M4golor - I Made This Account Just To Look At Posts

reblogging because this is very sweet + I agree with op, i think this should be less stigmatized

putting personal things under the cut related to self-inserting but mostly selfshipping

I lean more towards selfshipping but I do use that as a sort of coping mechanism paralleling self-inserting. like. if imagining [character] lovingly encouraging me to get out of bed some days helps then I do it. or if they're like telling me to hike my ass off the carpet and go do something productive

I found out about the comfort character and selfship communities 4 years ago and Ive felt a lot better about myself especially since I started selfshipping 7 years ago (wowiee). but really I've self-inserted my whole life without realizing it, with my favorite fictional medias

i still struggle with uh normalizing it for myself in the sense that I still feel like non-existent internalized people are judging me for thinking of something that doesn't exist comforting & loving & interacting with me but. I'm gonna keep doing it regardless of what people think, including myself. and I will support anyone else who does the same (in a healthy manner). thanks for coming to my ted talk might delete this text box later??

This isn't exactly art but, I feel like it's important so I'm posting it here anyway.

Self inserting with my favorite characters has been one of the best coping mechanisms I’ve ever had, and for over a decade I’ve tried to normalize the idea so people don’t feel ashamed to use it for the same purposes. It’s helped me feel better about myself at my darkest points.

I just think the idea of having ppl in your head who love you unconditionally and would never hurt you is a rly good vehicle to help you feel better in lot of situations. These days I mostly just do it for fun, but yesterday was really bad for me, and I made a comic to help cope.

Just something quick in PLP because I was too exhausted to draw it, but it made me feel immensely better. I wasn’t going to post it publicly, but after thinking about it I think I should. It helped me so much, and I want people to not be afraid to do the same thing. I want people to look at me and think “well if Billy’s doing it maybe it’s not so cringe after all, maybe it’s okay if I do it to”

(i don't want to stretch people's dashboards so it'll mostly be under a cut. and also for needed context in regards to the comic: i suffer from schizoaffective disorder and can sometimes experience hallucinations if I forget to take my medications)

(also these were made in parts, so they might feel a little disconnected. That was all part 1, this next is part 2)

and next is a little interlude where Allan does things to help cheer me up

and this is the last part

Pros of hyperfixiation:

Happy!

Art ideas

Life is good

Cons of hyperfixiation:

I am going to blow up

All my art is of the same guy

If I don't think about this 24/7 I get violent

acceptance of self

proshippers: dont fucking interact

hii sorry for bothering, but how did you rip the parts for allan? me being the fool i am tried to wing it and downloaded jpexs and messed around and found myself wholly lost... i think your stuff is super cool and you inspire me a lot !! so i just wanted to reach out and see if you were okay w/ sharing the process? thank you

i have no idea what the most elegant way to do it is, but this is what i was able to figure out on my own:

first you need a swf of the game you want to rip the sprites from.

then you'll need a swf decompiler, i also used jpexs so that's what i'll be using in this example too

first, load the swf file into jpexs

you'll see a bunch of folders. This one, labeled "sprites" is where we'll be ripping from. But if you open the folder, you'll probably notice there's a lot of sprites to sort through. We specifically only want Allan, so we need to find his sprites specifically.

go to the "tools" tab up at the top, then hit the binoculars icon that says "text search". From there, we're gonna type in "allan" then press okay. It may take a few minutes to search through the entire file, just wait for it to finish.

After that, a new small window will pop up with all the search results. We're gonna click on one beginning with "customer_Allan" (it doesn't matter which one) then click on the "go to" button at the bottom.

it's going to take you to another part of the project file, you'll notice in the red box here all of Allan's various parts are listed. Right now we have his body selected, so the text on the right is showing us the data related to that part. If we look at the data, there will be a bit of yellow text near the top that begins with "symbol" and ends with a number. That number is what we're looking for. In this case, it's 592.

If we scroll back up in our project, back to the sprites, and we locate sprite 592 and select it, we can find Allan's body. It'll likely be flashing through the different alt styles when you click on it, that's normal. Once exported, you'll have each of those alt style bodies. In order to export it, we just have to click on the "Export selection" button here.

from here you can choose the file type you'd like, and what size it'll export at. I was exporting mine at 2000% but that's likely overkill for your needs. I wouldn't recommend exporting them at anything less than 500% though, as otherwise they will come out rather small.

And that's really it. Just repeat the process for each of Allan's pieces and then reconstruct him in the program of your choice.

There are some issues with the rips, you might notice in between the solid blocks of color on the sprites are transparent gaps. You can either fill those in yourself, or export them at a very large scale and size them down. Unfortunately, I haven't found a way to export them without the gaps yet

figuring out new ways to draw her 🫡 um bc my contacts vanished into liminal space I actually couldn’t see very well when I was drawing this,,,? So if things are off im sorry 🙏

As an autistic person, the implications of "if they really cared I wouldn't have to say it" culture are really scary. Because I want to know what hurts your feelings, what crosses your boundaries, where the line between teasing and being mean is at for you, what you need, and how to make you feel loved. And the implication that if my disability makes me unable to figure out these things through intuition alone, then I'm just not worth having around, is genuinely heartbreaking

Magolor be like

me me me

look man idk wtf this kind of aesthetic is called still but it is so Gender!!!!!!! i need to look like this