I’m So Tired Of Living I Desperately Want To Die Right Now

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Oc

I’m going to name this character Cassie she’s a tattoo artist, I would say she’s a poly lesbian, she’s a Virgo, 24 years old. Likes cats and hates cigarettes. (I use ai since I can’t draw)

I was crying yesterday I’m tired of having schizotypal personality disorder, I’m tired of accusing people of stuff, I’m tired of being paranoid, I’m tired of thinking people are doing rituals on me, I’m tired of thinning entities are watching me

ancestry dna

I think the craziest thing about this month is when I did a ancestry kit on myself and found out I’m mixed in half white with a little bit of blood of indigenous in me I never would have thought I was half white to be honest

youtube

I’m happy my YouTube is getting views

I should be taken care of

be my baby. let me take care of you and protect you forever

people think paranoia is tinfoil hats and conspiracy theories. but no. its an island. its being surrounded by loving people with genuine intentions and being so so so painfully lonely because you're TERRIFIED of the idea that everybody either secretly hates you or wants to hurt you. and you're convinced you deserve it anyways because you're the scum of the earth but you're still avoiding it because you're a coward who can't face the truth. it's begging people to just insult you or doxx you or hit you or whatever because you just wanna get it over with instead of sitting there anticipating 'the inevitable'. it's being attracted to people who abuse you because 'they're the only ones telling the truth'.

I had a psychotic episode yesterday and the maintenance saw my hell of a room when I was outside now I’m embarrassed