Blue Birch Marsh, 2024 By Jef Bourgeau

“Yeah, I can be like the girl in ‘Wild at Heart’ / At heart” - Magdalena Bay

Wish I could wink but, I just look like I’m having faces spasms. An ex of mine is soo freaking good at it. Like, it’s so subtle that it takes a second to register that it was intentional. I wish I could do that because it’s the least aggressive flirtation with a stranger. Like, if you saw someone you are attracted to & just gave them a super quick, ultra subtle wink. Nothing aggressive or creepy. No catcalling. No “can I holler” bullshit. Like, a quick *hey - I like your vibe* type of wink & then move on with your day. Dang, I wish I could do that without looking like I’m having a seizure or whatnot.

New Wave Comix, Butcher Billy

With my hands hands hands?

(Sorry y’all - I couldn’t resist)

Also, why does every tiktok or short use the same dang songs ad nauseum? Like, how can one consider their content unique if it’s just using the same homogeneous format?

Ughh, I’m just tired... do whatever makes you... whatever... and so on...

Honestly, this is part of the reason me & my partner often talk about including a third person in our relationship. It’s not like I feel they’re not enough for me (or visa versa) & it’s not about some sort of sex thing but, rather creating a space where all of us can live comfortably with less financial & emotional stress. We are both independently secure but, together we have security & abundance that many people can not obtain & we want to share that with someone in a emotionally intimate way. I hate the concept of trolling dating apps for a third as if it’s some sex thing - neither of us would ever do that. We just have room in our hearts & minds for one more person & we want to share our abundance with that special someone.