Lupu - Wierd

Never mind

Hi!

I just wanted to post something to here so I posted piece of story I have been written lately. It might be harsh or not-so-it-don’t-hurt(I mean there is violance). I would like to people’s opinion about it. But no more speaking, this is the part of the story. I hope you enjoy of reading it.   (and my first language isn’t english so don’t judge me)

Okay here you go!

- Mom? I asked confused

Woman didn’t react at all even thought my voice was full of disgust and fear.

- What are you doing here?

Now she stopped doing. She pulled her raven black hair behind an ear. The movement was careful.

- Get out! You are not welcome here! I screamed to the woman.

I was angry. I didn’t want to see my real family anymore. Especially after they gave me away. They were insane. Madness belongs to their soul.

- Go! I commanded her.

The woman turned around with face looking the ground. She slowly and deliberately rise her face. A grin in her face was crazier than what Joker could do. Fear tried to eat me inside but anger pushed over it. I still tremnled when she stood up.

- I can here your madness under anger. Just like me when I was younger, she gave a gloomy laugh with her grin. I could see perfectly her white teeth so good.

- And of course I am very flattered when you called me mom, she gave me a laugh again. I kept my feet on the ground and watched the monster front of me straight to the eyes.

- I told you to get out alredy so start walking, I tried to be colder with my voice than she was.

- Yes, I’m not welcome here and blaa blaa blaa. I know dear.

She rolled her eyes to me.

- It’s wierd to hear that your own daugher wants to get rid of her mother. And don’t call me your daugher. You have no right to it anymore.

- You called me mom first, but whatever, her voice was poisonous. - and who are these people who live here? They must scare you if you setteled down in here.

Womans eyes had endless hungry in them and her face became crazier.

- What happened to your leg? Why are you limping? She asked me and came closer and kneeled down smoothly. Then I saw her so close and I realized that she wasn’t physical anymore. It didn’t mean anything good so I took a step back.

- Are you afraid of me, daughter? You really should be there where we send you because you are fear like a human, she spitted those words like dirt.

- Why did you came here? I asked her with low voice so she sould know that I can go crazy too. But the anserw I got was tormenting evil laugh and right after I felt cold knife pulling harder inside the old wound I had. Pain went through my body and my sight almost went off. My breath stopped and I could breath no more. I grabbed the knife out of my leg and threw it straight throught the woman. I heard animaly dirty laugh coming out of her beautiful face and laugh turned to insane and phsycopathical bray. Then I turned around and started to run.

This is my dream house!!!!!!

(by soheyla_ranjbar)

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Girls don’t want boyfriends. Girls want bookshelves with sliding ladders.

I want something like this to my home

If someone really this something like this to me I am all sold

Never mind 5

Ooookay... so here comes another one again.

Saliva spitted out off my mouth. My laugh echoed all around. You couldn’t escape it. Every human was trapped. I looked around myself and try to decide who’d I catch first. They all had hidden in too easy hides. I sloped my head to left and cracked my neck.  I love mouse and cat game. I laughed animalisticly. I felt the fear in the thick air. It was tasted bitter sweet. It was like sugar for me. My laugh became crazy scearm. It hurt even my own ears but it’s wildness was fascinating. I didn’t want to be like this but sometimes you have to have some fun because I love feeling of power and fear. The feeling tasted so sweet. As sweet as blood.

- Here I come!

I whispered to hallway. I was just like my mother. I admit it. Screaming filled the hallways under it and surround my sences. I laughed to humans, They were scared of only little girl. I gave a laugh to my own joke in the darkness like a psychopath.

NEVER MIND 6

I don't know why I can't do title for this. But this is Never mind 6. Continue the other Never minds.

I loved rumors. I loved them so much thatI even told rumors about myself. When I walk along the school hallway, whispering fill that place. People whispered their friends right now and tried sneaky to wacth me walking but I felt the stares. Whispers caught to my ears with my every step I took, but I just smiled myself. People around me really didn't knew who was among them. Or what rumors was actually true. I turned myself to my locker and I opened it. Silence fell this side of the hallway. I put my books in that locker. My eyes caught an old photo of my inside of the lockerdoor. Above the photo was mirror and I looked myself into dark eyes. I sighed and closed the door. I was frightened the boy who had came behind the door. After that my reflex didn't do ant good for rumors Because I kicked him between his legs and bumped him against the lockers with my hands around his neck. I almost could here the dramatic confusion when people on the hall fell in silence and turned to look at us. The smile started to grow on my face again. Sometimes people can be just so curios. I drowned my laugh. I took my hands off around boy's neck, but I could see clearly how my nails had left beautiful neckless on him. Marks was deep but they didn't bleed. I looked at the boy and shortly smiled to him. Then I justwalked away. People can talk bullshit about me all they want, I couldn't care less anymore like I never minded talks anyway.

Nevermind 3

Here again just writing something but what can I do. This is just calming my nerves. This time it’s just short one.

- Wait!

- Hey girl wait for me.

I was packing my thing in my back. The girl has went to hall already but I still belive she heard me. I put a white mask and my quickly my lunch in my back. I grabbed back with me and ran after the girl. I saw couple person still wearing shoes but no one was my friend. Of course I didn’t want to be burden for my friends but someone could’ve wait for me. Everyone doesn’t have to wait me, one is enough. I took my shoes and walked to doors. My friend from the locker room turned back from a hallway and saw me but she just passed me and walked back to others. No one cared about me. I was always out of frined groups. Right before doors there was a window. When I watched throught it I saw people outside. There was all my friends. Some of them went to their cars and others just went down the street. I saw them laugh and say goodbyes. I was greatful for that I had friends but I never felt truely happy or welcome around them. I wore my shoes and went outside. I started to walk away from little worn building to home. After couple of street I saw the girl I’ve asked to wait be and I considered to go to her but then I saw that she had someone else to be with.

Nevermind 4

New part of the story Nevermind.

Should I let go? Or should I hold on? I didn’t know, because I was lost. If I hold on I would drown in the world, but everything I want or need would be right there when I need something. If I let go I would fall, but I would get freedom. I didn’t knew which one would be worse opinion. Did I wanted change thing or did I want to keep everything I already had? If I let myself fall down I would leave others behind and if I hold on they will lift me up. This might be my only change. It was yes or not. Up or down. My hands were tired. I was hanning here a lon time already. I had to make a decision, but I wanted both. I wanted to feel my bones crush and that awful feeling of flying. Same time I wanted to snuggle inside a big warm blanket right next to a fireplace watching gold flames play.

- Where are you? Voice of a call was wafted on the ground. No, finally. I thought. They found me. Now I could let go and fall all the way to the ground or wait them to lift me up from this edge. I looked up to sunny sky. There wasn’t any clouds. Now do the decision. I told myself. I took deep breath and closed my eyes strictly. I calmed my nerves as much as I could. If I wanted to let go I had to do it now, before they see me. I took a breath again. They we be okay without me, I told myself and let go of the railing I was holdong on. But right before I started to fall, hands took a firm grip on me. Grip was tight and the boy had saved me. Other boy came next to him and grabbed my other hand. They lifted me up. Away from the edge, away from the railing.