Maybeemayhem - Welcome To The ?

Take a break, this cute tardigrade needs time to cross your dash:

I really wish there was a more thorough research base for HRT, because this just isn't reflective of my experience with spiro, and I want to know why.

Within 6 months of 100 mg oral spiro and 4 mg (split 2 mg every 12 hours) estradiol hemihydrate sublingual daily, my T was at 1.1 nmol/L 24 hours post dose and 0.6 nmol/L 1 hour post dose. Admittedly my E at that time was low, 150 pmol/L 12 hours post and 506 pmol/L 1 hour post, but that was remedied by bumping up to 6 mg split 2 mg every 8 hours. My T is consistently 0.6-0.7 nmol/L now, and my E troughs at 431 pmol/L 8 hours post dose, peaking at 1884 pmol/L 1 hour post dose (which is a little concerningly high, I'm soon to get some blood drawn at 2 and 3 hours to get a better picture as to how my levels taper off over time)

I also haven't experienced any of the notable side effects that people have described for spiro, besides needing to pee slightly more, but I just drink like 3-4 liters of water a day instead of the pre-HRT 2-3.

Notably, progesterone did nothing but make me feel queasy, emotionally tender, and incredibly fatigued. Though, I did only take it for 8 days before tapping out.

IDK I just wish I didn't have to dig through papers myself and end up horrifically confused about my healthcare, rather than, you know, my healthcare provider handling that.

also my advice to my fellow trans women nearly 5 years into my transition:

stop smoking/vaping (nicotine). im so fr. it will cancel out your E if you're taking it orally. i wasted like 3 years of E on my nicotine addiction. the minute i stopped smoking my cup size went up like 2 letters lol. i know cigarettes are hot but its not worth it

eat regularly and eat a lot of fatty foods. boobs need calories to grow babygirl

stay the fuck away from spiro and go on bica if you have to be on a blocker (i personally am team monotherapy but obvi ymmv. do what works. spiro doesnt)

go on progesterone. it rules 👍🏽

im suffering from a horrendous disease called being in your 20s

Ah yes, time to return to a singular moment from the past, standing like a boulder at the edge of my memory shore

Assuredly I will be able to revisit it always. What could possibly do away with so solid a thing as this? The gentle lapping of the sea of time?

i found out im a mid bitch with terrible vibes

"Trust the process" fuck you, the process has teeth and eyes too far apart and is just generally suspicious, I ain't trusting SHIT

he sure did apply a "love the sinner hate the sin" approach to queer and especially trans people that everyone tried gaslighting you into thinking was radical acceptance

starting a compilation of my favorite "no thank you" buttons from when they want you to subscribe so bad