“Before Tumblr I Was Spending The Same Amount Of Time On The Computer But I Seriously Cannot Recall

I have been up for over 40 hours straight. God, I'm so tired, but everytime I try to close my eyes I'm reminded of all the things I've been running from. It's not so bad, really. I just sometimes wish things were a bit simpler. For most of my life I thought I was a freezer. When faced with issues or uncomfortable situations I wouldn't run, or fight, I'd just freeze. I would become an incomprehensible mess. But honestly I'm a runner. Maybe not in the most obvious or traditional of ways, but when I can't physically run, I run emotionally. I isolate, I push away, I retreat so deeply into myself, sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be able to find my way back out. In a way it's worse than freezing, because when you are frozen at least you're still. When you're running, there's no break, there's no pause button, it's just you in this ongoing whirlwind, pulling you further and further away from who you used to be.

Finance Girl Starter Pack

1. Books

You will read books but don’t be overwhelmed by them. Every finance book reiterates the same thing. Understand the difference between personal, corporate, public, and international finance. Hence there are certain I moody to vocabulary for each field. Once you become family with the basics, it will be easier to understand as you go on.

2. Finance media

Being on top of the financial news is a good way of knowing the finance. You’ll come across real life scenarios of some of your textbook definitions. Watch CNBC, Bloomberg. You can read Wall Street Journal, Barron’s, Kiplinger. You can also check online sources like Investopedia, Nerdwallet, and some interesting ones that include news on fintech.

3. Productivity & tools

My favorite is Notion. I use it to track assignments and projects, Google Calendar is your friend. Know how to use Google Docs. Play with various tools to figure out which you like best.

4. Skills

Knowing how to use Excel and PowerPoint is a pathway to opportunities. Use YouTube first, then try other classes available on Udemy, Coursera, or eDx. Build up skills in modeling and business analysis. Communication and other soft skills should also be worked on.

5. LinkedIn

LinkedIn is very important to network in finance. Start with a professional headshot. You can connect with industry leaders and corporations you’d like to work for. Create a profile that includes your skills, showcase your financial modeling, dashboards, infographics. Be consistent and engaging.

6. Good business wear

A wardrobe of staple work clothes will go a long way for interviews and busy work days. Two to three blazers ( including tweed), a classic work bag, comfortable shoes, formal dress, and pants. The goal is to be business- professional, business-casual, or business-chic.

He calls for me and

I disperse into butterflies

I yearn for him

He turns to sunshine.............

*the man who taught me love, taught me pain*

everytimeyousaygoodbye ©

“We’ll survive, you and I.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald

"You can romanticize me all you wish, but the devil wrapped in silk is still the devil."

A Word to my Lovers

What do yall think cuz its for a competition and i need the 1k

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I am not okay

Why?

I have a nice life

A good school

Good grades

A good family

So why?

Is it the fact that no matter how many positive things I have, there'll still be negative things?

Is it the fact that I serve no purpose?

Is it our misogynistic society and that I, as a woman, can never do anything about it?

I always knew that, but I still can't get it in my head

I can't accept it

I won't accept it

Regret is something all of us have experienced

I've regreted many things

And talking about my feelings is one of them

You might say

"Get a therapist" or,

"Talk to your guidance counselor"

or better yet,

"Talk to your parents"

I can't trust any of them

I'd rather talk about my feelings to people the same as me or I'd rather not talk about my feelings at all

People were raised differently, in different places, and by different people

You can't talk about loving the same gender to someone homophobic

can you?

The system is flawed

I know that

Yet I don't know why

Living is the most beautiful yet cruelest punishment

I wish I was aborted

You wouldn't like that

You would say

"Don't say that! Abortion is a sin"

Wouldn't you?

Please don't say that

There are people you can talk to

You feel bad for them

Because the fact you can talk to them

Means they've gone through the same thing

Don't help people when you can't help yourself

I've seen people do this

You aren't bound to anyone

Don't let them force you to help them

Pretty privilege is something that I would never have right now

You would probably say

"Don't mind them! You are beautiful"

I'm not

I know it

I don't mind

I'd rather have money

Do I disgust you?

Don't tell me

I'd rather not know

Nothing can hurt me that way

Friends are hard

I don't have friends

Friends are people you can talk to

Laugh with

Play with

I don't have friends

I talk to people, of course

I would go insane if I didn't

But I don't have friends

This poem is all over the place

With no main point

I don't know how to organize things

I'm sorry

Please forgive me

Please don't say I'm silly or being dramatic

Please respect me

Please don't make fun of me

Please

I am sad

I feel sad alot

But

I am also happy

I also feel happy alot

I am

Me

I can get through this

I can endure it

I am satisfied

I am okay

“It makes me sad waking up alone when there’s someone willing to wake up with me.”

—

Water says to the dirty, “Come here.”

The dirty one says, “But I am so ashamed.”

Water says, “How will you be made clean without me?”

- Mawlānā Rūmī

"If I had a drop of rain for every time that I felt love for you, I would be able to romance the moon with an ocean of my own.."

If you smiled for every time that I felt love for you, you would be happy for the rest of your life - eUë