Things I Can’t Wait For:

But wait SR, what if, WHAT IF, KK attends SNL tomorrow because they actually met in the Red era and it’s the 13th! I will literally die, dead 💀 like my soul will leave my body, if she makes an appearance at the show or the after party.

C’Mon Taylor honor your vow and be over dramatic to commemorate the day you met your lover! 🥰 we have full faith in you!!!

guys there are so many parallels to her other songs in mr. perfectly fine

all too well: “so casually cruel in the name of being honest”

mr. perfectly fine: “mr. casually cruel”

last kiss: “you told me you loved so why did you go away?”

mr. perfectly fine: “mr. looked me in the eye and told me you’d never go away”

how you get the girl: “when you left her all alone and never told her why”

mr. perfectly fine: “mr. never told me why”

I knew you were trouble: “no apologies, he’ll never see you cry”

mr. perfectly fine: “mr. never had to see me cry”

dear John: “long were the nights when my days once revolved around you”

mr. perfectly fine: “mr. everything revolves around you”

the story of us: “I used to know my spot next to you, now I’m searching the room for an empty seat”

mr. perfectly fine: “sashay your way to your seat. it’s the best seat in the best room”

white horse: “it’s too late for you and your white horse to catch me now”

mr. perfectly fine: “someday maybe you’ll miss me but by then you’ll be mr. too late”

swifties, gaylor, & homophobia

here goes...

i think it’s quite telling that many swifties, including myself, cannot even post something where we mention that we often find queer themes/subtexts in taylor’s music with tags that other swifties use. when i use #taylorswift, i am bombarded by crowds of fans who tell me i am intrusive and disgusting.

first off, i want to know what the fuck is so disgusting about lesbianism? i want to know why it is permissible for straight swifties* to speak openly about taylor's sex life and not find their behavior encroaching, but the second i mention a lyric that strikes me as sapphic, i am being invasive?

i am not out here screaming TAYLOR SWIFT IS FUCKING GAY IF YOU OBJECT YOU'RE A LOUSY, HOMOPHOBIC BITCH IN DENIAL!!! i am simply pointing out how accurately taylor depicts the queer experience.

the only times i use examples from things in taylor's life that are not her songs are when there are obvious themes/motifs that stem from her music into her interviews, photoshoots, comments, and hidden messages. i interpret lyrics the way i interpret them, you interpret them the way you interpret them. all i am doing is noting queer themes in her songs, songs she puts out for the world to hear and explicate any way we wish.

i am analyzing what she deliberately puts out into the world, not her.

not to mention, she wants us to analyze these songs. she has said so before. she intentionally puts hidden messages in her album booklets, along with dropping hints as to who and what her songs are about.

if she was so uncomfortable with some of us interpreting her music as queer, with some of us interpreting certain things she says and/or uses visuals to represent as queer, don't you think she would say it? it would take mere seconds to log onto twitter and tell us to quit what we are doing. but she doesn't. straight swifties* are so incredibly defensive, and for what?

i see a lot of "well, everyone who interprets her music as gay is gay themselves, they're just projecting 🙄" and of course, i can't speak for everyone, but i know that taylor's music and the way she describes things resonate with queer swifties (myself included) in certain ways because we have experienced the things she describes. we have had to hide who we are, what we want, and who we are with. we relate to songs in which taylor expresses her fear of people finding her out because that is many of our everyday realities.

a lot of what makes many of us flock to any kind of gaylor group is homophobia from other swifties. we are shunned in swiftie spaces for saying things such as "wow, cowboy like me depicts a bearding relationship in hollywood perfectly" or, "as a queer woman, i identify with i know places, it seems like taylor has experienced what i have experienced."

i want to know this: if you are allowed to take taylor's music and apply it to your life, why can't i do the same?

from the way straight swifties* talk, i guess speculation about who she is dating is perfectly acceptable, until that speculation includes her dating a woman?

i don't want to have to stay in a smaller space of swifties, i'd love to interact with larger parts of the fandom. but if you're going to come at me for interpreting music differently than you do, if you are going to be blatantly homophobic, i am going to stick with people who are willing to be open minded, who are willing to look at different perspectives and let people interpret taylor's music the way they want to.

*when i say "straight swifties" i don't mean every straight person who enjoys taylor swift. i am referring to the swifties who refuse to even coexist with any of our queer interpretations of her music

y’all really weren’t listening when taylor said so i wander through these nights, i prefer hiding in plain sight, my fourth drink in my hand these desperate prayers of a cursed man, spilling out to you for free, but darling, darling, please, you wouldn't take my word for it if you knew who was talking, if you knew where i was walking, to a house, not a home, all alone 'cause nobody's there, where i pace in my pen and my friends found friends who care, no one sees when you lose when you're playing solitaire.

the archer theory about taylor swift coming out.

well, i've seen some people talking about this song and i had to listen to it again, since it's one of my favorite songs on lover and it also has to do with the theories and the meaning this song has to me.

i don't want to apply this to anyone so feel free to SKIP and NOT READ if you don't agree that this is a LGBTQIA+ song.

pure my own interpretation but you don't have to come to me if you don't like, she has a lot of songs and some of them are free for interpretations and they have different meanings to different people.

the first line it's:

“combat, i'm ready for combat / i say i don't want that but what if i do?”

this line to me has the deepest meaning and it comes along with the one in you are in love “and you will understand now why they lost their minds and fought the wars” and in ivy “this is the goddamn fight of my life and you started it” and both songs are before and after the archer which makes the archer in the middle.

the combat she's (maybe) referring to it's about coming out being (still) the american dream and the woman everyone looks up to when it comes to pop music, she says she don't want it but what if she does? what if she want to fight for it, fight for who she is and who she wants people to see that she really is? it's a combat because you can't come out if you're not ready to start a war against the world.

“cause cruelty wins in the movies / i've got a hundred thrown-out speeches i almost said to you”

cruelty here, to me, it's about how cruel it is to not have the story of your life in the big screen, like, we grow up seeing the bad stories about LGBTQIA+ couples and it's always about how they didn't end up together or how bad they are treated. the “speeches i almost said to you" looks like something she was ready to say to us, her fans, and she didn't had the chance or she wasn't really ready.

“easy they come, easy they go / i jump from the train, i ride off alone / i never grow up it's getting so old, help me hold on to you”

when i first saw the miss americana documentary, i highlighted that part where she is trying to convince her father and the rest of the team that it was a good idea/good move to speak up about the politics and the situation of the trump thing. and it was very hard for me to watch because it was clearly a bunch of old men that grew up and still have in mind their conservatory concepts that goes against what taylor wanted to tell her whole life, they were just trying to silence her and she decided to do it anyway because she is a grown woman and she never spoke up about those things before the reputation era.

the easy they come and easy they go line goes for the fans, they are always in and out and sometimes some of them never want to come back and stay because in the first bad thing that happens to her it pulls them away. she jumps from the train and ride off alone, the train maybe is about her life that never stops and she takes a break from it, the media, the relationships, the image she has in front of the whole world and she ride alone because there's no one in the world that could understand her more than herself. she never grow up when it comes to being more mature when it comes to some things and having the capacity to speak her truth, she's asking us to let her hold on to us when things go harder and when everyone else has left her.

“i've been the archer, i've been the prey / who could ever leave me darling, but who could stay?”

i fucking love this line so much because when you are a LGBTQIA+ kid growing up, you always has to fight against being the bad person and the good person, you grow up seeing in the news that you will die young and that there's people out there that will try to tell you that loving someone of the same sex is the wrong thing to do. being the archer and also the prey is like haunting yourself until you realize who you really are, you have that idea internalized in you, the homophobic jokes you grew up listening and you're also the target and it's like both sides of a coin. who could ever leave her for being a (bi, pan, lesbian) woman? who could ever stay if she's a (bi pan, lesbian) woman? it's like “who could stay in the darkest of the darkest times here with me because it looks like i am lost and i don't know where to go”

“dark side, i search for your dark side / but what if i'm alright, right, right, right here?”

the dark side is not the bad side like people point out, the dark side of someone is like when the moon is half shown and half hidden, and you can only see the part that's out for the light. here the dark side of taylor is the one she haven't showed to us, and to me this line is not about a potential lover but about herself. and this song feels like a mirror, so to me, she's talking to herself and trying to find her dark side in front of her own image. the sequence “alright, right” it's like the dark side saying “i am here and it's good”.

“and i cut off my nose just to spite my face / then i hate my reflection for years and years”

this fucking line is the deepest for me, because it's like, she cut a part of herself to looks like someone who she wasn't made to be, it reminds me of having to hide your true side in despite of being hurt or left aside. how many LGBTQIA+ kids and teenagers has to hide from their parents? we change our way to see the world, we lie to everyone about our love interestings, we hide in the closet and we don't face ourselves because this is not who we are and then we spent the rest of our life hating our reflection because we don't recognize this person but everybody loves this version we created, it's easy, it's very easy to love a straight person but it's the hardest thing to let a queer kid feel loved. it's very easy to not tell a straight person how to be but it's the hardest thing teach a queer kid how to love themselves.

“i wake in the night, i pace like a ghost / the room is on fire, invisible smoke / and all of my heroes die all alone / help me hold on to you”

she's s ghost to the people who live with her so she's not seen, everything is burning and there's an invisible smoke that's where she fades in, and all of her heroes, probably the queer ones that are dying everyday all alone and the ones who died were left alone in their final days. again she's asking if she can count on us to keep going if things go hard.

“i see right through me / they see right through me / can you see right through me?”

seeing through someone means that you see their true version, like if you're looking at their soul and they're so open that you can read anything. it's understanding someone and knowing someone inside and out. just like the lover mv where she's inside the fish tank, it's a metaphor for a thing that can be seen by everyone just like a mirror. and the delicate mv where she's not seen until she enters the bar and sees a person. she can see through herself and people are seeing through her but not in the way she wants to be seen and then she asks (for the fans?) if we can see right through her. could we fight the wars with her? be the shoulder for her to lean on? stay even when she's about to face the fight the biggest war of her life?

“all the king's horses, all the king's men / couldn't put me together again / cause all of my enemies started out friends”

king's horses and king's men also align with the chorus and the universe of being the prey in a world of men. also it can also be the world of a society that lives inside a bubble and cannot accept diversity. not even the men, (her father, team, men she dated?) could put her together again after all that she have been through, and it matches with the “i cut off my nose just to spite my face”. all of her enemies once were friends which implies that she can't trust anyone and as the song goes as (in my vision) a LGBTQIA+ letter to her fans, she's saying that there's no one that could handle this secret and she already tried to tell them but it ended wrong.

that's it. to me this song has a deep meaning and i couldn't put everything i wanted to in this post. also i just want taylor to know that there's a lot of sapphic connotations in her songs and i will always stay.

“Little Black Dress” parallel

So aside from this being one of my favorite moments on the album (I was not a swiftie when og fearless was first dropped so I’m late to the party on how fantastic this outro is), I’m surprised I haven’t seen anything about this (maybe I’m late on this too, but I’m surprised that this wouldn’t be some of gaylor 101 introductory evidence):

1) female pronoun that is not even couched in the “male POV” and

2) this parallel to an iconic sapphic interpretation of Tim McGraw?!?

This outro from Other Side Of The Door is a call back to TM and with its female pronoun it corroborates the theory that in Tim McGraw, Taylor isn’t listing memories (one night when she’s wearing a little black dress and another night when she is wearing a pair of jeans), but rather describing one single scene, where she is wearing blue jeans and resting her head on the chest of the other person (a girl), in a little black dress.

This is an important puzzle piece?!

I'M WATCHING MISS AMERICANA AGAIN AND CAN SOMEONE EXPLAIN THIS TO ME? SHE IS SO LOUD

so this sweater has been ID’d as Band Of Outsiders, Pre-fall 2014. naturally, i did the google 🥴

🥴 so it seems karlie has a bit of a connection to the brand, as the place that did her cookie collab also collabed with them. she also wore a dress from the brand to the 2014 CFDA awards.

just kinda interesting to think, you know, taylor chose to—for the cover of Wildest Dreams Taylor’s Version—wear a sweater from a collection of a brand that karlie was in and around, in and around the same time 🥴💕

What clues did Taylor and Karlie give out in the last 3 months? That they are still on?

It has been a busy three months for me personally so I am probably not the best one to answer this. But, I will post this and surely others will add to it.

I will start:

Obviously the folklore promotion by Karlie (yes that was more than three months ago).