Please don't remember me fondly
Remember me as the one who held your heart so softly, the one who loved you without restraint even when your love for me was a tangled mess which took years to unravel
Remember my patience and devotion as I sat at your feet, then how you crushed them under your heel
Remember me with pangs of guilt and regret when you think on your habit of assuring me I was safe with you then abandoning me once again
Don't remember me fondly, remember you killed me
I keep typing out all my feelings to you Then I remember I’m not allowed anymore
I keep typing out all my feelings to you Then I remember I’m not allowed anymore
No matter how hard I try Or the amount of willpower I manage to summon You will always be my weakness
It’s just nice to know once in a while you’re weak for me, too
#need something to grab onto #to ground me #feeling lost #hold my hand #before i float away
I used to think the worst case scenario would be you decided you disliked the real me But your apathy cuts deeper than any hatred could