I Like To Think That Jayce And Viktor Where Just Flung Into Another Timeline And In That Timeline They

Zolu sketch inspired by the song Candlelight By Sunset Rollercoaster 落日飛車

I want this tattooed on my brain NOW

“Those two things can exist at the same time. Like you said, it's all—it's all tangled up together, you and me.”

double page spread for one of my favorite luzo fics of all time, poly philtatos (the most beloved by far) by my good friend - @swordsmans!

I knew I wanted to do a double page spread the second I finished this fic and I drafted abt a dozen ideas before landing on what would ultimately become this. There were so many snippets and moments I wanted to illustrate but I ended up doing more of an abstracted version of the fic as opposed to 1:1 drawings of scenes 

funnily enough while the fic itself is told in zoros pov this spread is framed mostly through luffy’s eyes - his tears literally frame comp for their reunion, the moment he loses zoro, and the centerpiece of the first page which is this weird abstraction of him on the beach seeing zoros corpse-not-a-corpse in the waves just beyond his reach. 

gyro put the crane wives’ never love an anchor on the playlist for this fic which i heavily used as inspiration in picking ornamental things for the spread (the anchor, the fleet of ships by luffy, and the nautical rope splitting the second page). also just like. overall really heartbreaking lyrics guys 

there are smaller elements throughout the spread that are 1:1 references though (all i will say for these is if you know, you know hehe) i wish i had more time to do a lengthier piece for fanart for this fic bc it's one of the few luzo fics that have been rattling around in my brain forever now - once again please please please read poly philtatos if you haven't. gyro is a masterful writer and they deserve all the love! ok byeee

Having pots is crazy bc I’ll be sitting in the ER with a bpm of 160, just chilling, occasionally slumping over and losing control of motor skills but then going right back to joking—

MEANWHILE the nurses look at me like

Having OCD is so weird and silly. Like, I know that there isn't a monster under my bed who’s gonna take my feet if I stand too close, obviously, I’m a logical adult.

But like,

There is, trust me on this one.

Okay I have to rant for a sec.

Something I don’t think a lot of ppl understand is that if u have ibd and/or a shit ton of allergies, going to restaurants SUCK.

I have Crohn’s and a ton of allergies that I recently found out about and going out to eat is just so difficult and draining. Having to watch everyone eat delicious foods and get these fantastical meals while you’re always stuck with the bare bones of a salad, chips away at ur mentality. Plus, with restaurants, there is always the major factor of cross contamination that makes going out to eat very anxiety inducing.

I’m not saying don’t invite ur chronically ill friends out to eat but if that person has said before that restaurants are hard and they CLEARLY aren’t having a good time, find a different way to spend time together. When food is making u sick, having a whole 2+hrs spent around it isn’t the best of vibes.

~* it's a pakkun party *~

Why is it always “enemies to lovers” this and “enemies to lovers” that, why can’t they be both?

I need more enemies AND lovers.

Enough of the whole “I realized I don’t hate u but love you” I want “I despise you, you are everything I hate in this world and I want to kill u but I also have a deep love for u despite it all, I yearn to be close to you and I will kill anyone that tries to hurt u bc I’m the one who’s supposed to kill u”

It’s messy, it’s gay, it’s so emotional it’s palpable.

Arcane has had me thinking about this dynamic of what I'd call "found siblings" or something like that.

The trope of "like brothers" or "like sisters" I feel is often translated wrong, or ends up becoming more romantic than inteneded is what I think is the neglect of the tie that makes siblings, siblings.

siblings are tied together by a large, fundamental simualrity that forever will tie them together, regardless of what life brigns them. Sharing the same parents intertwines two indivudals, as well as growing up in the same home, regardless of if you are related or not. This tie is a shared expeircne that shapes a persons deveolpmental years.

Also, what always makes me laugh a bit when I hear the line "they're like my brother/sister" or "We're like siblings" is the fact that most of the time, they NEVER act like siblings.

If you want to have to characters have this "found sibling" relationship, they need to be able to express anger, frustration, and a childish annoyance at the other. Siblings know that regarldess of how much they can be angry and hold a form of hatred for the other, at the end of the day, that person has been in their life so long that there are some things that that person will only understand. It's being close because this person knows too much about you, it's sometimes a resigned love. It's not talking to this person for weeks or months but still knowing every intimate and embarassing detail about how this person's tween years.

Now, I'm speaking from a biased standpoint, I'm not close with my sibling in the way in which we talk with one another every day and are best pals or something. But, they're someone I can call at the end of the day when I need help. We won't talk for a month but if I'm stuck in the ER again because of my chronic health condtion, they'll hang out with me the entire time just so i don't feel lonely.

To write characters that percive one another as siblings, they need to be characters that will always help the other out at the end of the day. They can hate one another, but still come when called. They argue, maybe they don't see each other for months because life just got in the way, but when they see one another, they go back to bickering like six year olds. Sibling dynamics are held together by the fact that they know far too much about each other to stop being friends without it being a liability.

Overall, I feel like what creates a great sibling dynamic is the resigned love both characters hold for eachother. It's an eyeroll and a sigh while reaching out a helping hand. It's disagreeing with all of their choices, but reluctantly saying yes to helping them anyway because at the end of the day, you know them too well, you've seen them at their worst and walking away just isn't an option.

"you can't ship those characters they tried to kill each other!" sounds like someone can't appreciate the inherent eroticism of violence 🙄

This hurt (in a good way)

siblings doomed by the narrative