Cycles

Singles

I’ve been a bachelor for most of my life -- sometimes out of choice, sometimes for lack of money, but I always had a hope that one day I’d find the right woman -- one who would accept me for who and what I am and be able to share her baggage with me. I struggle with that fear more than any other -- especially after being diagnosed with cancer. I worry that my pursuit of just surviving will render me unsuitable for marriage. And that’s how I get into my spiral of gloom. It’s like, if I’m not going to have a partner I love, is life even worth living? I love my brother and I know that he’s the only person who is supposed to matter to me, but I do confess that I resent being trapped with no good choices.

A speck in the dark: It’ll take a whole book -- at least one -- to explain what that means.

#HappyChristmas!

Out of the hospital

Confined to the house (and right now the couch), but I’m thankful to be out of a hospital bed!

Bravo to the ones who handle this better than I do

I miss writing

I enjoyed sending cards to you. I don’t really know where to find you except on certain dates. I dream about you knocking on my window and I come outside and kiss you on the porch. We can kiss in the rain if you want to like in that movie, but I prefer to stay dry when possible. (But wait at least a week; I might still be contagious. :(

First remember hearing this song on the radio in Jackson.

Been awhile

Illness took me away from my passion, but I’m still lurking. https://soundcloud.com/djmax-29/the-one-foe-the-blanks/s-AqWUAyfgOKI

What day is it?

Thank God the coronavirus quarantines are easy. It coincided well with #cancer recovery, but I still got cabin fever.

Golf is good any day

I don’t really get the appeal of standing outside in hot weather and long pants, but I do enjoy watching it from indoors, especially when I’m thinking about something and want to take a nap. But it’s soothing to watch.