Mart-allioth - Allioth

“get a job” as an insult: piddlin. implies one’s value is determined by employment. feeds into capitalistic ideals

“get a hobby”: strong. cutting. implies that instead of feeding your soul and potentially creating something beautiful, you are here bothering me.

There is a fic (about a fandom i am not part anymore) about a young trans girl figuring out she is trans and coming out to her brother and it just aways hits home

In the fic there is a moment she is explaining to her brother why lesbians are cool and she says "have you never wished to love girls the away girls do?" And it spoke with me. It bring back a memory i didn't remember having

Twelve years old me, that would just lie there thinking and dreaming and wanting something they couldn't shape yet

To want to love boys the away boys do and don't understand why

Because i would read about two boys and know there's something there that i just wants so bad. Being a boy wasn't even a option on my mind and i already liked boys, so there had to be something magical and special about the away boys loved each other

God i wish i could tell little me that we do it now. We love boys that love boys. We got to love boys the away that boys do. And twelve years old me was fucking right, it do have something magical on it.

What these are for?

Quick sketch of what i thought of. I wanted to give Tango and Jimmy's clothes more details in my designs and i thought of these shoulder pads so it is more comfortable

Also

No hyperfixation of my was as unexpected as the magnus archives

Like ???

I am a fucking scared cat who can't see horror movies alone but suddenly i am listen to this creepy podcast every day on my lunch break ??

And i am fucking loving it

but it still changes

you would expect a guy who was sent to hell to get better and learn his lesson, unfortunately it won't work with Eli Ever, he's probably in some void and will wake up and be even worse

Transmasc Jonathan Sims who stopped wearing dresses and skirts young so he would be taken seriously.

Transmasc Jonathan Sims who misses wearing femme clothes and accessories but refuses to admit it or do it because he doesn't want to be called a girl.

Transmasc Jonathan Sims who starts wearing more femme clothes again while he's living with Georgie in season three and realizing how much he still likes it.

Transmasc Jonathan Sims who starts wearing them regularly again but is worried about what Martin may think of him.

Transmasc Jonathan Sims who is accepted by his partner and encouraged to do what makes him happy because he deserves it.

Transmasc Jonathan Sims who becomes more secure in his body and identity when he arrives Somewhere Else and gets a new start with his partner.

Transmasc Jonathan Sims.

Someone said to put lipstick on my Grian and I said "bet".

And additional victims of the lipstick incident.

RANCHER CRUMBS?? WAHHHHH

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Tango (in clip): I hate pvp….

Jimmy: now come on! You say I do stupid stuff! Man was on one heart- half a heart, and he did not eat. He was not eating!

Jimmy: I have no words- Tango? Tango! Come on now, man.

Jimmy: maybe that’s why we’re ranchers, holy moly. That was silly, and I’m silly, *zoom in on Jimmy putting his fingers together* put two together. Double silly. Double life. Double rancher.

Jimmy, zoomed in: I miss you…