honey gaze scours the delicate clutter of tools. all foreign to her knowledge and oddly comforting, as if by some extension of who he was could quell pockets of unrest. the tightness in her chest loosened, just a little. she keeps so many horrors there, unearthed like a vandalized mausoleum. gloria follows the sound of his voice, leans back into the warmth of his presence behind her. her fingers hover over the spools before settling on one — a dusky blue, like the swirling sky of a storm.
❛ this one. ❜ she murmurs, voice low enough to keep it steady. gloria focused on the feel of it, every sensation of lips adorning skin and distracting racing thoughts. ❛ don't go too easy on me. ❜
@medicbled
"here, let me show you something." voice and touch are gentle yet firm as he ushers them to his work desk and tugs gloria down, wooden office chair squeaking in protest under their combined weight. before them stands a rotary vise fixed around a fishing hook and a collection of colorful threads, feathers, flash, and beads kept in organized chaos. there's a storm brewing in that head of hers and this method, distraction and redirection, has always been effective in quieting his own busy mind.
"we'll do an easy one," josef begins, reassurance offered in the form of a squeeze and pecks against the slope of her shoulder between sentences. "pick a thread."
darker vibes
❛ i would let you rip me apart if it meant loving you. ❜
❛ this fear you feel? it won’t last. ❜
❛ you are my salvation. ❜
❛ i revolt you, don’t i? ❜
❛ get the hell away from me. ❜
❛ i want to sink my teeth into every inch of you. ❜
❛ i’ll be your dirty little secret, if that’s what you’re into. ❜
❛ worship me. until i tell you to stop. ❜
❛ don’t you know how sick with love i am for you? ❜
❛ fucking hit me already. ❜
❛ i would burn the world for you. ❜
❛ i don’t want to be good, no matter how hard you wish it. ❜
❛ i don’t know how you’ve bewitched me, but it needs to stop. ❜
❛ fix me. ❜
❛ they die for love, you kill for it. ❜
❛ you are mine, whether you agree or not. ❜
❛ do you like it when i bleed for you? ❜
❛ i will keep hurting. i will keep killing. anything to protect you. ❜
❛ i’m starved for you, morning and night. ❜
❛ now i get to ravish you. ❜
❛ i am your god and your executioner. ❜
❛ you are doing so well, my pet. ❜
❛ you’re my sweetest poison. ❜
❛ let’s do something about that mouth of yours. ❜
❛ your fascination with me will be your death. ❜
❛ you’re the monster that’s enticed me into your bed. ❜
❛ all you can say are pretty lies. ❜
❛ the fucked up thing is that it isn’t enough to just love you. ❜
❛ you’ve broken me. all i can think about is you. ❜
❛ you’ll beg for more. ❜
❛ an eternity with you would never satisfy me. ❜
❛ i would gladly let you drag me to hell. ❜
❛ everything i’ve done.. every horrible atrocity, it’s been for you. ❜
❛ you’re a fucking nightmare. kiss me. ❜
❛ feel grateful that i allow you to touch me. ❜
❛ every time your lips touch my skin, you burn me from the inside out. ❜
❛ there’s no black or white, only gray. ❜
❛ no one touches what’s mine. ❜
❛ make me indifferent, make me horrible. ❜
❛ i could never be the one to love you. i can only be the one that kills you. ❜
❛ your lips are poison, your laugh a curse. ❜
SC// @muutos ( price )
she came here because she knew he wouldn't flinch. john never tried to fix her. he saw her as she saw him, what war carved out of a person and didn’t look away. he knew the terrain because he’d seen the worst of her and never asked her to apologize for it. that had always been the unspoken deal between them: mutual recognition without pity. she could breathe in front of him, even when it hurt.
especially when it hurt.
gloria could feel the pulse in her jaw, the clench of muscle that hadn’t quite relaxed in days. maybe weeks but she wasn’t sure anymore. everything felt…off. like her skin didn’t quite fit right, like her body was still bracing for impact even when the threat was gone. attempting to be something normal, to press healing into the edges of so much death she couldn't scrub off her hands. that’s what no one ever told you about coming home — you never really came back. not whole at least. like being dropped into a quieter war where no one was wearing a uniform and everything demanded something she didn't know how to give anymore.
she glanced at him then, really looked, and something caught in her throat. her hand curls around the whisky glass, all of her frame leaning towards him. it was more than memory, more than want, so much deeper than anything she could translate into any language. nights in the field where she'd crawled beside him and shared a drink in the darkness because sleep meant silence and silence was where the screams lived. nights where she'd pressed her forehead to his shoulder and let herself believe, just for an hour, that she was still human.
but she also came here because he needed her, too, and it would be a fine frozen day in hell before she ever said no to him. ❛ i had my shifts covered for the next week and a half. ❜ and there it is, a mere glimpse of a devotion that doesn't know how to let go. ❛ you have me on this, john.❜ then comes the reach of a hand, gentle and sure of itself as it slips into his. ❛ but if you brood about how bad you feel bringing me back into it, i might take it back. ❜
rushed and desperate, messy on the couch because they were too impatient to even make it to the bedroom. / frank @weaponid
an echo of the lock snapped shut, no measure of time between a wordless greeting and their bodies tangled together. his mouth was on hers, rougher at the edges, soaked in silence and too much time apart, every hunger of his met with her own. she doesn't ask where he’s been, doesn’t ask what he’s done. his hands could be drenched in saintly blood, and she'd still lick them clean. the couch creaks beneath them, a mess of tangled limbs and desperate friction. she claws at him, at the layers between them. there’s no finesse, no slow unravel. just the brutal honesty of two people who’ve bled together, burned into one another's souls by the tangle of carnage and war.
his hands are always firm, pressing down and claiming curves with a bruising grip. he smells like gunpowder and warmth, like something feral that’s been living in the dark too long, and she breathes him in like he's her only source of life. her shirt caught, torn and bunched at her waist. mouth breaks against his when he drives into her; no warning, no preamble, just every breath knocked from her lungs. ❛ missed you so fucking much. ❜ it burns in her throat, strangled by the raw truth of her words. the weight of him, the feel of him is more familiar than her own reflection. greed of her hips slithered up, thighs wrapped around a wall of muscle. ❛ harder, frank. that can't be it, common. ❜ she tugs a fistful of dark hair, biting down on his bottom lip hard enough to taste copper. something to coax every violent thought in his head to the surface so she can swallow it whole.
❛ are you saying you want to secretly perform scientific experiments on your friends and coworkers to increase efficiency? ❜
holt & diaz quote starters // @vanhornrn
I want to know what everyone’s muses FYP looks like cause Gloria’s is : bodega cats, 90s nostalgia and dad bod thirst traps…are they also masked… no comment.
❛ i'm going to wait until i'm on my deathbed, get in the last word and then die immediately. ❜
holt & diaz quote starters // @walkeddeath
❛ you can't let other peoples opinions get in the way of what you want especially because other people suck. ❜
holt & diaz quote starters // @jennifershepard
her hand doesn’t move. it stays there, over his chest, over the heat of a heart still BEATING, even if it feels like it’s barely holding on. her fingers curl a little, as though she could press through flesh and bone and cradle it in her palm with tenderness. ❛ what am i without my hypocrisy? ❜ her smile is world-weary, a life lived before she ever stepped foot into the emergency department. one she couldn't shake from her bones or broken soul. just the same, she couldn't shake off obligations, duty, her purpose in this world. ❛ i know we do, trust me on that — ❜ a pause to relinquish touch, if only to toy with the pocket of his hoodie. ❛ i'm just asking for a day. the details of which i will be forcing you to relax and in turn i will relax so it's mutually beneficial. ❜
tired eyes flick to the hand on his chest like it's an open wound. the warmth of it hurts and sears his skin, in the way that softness does when you're starving for it. he can't afford to vanish. too many people need him functioning, unflinching. to unravel is not an option, not even at the seams. “ have you ever thought about taking your own advice? ” he offers a small grin before shaking his head. “ people like us. we belong here. ” they couldn't walk away if they wanted to.