Hello Again, Some Time Since I Posted Something 😅 I Know It Might Be A Little Late, But After Watching

Now a couple of people that got recommended by a friend.

Attack No. 3: Glicero Garas by Glitch_B0i02

I finally got over my art block 😀

The key was, to draw something different than what I was struggling with. I was so frustrated and at the same time fixed on drawing the face right, that I didn't realize that I had no fun doing that. After my mother asked me why I don't draw something different than faces, I drew her a couple of trees to prove that I could draw something different. after that I continued with the trees and realized that I was missing fun while drawing. Thanks for that, mom😘

I was listening to one of my usual playlists and then I had this scene once again in my head. I thought, why not try to draw it and it turned out amazing 🤩 I really need to draw more backgrounds, it's fun. I was also able to put my perfectionsim aside for that one. It's so imperfect that it makes it perfect again.

In this picture, you see my oc Ike. Since I don't want this post to get too long, I will introduce you to his backstory another time.

I finished it 😁 After two weeks of concept, developing the character and drawing this piece, I can proudly announce that I've finished this drawing.

And I've learned soo much in the process. I'm still not sure how I got the horn that shiny but I love his yellow eye and the fire in the background.

I also integrated him into my head-canons for my story "In-Between". His name is Derag and he is a half Demon destroying one world after another. In the process of planning this piece, I took a day time to write a chapter of his story and I also got this to a point where I can call the chapter finished (maybe it's not perfect but I can still improve on writing the next one)

Here it is, if you want to read it (Trigger Warning: descriptive violence):

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One tried to crawl away, even after I cut off his leg. I picked my staff out of the corpse in front of me and slowly walked towards him, "Oh, and on what kind of adventure did you want to embark on?" He was still focusing on getting away but I clearly heard his huffing become louder.

It didn't take long for me to reach him and I kicked him to the ground. He was staring at me with fear and oh, how did I love that expression. The moment when you realize that it'll be over soon. That you don't stand a chance. That you're powerless. I couldn't hold back a smile spreading on my face, "Hey, I asked you something." I ram my staff into his shoulder. He screamed, but since he was the last one, that wasn't a problem at all. I enjoyed it.

I started to spin my weapon around, digging a deep hole in his shoulder, "Honestly, if you had answered me, I might have considered ending it quickly. But now, I don't want to. That's why I'll make it painful. Because you acted rude." I fixed him on the floor by pushing my staff through and took a couple of steps back, "As you can probably imagine, I don't get many possibilities to talk to somebody. But you …"

I turned my attention back to my victim, "… You're boring." I pulled out my staff and sliced his neck. And after he stopped choking there was only calming silence left. Surprisingly, it didn't last for too long. I heard whispers coming from not too far. Were there more than these couple of people? Then why didn't I notice them earlier?! That guy's scream probably warned them! God, dammit! I need to get rid of them quickly before they manage to warn anyone!

I walked towards that direction. I was confirmed to be going in the right direction as the whispers turned into terrified screams. As I arrived at the source of the voices, I was standing before a group of young women. They pushed one of them towards me, causing her to trip and fall. One of them exclaimed, "W-We give you this sacrifice and you leave us alive!"

… I wasn't expecting that. I wouldn't have thought they would be the kind of people 'sacrificing' somebody to save their own skin. What do they think I am?! A bloodthirsty demon, who feeds on his victims? Hah! Then I realized I was still staring at the woman in front of me. She didn't even dare to look up at me. These women were not different from the men I killed earlier. I couldn't stand people like them.

I grabbed my staff and threw it towards the one who talked. The tip of the blade impaled her through her chest against a tree. The others screamed. As one tried to run away, I grabbed her by her neck and choked her to death, "You know, I hate people who abuse weaker ones to hide their own weakness." I dropped the corpse on the floor. One of them stood there terrified with that priceless expression on her face. As I walked towards her she started begging with teary eyes, "P-Please! D-Don't kill me! I-" I smashed her against a tree, causing her to drop dead.

Then I turned my attention to the woman on the floor. She still didn't move an inch and tried not to cry. I guess she was scared. Strangely, I was hesitating about what to do. Normally, I would go and make her death quick, but for some reason that felt wrong this time. Maybe it was because I witnessed how the others treated her.

I went over to the tree and pulled my staff out of the stem, causing the corpse to drop on the floor, "You know, I hate to kill women but these ones were insufferable and deserved it." I noticed how she sat up behind me. As I looked at her, she froze. It almost seemed as if she would have stopped breathing for me to not notice her. But now I was able to see her face for the first time. Her tearful face with her green eyes staring at me hopelessly.

I crouched down in front of her, "They did you pretty bad, huh?" She was still staring at me but carefully nodded. I tilted my head to the side, "Tell me, what's your name?" She answered after a couple of seconds, "A-Amelia." I smiled at her, "It's a pity, I have to kill you, Amelia. But sadly, you would go and warn others about me." I expected her to say she wouldn't and beg for her life, but she didn't. I guess she was probably the type of person to freeze in fear.

I straightened up and stretched, "But the least I can do is promise to make it short and painless." "… C-Can I ask for a last wish?!" I looked surprised at Amelia. She was just going to accept that? Not going to beg for her life? … interesting. I responded carelessly, "A wish?" She seemed to gather all her confidence to speak, "I - … I-If I h-have to … to die … Can I … Can I a-at least k-know your name?"

I burst into laughter, "Hahaha! I wasn't expecting this! You're about to be killed and your last wish is to know my name…" I crouched down and gently took her face causing her to flinch, "You don't need to waste your final wish to know my name, sweetheart. But surprisingly for all the worlds I have been in, you're the first one to ask for it. But it's not that many people would have meaningful conversations with me…"

I got up and prepared my staff to chop her head off, "My name is Derag. I also like to call myself destroyer of worlds… Do you have any last words, Amelia?" First, she stared at the floor. But then, she looked up with a smile, "M-Maybe we meet again in another life, Derag." How was it possible that she smiled in a situation like this? Where was that fearful face of realization when everything comes to an end?

She was … different. I wasn't used to that kind of behaviour causing me to hesitate once again. Then I swang my staff and … I stopped. She didn't move. She didn't even flinch as I was about to cut her head off. She only scrunched her face up, preparing for what came next. But I stopped before the blade reached her neck.

I didn't want to do this. Not to her. Not after she was the only person ever really talking to me. She was betrayed by the other women, gathered all of her confidence to speak to me and it should end like this? That wouldn't be fair, would it? I took my staff aside and she opened her emerald-green eyes. She even looked a little confused.

I was desperate to explain the situation, "I, sigh … Listen, I don't want to kill you, okay? But If I let you go, you'll warn the others and I cannot allow that to happen." She looked at her now-dead companions, "… I guess they would already know if I returned alone." Then she stared scared at me again. I avoided looking at her face and looked back at the corpses. If I couldn't let her go back and didn't want to kill her, then what was I supposed to do with her?

Suddenly, I had an idea, "Amelia… You were the nicest person, I've ever met. So I want to make you an offer. Normally I would kill everyone in a world and then erase it, but I could make a little exception. If you want, you can come with me, or stay in this world. It's your decision."

I reached her my hand. She looked at it with her eyes wide open. Then she looked at me again, "I … I want to go with you." She took my hand and I helped her get up. I smiled at her, "Alright. Then we should leave, Amelia. I'll have enough time to destroy this world the next time." I called out for shadow and he brought us to my world.

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(And if you want to know what happened before, I don't know either 😂 Maybe I'll figure it out after some time, maybe not)

Found this little goober while looking through my sketchbook.

Been doodling. That's my OC Percy. He's a cute one ... also a poor soul. I made him being hunted by a ghost.

Motivation and an Idea

I am currently trying to draw my characters, but since I kind of struggle with that, I decided to take a break from that today and rather start figuring out how to write about them. Then I realized, it's probably best, if I first introduce the main idea that connects all (/most) of them.

As I started, I had two things: motivation and an idea.

After I played Undertale for the first time, I discovered the huge fandom behind it and realized that the world I loved so much had a whole other dimension to it (literally 😂). I saw the great content people made, like art or music. That made me plant the little seed of motivation into my head. I was thinking, maybe I could make something that great as well.

That was the moment I started to write a story. I didn't feel too confident to draw anything, so the best thing I could do was write. I was really proud of how it turned out. It was pretty basic and stuck to the normal game. I also had this idea (not the one I was talking about up there, but it's important for where I am now) that I was suppressing, since I wanted to focus on my AU.

One evening, I decided to give that idea a chance and after I kept dreaming the entire night about it, I spent the entire morning putting it into words. The phase after that, I call the downfall. My problem is that I am a perfectionist. So I kept rewriting the chapters until I finally managed to break the story for myself. After ten attempts, an almost finished first chapter with thirty pages, almost a year time spent running in circles and a couple other reasons I finally managed to kind of let go. (I still think there could maybe the possibility that I might be able to tell that story, but for now it's best to leave it behind. I also kind of can't let entirely go. For example: I use the main character in my profile pic 😊)

After realizing that I needed to stop since it lead nowhere, I needed something new to be obsessed with. While writing, I also wrote down a couple of ideas for potential later characters. And as I reviewed what I had collected, I realized that two of them would fit quite well as a duo. First, I still wanted to include my old character as well, but I let go of that after another month.

Now, that I've explained my motivation, it's time to present my idea! (... why is this becoming so long? 😅)

I wanted to take the concept of the genocide run in another light. I mean sure, there were so many worlds out there, where people just killed for fun or they didn't have another choice. My first characters lean more into the category of it being an accident. Since this was the main concept I was going by, I called my AU 'Club of Genociders' (by now, I don't really like that name but it still fits and I have currently no better idea how to name it.)

After FINALLY having explained my main concept (and rambling too much 😂) I can tell that this little idea snowballed into such a huge story. I am still struggling to put it all into words, so I figured it's best to share what I have to avoid making the same mistakes again. but what's most important, I love the way everything is evolving. From the characters, over the storyline to major plot twists. I also realized that I keep adding new possible characters to the story (not sure if I'll include them all though. That really depends on how the story turns out.)

If you made it this far, thanks for reading 😊 (I really didn't want to make it that long 😅)

I've always wanted to draw this tree and it was fun 😁

(and I get better at drawing backgrounds 😀)

Dreamtale by @jokublog

current mantra

Some WIP-concept I came up with for an OC. His name is Decay. He is one of the seven guardians from the "In-Between". His left arm is completely covered in decay causing him to slowly dissolve everything he touches. He is also left-handed.

Might be that I also add something more to his design, but for now, I am pretty glad to finally have something I am kind of pleased with 😊

Me trying to get adjusted with my new markers 😜

And little sneak peak on my next piece.

Lineart is already done but I'm too afraid to color it so I did the sketch above.

Also, this dude's name is Decay (at least for now. I am currently in a phase of overhauling all my ocs from this story and he might also get a new name as the others because I was back then just lazy picking them.)

His arm dissolves stuff, if the name didn't alteady tell 😀