“I Don’t Know What My Goals Are, No. Thanks For Asking.”

I don't know how Thomas Sanders does it because I would've gotten a lobotomy the second my imaginary friends started keeping secrets and lore from me

My pronouns are he, not him.

Because I'll never be him.

While my last post for Nader's family's campaign got to 4,000+ notes, it quickly slowed in donations, and the poll got 7,000+ votes. This means a lot of people did stop to look at the post because of the poll, but not interact much beyond that, which is disheartening considering a lot of people on here post about Gaza.

It is a very simple donation process--you don't need an account or anything--and literally any amount is appreciated.

I'm asking today for people to match my donation of (at least) €10 (share evidence in the notes if you want), and if you know anyone who could get the campaign more traction on here or another site, share it with them, especially if you've shown support for the cause.

My poll mentions Halloween because it's coming up and a popular holiday in the US and a time to remember that no tragedy is put on hold while you find enjoyment in such things.

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god. janus sanders really is a character of all time, just in terms of concept. when you were a little kid, you did something wrong, and you got so scared of getting in trouble that another little guy was born inside you. and he loves you. and he wants you to stay safe. so he tells you to lie now, take care of yourself now, keep yourself safe. but all the other little guys inside you hate him. he's too mean, too selfish. the little guy that was born from your desire to do good and be good hates him the most, because you're a little catholic boy, and lying is bad. and you're a good boy. so everything inside you that isn't good has to be shut away.

he knows he's not wanted. he creates his own place to stay, a hidden corner where he can't hurt you. because all the others say that he'll end up hurting you, and he can see how scared you are of being a liar, so he lets himself be forgotten. hidden away. this is how he shows his love: by hiding himself, and every subsequent unwanted part that grows inside you, from you. if knowing about their existence is too difficult for you, then he'll hide them all. he loves you. you don't even know his name.

he watches you grow, still unaware of his existence. the others make their presence known, felt. you let them take the reigns, most of the time. he sneaks in his own little influence here and there; small, harmless lies, only when necessary, so you won't even notice. and in the meantime, he acts as a herder of sorts for all the other parts of yourself that you've subconsciously cast away. he keeps them in line. he sympathizes with them, yes, he knows what it's like to be unwanted. but letting you see them would hurt you, and he loves you. so he keeps them there, in the shadow, unknown and unseen, just like him.

one of them, one of his little dark, unwanted things, doesn't want to be hated anymore. he wants to make himself known. he wants a seat at the table. and, in an ultimate slap to the face for janus, he gets it. virgil gets everything that janus was denied from the start. acceptance. power. control. his effort is acknowledged, his necessity is embraced. he gets a seat at the table. he doesn't have to hide anymore. and janus can't help but resent him for that. maybe it's a good thing, then, that the hatred is mutual. not even his own cattle, the ones he kept safe, the ones he kept out of thomas' way, can stand his presence. fine. none of it matters. as long as you're safe, it was all worth it. he loves you. you still don't even know his name.

janus was always thomas' protector. even when none of it was ever seen or acknowledged.

i find his mixed motif really interesting too, because before we knew his name, we only knew him as deceit. the snake. the ancient serpent deceiver, the biblical snake of eden. but then we hear his name. janus. ianus bifrons, two-faced janus, god of beginnings, passage, transitions. i think that his name being revealed was very much the start of thomas beginning to see janus for who he actually is, instead of the heavily modified version of him that he's been seeing, courtesy of his catholic upbringing.

soon may the wellerman come, your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb

"it's all in your head" correct! unfortunately I am also in there

I am absolutely OBSESSED with any series where one person plays every character