, in an institution that has done almost everything and drained itself out of ideas and original concepts. “there is a deeply ethical appeal in the desire for a more inclusive representational landscape and certainly under-represented communities can be empowered by an enhanced visibility, the terms of this visibility can often enervate the putative power of these identities." 

- peggy phelan (1996)

welcome…to night vale

a redraw of this inktober from way back when night vale was first taking off. the quote still resonates with me all these years later

I am so glad that the word blorbos exists now. It’s so much more evocative and accurate than “comfort character”. Like, they’re different things. He doesn’t bring me comfort, he makes my hands itchy and I want to polish him with pledge. I want to put him in a Pringles tube and shake him. I want to brush his hair and put little shoes on him like a Bratz doll. That’s a blorbo.

Skip Google for Research

As Google has worked to overtake the internet, its search algorithm has not just gotten worse.  It has been designed to prioritize advertisers and popular pages often times excluding pages and content that better matches your search terms 

As a writer in need of information for my stories, I find this unacceptable.  As a proponent of availability of information so the populace can actually educate itself, it is unforgivable.

Below is a concise list of useful research sites compiled by Edward Clark over on Facebook. I was familiar with some, but not all of these.

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Google is so powerful that it “hides” other search systems from us. We just don’t know the existence of most of them. Meanwhile, there are still a huge number of excellent searchers in the world who specialize in books, science, other smart information. Keep a list of sites you never heard of.

www.refseek.com - Academic Resource Search. More than a billion sources: encyclopedia, monographies, magazines.

www.worldcat.org - a search for the contents of 20 thousand worldwide libraries. Find out where lies the nearest rare book you need.

https://link.springer.com - access to more than 10 million scientific documents: books, articles, research protocols.

www.bioline.org.br is a library of scientific bioscience journals published in developing countries.

http://repec.org - volunteers from 102 countries have collected almost 4 million publications on economics and related science.

www.science.gov is an American state search engine on 2200+ scientific sites. More than 200 million articles are indexed.

www.pdfdrive.com is the largest website for free download of books in PDF format. Claiming over 225 million names.

www.base-search.net is one of the most powerful researches on academic studies texts. More than 100 million scientific documents, 70% of them are free

Some visuals to go with my rpg horror story I posted on reddit.

I was trying to figure out why I got attached to this guy so much and I think It might have been his sense of perseverance. I always put a bit of myself into my characters and his struggles reminded me of my own when I was younger, when I was getting bullied by people I thought were my friends while dealing with the things my family put me through.

His core is the survival instinct people have despite even their own brains working against them and it's something that shaped me as a person as well.

Weirdly enough when I made this chart I was surprised that the art I make is influenced by my own emotions. Shocking I know. Like bruh the colour was literally sucked out of it! How did I not see it?

|| Important Announcement Regarding Fanart ||

     It is becoming even more apparent that people aren’t respecting fanartists and their works. The best rule of thumb is If you didn’t draw it, or receive artist permission to repost it for them,  DON’T DO IT. You shouldn’t like/reblog unsourced art as it only encourages blogs to continue doing so and their actions going unchanged. Tags like;

#Credits to the artist

#Credits to the owner

#Not my art

#facebook

#weheartit

#pinterest

#google

#deviantart ( as in mentioning you found it there without linking the appropriate member you found from.)

[Etc.]

These are not proper credits. Also, even if you ARE crediting the artist make sure it hasn’t been posted numerous times or you aren’t reposting their art when they have it already posted on their personal tumblr. The point of them posting it on tumblr is to share it with us and it isn’t hard to hit that reblog button. It shows the artist that their work was enjoyed and it serves further to encourage them to continue with the hard work.

“If they didn’t want it on the internet they shouldn’t have posted it.”

I see this statement a lot, obviously they wanted to share their work and share their passion with everyone but is it really so hard to go to their page and like/share it from there? If there is a picture that you are uncertain of it’s source and you would like to see it’s source or share it with someone give saucenao.com a try. Sometimes careless fans constantly reposting art gets the artist in trouble become of distribution and laws. Example; A fellow artist of mine mentioned about a law changes in their home country made them take their art down simple for if the government saw/deemed it inappropriate, even if someone else was reposting it. They would be fined heavily and possible even go to prison. They ended up taking down all of their “shipped” art but still worries that their art could be circulating. Also there are other law and regulations we aren’t aware of and when more posting occurs outside of the artist knowledge can cause them to remove the art all together. 

“I don’t speak ” —- “ so I couldn’t ask them anyway.”

There are a few really good guides about asking members on pixiv if you can reblog or use their art for blog things. ( Example right here—- >> [x] ] They even pre set some phrases for you to copy and paste and also published what some replies would translate to. Also there is a good chance that a few of them speak a little english. If the artist says no, THEN DON’T DO IT.  I shouldn’t have to say that. I don’t care if everyone and their dying grandma does it. So quick review;

If you didn’t draw it, don’t post it without permission

You see something else someone posted without credit, don’t like it or reblog it. 

External outside multimedia (weheartit, pinterest, facebook, etc.) are not sources.

I am tired of seeing art that I like but I have seen many times being reposted and have 20 separate posts being reblogged over again. I also hate not liking a picture due to improper handling. It is sad, rude, and really disheartening to other artists who want to share their works and I hate it most when the artist has to take their work down.

The worst thing about getting diagnosed with a disability/chronic illness as a young adult is realizing I’ve dealt with a lot of these problems since I was born. Without having a diagnosis, no one listened to me, and I’ve lived my entire life pretending to be a “normal” functioning person while suffering alone for survival. Whenever I couldn’t pretend anymore, there was just something wrong with me “emotionally” or I’d be given a bandaid to make me feel better temporarily. It was so easy for my doctors and parents to make snap judgments that left me/my body at fault. Moody, difficult, anti-social, spoiled, anxious. I thought there was something wrong with me mentally my entire life because I’ve been consistently dismissed, invalidated, and expected to be high functioning without accommodations. I wonder if my nerves would cause so much pain if my sensitivity was acknowledged or if I’d have trouble walking right now if I wasn’t pushed beyond my limits. It’s so much harder to accept disability as an adult because of the amount of ableism I’ve unconsciously internalized over the years. Being loved, worthy, and successful has only ever been associated with performance and productivity :/

Another Dnd party art, this time from December 2021. I made it to commemorate the finale of a heavily homebrewed Curse of Strahd game. It was the first campaign I've ever finished and we had a successful sequel after.

More of Finch from February 2021