Latest Posts by lyingintheclouds - Page 5

*rereads picture perfect arc*

*cries*

*dries tears & continues reading*

*reaches sacrifice of the grim reaper arc*

*cries even more*

*empties a tissue box & continues reading*

*reaches the severance*

*shuts book*

*collapses onto bed*

*dies*

Now that S2 is almost over, I wanted to finally get out that post talking about all of the insights and things I did, learned, or other fun stuff about the countdown pieces I made. I still have something in mind for the S2 finale, so maybe if you read (or skip) to the end I'll have a preview for you?

Oh god here we go One day I was coming home from work and decided to check how many days there were until the new season released and I found it was 7 days. So I did all of these in 7 days. Literally everyone was worried about me because I did nothing but draw for those 7 days.

... Except for when I went back to work. I worked I came home and then drew until I literally couldn't anymore lmao. I remember being dazed and exhausted after the Clock Keepers and my dad came up to my room literally right as I finished and asked, "Have you gone to sleep?" And I said, "NOPE! :D" I was living on energy drinks

I'm also 90% sure this started the "ren you're doing too much you need to chill the hell out" thing with me and my friends now

When I was doing these, I had only read the first ten volumes of Hanako-kun at the time, so I was stopped right in the middle of Picture Perfect. I had the second box set, but I just hadn't gotten the time to read it since I got it for Christmas. That means I didn't know Shijima's full deal, and I didn't even know Hakubo's name, so I was winging it hard.

All of the full pieces are linked by clicking their names :)

NO.7 HANAKO

You can tell from the speedpaint I was struggling hard with the pose lmao. I honestly felt like the one I chose was a cop-out and didn't feel energetic enough, but the time crunch got me. At this point, I was also really unsure about how I wanted to treat the colors, because I'd only just started dipping into seriously studying how Aida does it. So many references. And him wearing basically all black didn't help I wanted to scream. I was TRYING to keep everything as solid colors without falling back on overlay and multiply layers, but I got desperate. Still looks pretty good I think.

My favorite part was probably the hakujoudai and the detailing on his collar/shoulders! If I were to edit anything, I think I'd put more on the bottom half of the background because it feels a touch empty. kinda killed it on this pant leg and his hat tho

NO.6 HAKUBO

Like I said, I had no idea who Hakubo was. For the first half of things, I couldn't even find his name, I was just calling him "Shinigami-sama..." I wasn't going to go trampling into spoilers just for references either, so I was freaking out on what to do for the background. All I knew was that there was something to do with lotuses or bugs, and already having an idea of where I'd take Tsuchigomori, I took the lotus route. I uh also hope I didn't make his face too feminine. I don't know why but when drawing male characters who are larger or more built (even if it didn't turn out obvious in this piece) I somehow keep making them look like butches.

Shading his hair was the most fun part out of all of this, I usually never draw characters with hair as short as his, so it was a fun challenge! I'm also just a sucker for kimonos and flowy clothes. He was probably one of the most fun ones for me, even if he was so early on. I LOVE the texture I got on the skull. (even if it's technically too small.)

NO.5 TSUCHIGOMORI

Tsuchigomori onwards ALL used this sticky note full of thumbnails I drew at work for reference. Yes that is a note next to him that says + cuntier. He was also drawn on the same day that I did Hakubo, so I managed to buy myself some extra time.

I was so excited for this one because I could see it so well in my mind's eye, until I realized how many hands I'd need to draw. And then I sucked it up and locked in because I love Tsuchigomori. I'm so pleased with how I worked in more of the blues into the shading and his hair. It was at this point that I think I was understanding how I wanted to take the colors for all of these pieces! I enjoyed doing the fun trick I learned with the weave on his sweater and the spiderwebs where I drew a thick like and then erased the middle. Nearly forgot the markings on his forehead too lmao.

I wonder whose black book he's reading?

NO.4 SHIJIMA

Oh Shijima. I truly had zero real clue about her, and I managed to dodge spoilers about Mei even when I was looking up references. That's why she's painting using her paintbrush clone haha. It's still cute though, so I'm keeping it. Her hair kept giving me trouble because it's the kind of hair you draw and don't really realize just how big you're drawing it until you have to fix it. Actually, I'm having that exact issue on what I'm working on right now, and I'll fix it after I take a break.

I dug up a comment I made while I was working on it and I still stand by this.

There's also something a little odd about the positioning of her chin that I was too exhausted to fix, and I SUPER fudged the coloring on her hair. Also I really didn't know what to put in the background OTHER than the atelier, but I can't really draw buildings! So uh! The exhaustion was beginning to set in after 3 days of this. (Since Hakubo and Tsuchigomori were done on the same day. I didn't keep that time advantage for long though.)

think i fudged it okay, though.

NO.3 MITSUBA

I was struggling on Mitsuba some because that thing where you see/read something and then forget about it only for it to arise as something you think you did happened. That pose I thumbnailed on the sticky note was WAY too close to the official Hell of Mirrors standee/art. Luckily I contain extreme Mitsuba bias (shocker) and I was able to figure it out. I had a ton of problems shading his coat just like I did with Hanako. It's so hard to keep things from melding together when you've mostly got them wearing black.

It's an odd thing to be proud about, but I feel I did the best on the.. Legs of his pants, the chains and lockets, and the eyes and teeth on his jacket. That and the ribcage scarf. I'm really disappointed in myself for the background and his hair, if I'm being honest. I wanna fix his eyes. I STILL haven't figured out his hair either too. Which makes me even more surprised that my friends said, ren, your bias is showing on this one because I was like IS IT??? ARE YOU CERTAIN?

his hand turned out nice too and did i mention i had fun on the ribcage

NO.2 YAKO

I sketched the first initial draft for Yako on the same day I drew Hakubo and Tsuchigomori, but when it finally came time to sit down and draw her? I realized there would be so much empty space where I couldn't have fun with colors and it'd just be the white back of her kimono, so I turned her around and scrapped the idea of her fox form curling around her. I couldn't fit fox Yako in, and I'm STILL kind of bummed about that.

The flow of her hair was so much fun to figure out, as well as the patterns on her kimono. I'm really happy with the background, combining the aspects of the Misaki Stairs' original version and the one after she's been removed from her seat with the spider lilies. The lilies themselves are a little fudged if you look too close, so... Don't look too close? :3

loved the kimono. every bit. can't believe i had her turned around.

NO.1 AKANE/MIRAI/KAKO

MY FAVORITE PART ABOUT THIS WAS THE COGS IN THE BACKGROUND SORRY AKANE'S FACE BOTHERS ME I NEED TO FIX IT ONE DAY HE LOOKS TOO OLD I WAS LOSING MY MIND AND THE EXHAUSTION WAS KILLING ME IT BEGAN MY HATE OF DRAWING AKANE'S HAIR BECAUSE *GESTURES VAGUELY*

Uh okay some good things to say about this one... The colors were a ton of fun to figure out how to place, and I think I at least did a good job on that part. Shading gold things is always really fun! And at least Akane's ponytail was fun to make flow, I was riding the high from Yako's hair here. I think I got a lot of that fun flowy movement in here, which I'm pleased about. This was another one that my friends say turned out the best, again that I'm ??? about.

these cogs are my everything

FINAL THOUGHTS + EXTRAS

All of the kanji's colorings for their numbers were taken directly from the anime! I don't really wanna get rid of that fun reference even if in like, Tsuchigomori's case the colors are REALLY different from the main piece.

Most of the first day was spent on, Hanako of course, and then setting up the frames for everyone else to go into. I spent money to get the patterns to go on the colored part, actually. Constraining everyone to the frames helped a LOT in terms of balancing myself and made it fun to choose what elements would stick outside of them. If I pushed for entire full backgrounds, then I would have been doing even worse.

I was on the ropes at the end. I was half dead and drawing like I was possessed. And the catharsis of it being done and it all looking acceptable just. Ough. I don't know if I'll ever have a high like that again. There's an evil, evil part of me that says, ren! redraw all of them for s3 under the exact same constraints! And shit I might but I'll complain about it. I think it's more likely though that I go back and doctor them up some so I can print them as standees. Probably just for myself, but I do want to build a stock for artist alleys.

I had so, so much fun overall even if it was so much it really could have put my already bad health in more danger. I learned so much about coloring, lineart, framing things, and I really attribute my gauntlet to the explosion in my art progress. That, and my sheer adoration for this series. Am I rambling? I just love TBHK. It's only been 5 months since I first discovered it and it's done so, so much for me.

Even if you went and scrolled through all of this nonsense, which I don't blame you for, here's a little preview of what I'm trying to finish by next week for the finale.

I can't believe we're on the final episode! It's so close now, and it keeps flooring me how little time has really passed. I'll try and push to get SOMETHING else done before then, but we'll see. I've got so much I want and have to get done.

もっけ探検隊が特典情報を掘り当てた！💎✨

The Mokke Exploration Team has dug up the volume bonuses info!💎✨

reaction fic formats . . .

without a room, i am mush. but for now i have an air-conditioned room so i am mush in a room but later when i leave i’ll just be mush

anyways. welcome back to cinna’s reaction fic shenanigans. please tell me which yall’d prefer...

... in the polls section below! + obligatory reaction fic shoutout :’)

I CANNOT WATCH. I PHYSICALLY CAN’T. I AM WORKING. I CANNOT CRY RIGHT NOW.

(said as i pause the video and return to work with tears beginning to form)

(skhfklsahdkhskahkjfhjsl MEI 🥹 SHIJIMA 😭)

they did this scene so beautifully omg i was gonna start sobbing

it’s day 121 of my jshk obsession. soon, in 3 days, my count of hyperfixation days will exceed the chapters of the manga.

yay ! we will obsess. so on, and so forth.

@sakuraswifee thought of drawing sakura and then megumi resurfaced to the corner of my mind~

ignore how i probably got some stuff wrong, my memory's not that reliable when trying to reference something for art LMAO

i'll try get a clearer photo if you'd like!

every single time. every single freaking time i say 'i'll do it today!' 'i'll do it this weekend!' 'i'​ll-'

empty promises to myself, empty gazes at the one thing i need to do, neverending cycles of completing not even the smallest action. aren't i supposed to have grown out of this??? always getting distracted by small projects? irrelevant, irrational people-pleasing always coming first? the fics i have finished writing yet constantly edit? the art i rip into pieces?

at the very least i'll get a break soon. then i can afford the time to cry over mei & shijima & hanako-kun & nene all over again like i did four months ago on a lovely morning that did not last

@gwenysklurp @ocelotlesbian yall. look at this 🥺

This guy stinks!

HERE WE GO *triumphant screech*

im so tired. anyways, two new fic releases, four chapters total, and one unfinished fic sneak peek. enjoy

aoi-chan, aoi-chan, can you find me some flowers? - SWAP AU !!

Hanako-san, Hanako-san, are you there? Yugi Amane calls upon the supernatural to help uncover the truth behind his twin brother’s reappearance. Who awaited him behind the third stall was not what he was expecting—neither was their most treasured possession. OR: Akane Aoi deals with being School Mystery Number Seven while balancing her new assistant and various threats to the school. It’s not going smoothly. Amane & Aoi-centric ♡

don’t touch . . . - MOREEEEE HANANENE

School Mysteries normally hide their presences from the humans of Kamome Academy, but exceptions must be made only if to keep their rumors alive—or, at the very least, that was what Hanako-san of the Toilet was supposed to do—because said humans seem to be noticing a certain daikon more lately, and he finds he doesn’t like it. Not at all. Just a bit of playing around would drive them away, right? However, if they don’t learn to keep their hands off his property, they shall have to face the consequences a School Mystery can serve. OR: nene is hanako’s and he makes sure everyone knows it. (badass) hanako moments are needed in this time (*stares at manga*)

+ if only i’d told you so - sneak peeks for @mysteriousmissme !!

aoi and hanako ch. 84 discussion, but longer, more angsty, and with extra lines :) also an excuse to write aoi while projecting onto her deeply + aoihana interactions. my fav tsunderes <3

omfg someone else did this??? i love it. i love this so much.

my ramble about the parallels here !

adding on:

natalie & sakura forming the tired assistants club and sakura shares tea. she swears not to tell anyone about mayura, but tsukasa finds out somehow(???), steals it, turns mitsuba’s scarf into a sentimonster and there’s an entire episode of the heroes trying desperately to defeat someone that’s wayyyyyyy more experienced than them at fighting (it ends with sakura taking over as hawkmoth with the name 'actias luna' and tsukasa just handing over the peacock miraculous to the heroes. hawkmoth is sure very mad after that)

we have LEMON AND ALYA as part of the school’s media team or something. and sousuke actually joined them for photography at one point, but... yk

nino & lemon would totally vibe. in agreement.

imagine marinette falls in love with teru. he’s like a more polished version of adrien, child labor backstory and alllllll

it’s either marinette & nene team up to help each other with their crushes OR they realize that it could be a competition (albeit they’re very friendly about it.)

IMAGINE. and there’s also a possibility of a miraculous au with aoi as ladybug & teru as chat noir... + luka as akane would be so nice

hanako would hate adrien for being the source of nene’s new crush, so watch adrien slowly get convinced he’s haunted (he’s right)

AOI, KAGAMI, TERU. with 'let it go' as their theme song, specifically the 'don't let them in, don't let them see', they are the perfect children of their families, two of them swordfighters, all of them honed liars!!! i headcanon they all cover for each other, even aoi

alix, akane, luka, timekeepers!!! + i bet rose & juleka would absolutely love babysitting mirai even if she’s a handful

akane & luka being 'unrequited love' buddies until aoi gets it together :')

I FORGOT NATHANIEL, MARC & MITSUBA?! GAYS. ALL OF THEM. AND MARC ALSO DOES ART, WHICH MEANS MEI AND SHIJIMA CAN JOIN IN, WHICH FITS MY SHIJIMA & MITSUBA SIBLING HEADCANON-

tsukasa & amane VS felix & adrien for 'most fcked up twins'. the first wins by a landslide but like

tsukasa would annoy felix so hard. amane would bond w adrien just over this, even though they’re such an unlikely pair...

we gotta have hanako (& mitsuba, who wanted chaos) mess with lila when she comes and begins to bully nene & marinette because hanako is suuuper overprotective

ms. mendeleiv arguing with tsuchigomori on science vs magic.

mitsuba & chloe form an unexpected friendship??? they can be petty together

a crack spin-off where yako, mitsuba, and audrey bourgeois get locked in a room filled with clothes or something. chaos.

... oh. this might actually work.

*adds to wips*

I can’t sleep: tbhk miraculous crossover

Kou and Adrien could bond over dead moms and abusive dads

Marinette could help Nene make a plan to confess to Hanako

Aoi and Alya could bitch about there secretive ahh besties and how everything would have been better if they were honest sooner

TERU KAGAMI EPIC SWORD FIGHT

Lemon and Nino would vibe together prove me wrong you can’t

Gabe’s the only one who’s close to death so Hanako and Mitsuba just torment him for being a awful dad, Natalie thinks Gabe’s actually gone even more crazy somehow

Alix and Akane could bond over people just breaking their magic pocket watches and also being literal children that just have insane power over reality

Chloe babysitting Tsukasa. Just that. Just picture it… The utter chaos

whenever im feeling down i just go to my ao3 account and squeal at my kudos and comments. they fuel me. im so happy whenever i see them.

like hello there!! i was probably only a passing moment in your day but omfg what you liked it??? you did????? aaaaaaaaaa and you too? and you commented on two of them???? im doing a good job??????

idc if they’re return customers!!! im just glad that someone’s visiting my shop <3

i got my hands on some gloves today!!!! don’t they make you feel so queenly whenever you slip them on

get some gloves yall

referenced slightly off of my reflection <3 we love jshk ocs

more and more and more art

i cannot stop. have a character sheet

we loveeeeeee ocs with diamond eyes!! i’ve seen so many. pls share !!

i’d love to find fellow diamonds <3 my digital art isn’t as good as my traditional so as soon as i get my hands on my phone-

my current list of fanfic projects <3

i’m editing my old fics rn bc i realized most of them aren’t actually open for guests to view 😭 so here we go ! if it’s old, it means it was released before this tumblr acc was made! there is a high chance of abandonment so i suggest you don’t get invested in these :’) tysm for supporting me!

~ posted on my ao3 account!

(old) not meant to be - a mitsukou soulmates au <3

(old) 5+2 clubs of kamome academy - my old way of exploring character relationships! i might just release all the unfinished drafts and then stop releasing chapters 😔

the little mermaid - that one mermaid au :3

have you heard (the future from a screen) ? - the reaction fic !!!

~ unreleased

my extra special swap au, which is going to happen in a couple hours ft. a couple other projects !!

pre-seventh spiritings/spinoff: music box arc - aoikane & sakuhiko’s time at the human palace! i needed some place to try angst... and uh... slight gore

5 times hanako had to guard nene + 2 times he didn’t have to - there’s some trigger warnings for these, please read them! nothing explicit, but it’s better to be informed.

if only i’d told you so - i wonder if you can tell that i love hanako & aoi’s interaction on the train to the far shore, because this was inspired by another fic that i can’t find and im not posting until i can give credit to the original

there’s more but,,, who cares

~ unrelated/abandoned

assassination classroom x mha - my secret pet project bc i love assassination classroom so deeply. but it’s likely never gonna be posted so-

yydc - it was so early on i forgot about it. anyways, i’m super sorry, mha fans, because this fic is basically abandoned now. oops. bye bye momo, ily but jshk is always priority 😭

reblog to tell your mutuals they’re lovely as fuck

WE MADE IT

we did it

both chapters are out

mostly just rambling. tysm for reading my pointless works <3

links below !!

tumblr is eating my links...

mermaids ch1 & 2 . reaction fic

Spent a long time on this art resource/reference masterpost! If you have a request for resources for me to find OR have a resource you want me to add, just send me an ask :D 

General Anatomy/Human stuff:

body quick tips

painting/drawing straight hair

how to draw eyes

arm squish/bend tip

chest/pecks with raised arms tip

long hair how to

male torso anatomy (back)

learn manga male anatomy (torso & arm)

male torso anatomy (front)

head and hair tips (scroll  a bit, it’s in one of the images!)

how to draw noses

ears tilty tip

arm tips

two tips for drawing women’s hair

drawing teeth

anatomy tips

random hair and mouth ref anime

leg muscle anatomy ref

arm muscles anatomy ref

knees reference

arm ref study

quick arm tut tip

how to draw arm

shoulders n sleeves

Poses:

umbrella poses

random female poses

random anatomy pose thing

chibi sleeping in hands pose

laying poses

elf (?) with staff poses

holding phone half bod

peeny wolf pose set

perspective pose sheet

anatomy poses 

crossed arms ref sheet

holding baby poses

Hands:

how to draw hands 1

hand refs & tutorial 2

hand tutorial 3

hand tutorial 4

36 hands

how to draw hands in 10 minutes

hands ref 2

hand gestures and simplifying the hand

arm & hand ref

500 hands

Diversity:

stop drawing natives red

wheelchair tutorial

drawing fat people

vitiligo notes for artists

darkskin palms

epicanthic folds

biracial characters

do’s and don’ts of thick lips

Animals/Creatures:

how to draw falcon beaks

canine studies (broken down into parts)

feline tiger ref

Insect wing venation

Musculature of a T-Rex

Pony bodies tutorial

Hyena Nose tutorial

horse reference

drawing horns

Flesh tutorial

bird tips

wing basics

making mythical creatures look realistic

pony heads tutorial 

dragon designing tutorial pt 3/3

pony wings tutorial

hedgie bodies

Furry/Anthro:

dogquest’s pixel tutorial

furry portrait tutorial

furry pants tutorial

how to draw paws/pawhands

fur direction reference

anthro tips

muzzle shapes

furry styles

anthro expressions

f2u chibi-ish furry base

furry / cartoon head tutorial

f2u furry base/pose w three different ears

drawing humans! for animal artists

Backgrounds:

how to draw debris

fire tutorial

night sky tutorial

materials study with notes

tree tutorial

water tutorial

tangents??

ocean painting

clouds tutorial

bubbles

painty background studies tips

peony tutorial

lakeside tutorial

quick flowers for the lazy

mistletoe vs holly

Perspective:

foreshortening coil technique

foreshortening tutorial

Webcomic:

medibang comic panel tutorial

how i make webcomics/webtoons

how to color comics

the art of lettering comics

comic/doujinshi paneling

in depth webcomic tutorial

Coloring:

72 Color Combinations

How ViPOP uses color

Hair coloring tutorial by rosuuri

Gurochii moe quick eye tutorial

Anime eye tutorial

Mermaid tail tutorial

Grayscale to Color painting tutorial

chibi eye walkthrough

skin tone tutorial 1

curly hair tutorial

color palette

coloring tutorial

light, it gets everywhere

comfort color

skin coloring tutorial

holographic tutorial

dappled lighting effect

cute/bright coloring tutorial 

pattern trick

arcana character coloring tut

Expressions/ Meme / style:

small body language study

expressions reference

how to cute

Platonic cuddles meme

expression reference : nervous

flustered expression meme

drawing expressions tutorial/key

Pixel Art:

Pixel icon tutorial

Ice cream

Moving clouds tutorial

50x50 pixel doll tutorial

pixelin’s pixel process

pixel expression ref

pixel eye blinking tutorial

how to pixel liquids

Clothing / Accessories:

Shoes

Fancy color tip / ref

Chainmail

short reference

learn manga basic pleated skirt tutorial

learn manga basic frills

random clothing refs

chainmail brush

clothing ref masterpost

pinstripes tips

cloth texture tips

how to clothing folds

Misc:

Sketchfab 3d Models

Mikeymegamega on YT for anime/ecchi/etc

Gentei_sozai on twitter for chibi poses

S0zalsan on twitter for random poses

mecha basics

75 tutorials

Obvious art tips you might have forgotten

Mosaic effect

how to draw a cute chibi

fighting artblock

cute pikachu base

painting a face tutorial

volume commissions mini tutorial

arcana characters tutorial reference

notes from the “animators survival kit”

concept art tutorial

another art resource masterpost

MS paint tips and tricks

Reference table for drawing CONSISTENT faces

@hanari0716 on twitter for HELLA references

animation guide for beginners

Brushes:

Foliage brushes

cityscape brushes

ghibli brushes

clip studio paint assets

PS brush pack

Knives! Get your Knives here for no particular reason!

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Get em while they're cold, get em while they're sharp!

Special discount if your name is Brutus for no reason in particular!

New ask game:

Reblog if you want your followers to tell you what your trademark ™️ is. Like, what’s that thing that really identifies you.

do care + did ask + im hugging you + im hugging you + im hugging you + im hugging you + im hugging you

... omfg yall

so... the yugi twins.

i found out today that some people consider amane the moon & tsukasa the sun (me included-ish) but some say the opposite? can we settle this- opinions under the cut!

we all know amane’s irises are supposed to be the moon, but personally i feel tsukasa’s eyes look like a very smol lunar eclipse, so the sun seems like a really nice choice for him (note the yellow donut he makes in his eyes. my beloved evil baby)

and i genuinely do feel that their personalities do match, up to their deaths. tsukasa shines really brightly and had many friends, amane stayed secluded and draws from tsukasa for most things (eg the moon reflecting the sun’s light!)

also, tsukasa’s kokujoudai tend to have a habit of bursting into flame (wait actually tsukasa kind of also burst into flame)

they’re like little phoenixes. i love them so much

anyways i want yall to know that no matter what ur opinion matters so

keep sharing it!! tysm for being here~

and tysm for reading ♡

kamome gakuen girls' uniform for art reference!

bad quality warning lmao

<3 as you can see, i overuse my self-insert...

— MER AU HAS BEEN POSTED !!!

alert alert first chapter of the husband stealing mermaid au has been posted 🥹🥹🥹😭😭🥺🥺 im so nervous

it’s just a chapter to give you a feel of the current situation, lots of exposition, etc etc, so no actual scenes yet! link beneath the cut <3

anyways i really want feedback

thank you so much for everyone’s support !!

more sketches. yay!!

it’s an absolute mess because i change plans too often! but i was drawing my three fave twin braid girls (shijima, okuda, homura) and then there was the urge to do mirai... and then mirai’s unofficial elder sister (we got to talk about this more) miku, and then it became a collection of twintails and twin braids...

please keep in mind that i did not use references for most of the sketches 😔 and i wholeheartedly apologize if i flubbed up some stuff

have a nice dayyyyy

mutuals if i like your negative posts please just imagine me patting u on the back comforting you, not like i actually like that you’re hurt

madoka magica x jshk designs~ hananene !

i love making au designs~ if someone has any headcanons abt madoka magica & jshk already ABSOLUTELY message me to yap!! or join the kamome gakuen discord, we have a thread of theories <33 i’d love love love to hear stuff about some possible parallels

+ pls give me allllll the mermaid au fic recs. i absolutely adore them! and if you’re a fanfic writer pls speak out i will follow you asap i need writing to live-

i give myself around five minutes to ramble at 1am

it’s 1am. let’s see what my adhd riddled sleep deprived jshk obsessed brain has to offer us today. expect nothing, i don’t make sense at this hour i might make this a daily thing, because my insomnia will keep me up anyways and it’s interesting what i do at night… summary: mostly just me ranting about today. and my crippling sense of self

i just cried for like half a minute and it was absolutely wonderful. highly recommend. at least an eleventh of my stress has been washed away (even if it’ll replenish extra during the weekdays).

it’s been all around horrible for the second half of the day, and partly possibly because i skipped lunch and stuff,,, but maybe because my self validation meter is running low and there’s literally nobody here to help?? maybe?

i want so badly to have an irl friend to yap about everything to. it feels too much like ive been taking all the yapping and doing absolutely everything to nod my head and listen like the open-minded person im supposed to be and barely getting to even show any of my thoughts and

it’s honestly normal to censor yourself and stuff, right? because you don’t want to let too much of it leak through and look like you’re asking for attention and such but it’s such a

what again

replace it with something you can never get (im not making sense at all) anyways, speaking of stuff i can never get, they finally found my lost computer and that’s nice, but i’ve been so writing deprived i don’t know whether i can write again, and im sure no one would notice unless i scream it to the hills anyways. wonder how i could get more people to care

and about that, it’s time to stop, but i’m on a roll so who cares

do you ever just kind of

“i want to post this” “i want to make this” “i want to do this”

“… but no one’s going to see it, so why does it matter?”

how does one break out of this? because i knwo it’s all writing for yourself but self-indulgence can only last so long (i regret making that oc so badly right now it hurts) but it’s not good for health and i know that

how do i continue this? i’ll stop. someone talk to me, i think im going insane-

You can only reblog this today.

welcome to wip land

what... shall i write... today...

there is one fic that isn't jshk!! yay!!

but im also half sure one of the two fandoms is dead, so...

originally everything was organized by mystery seat number but i accidentally deleted an option so it's messed up now...