A Masterpiece. Wtaf.

everyone lowkey judging jegulus’ relationship bc james is a YAPPER and literally never shuts up and it seems like reg can never actually get a word in

but behind closed doors regulus talks and talks and talks until he can’t possibly talk anymore and james just sits and smiles as he listens bc he ADORES to hear about anything and everything that regulus has to say

i love them sm someone sedate me

when jegulus first gets together and goes public everyone assumes James is the clingy one. it makes sense too, he follows Regulus around like a puppy. But only their friends see the Regulus that curls up into James and will whine if James even slightly moves. The Regulus that pulls James up to bed way too early just to cuddle because of how in love he is.

i hate the fact that the idea of opening up to someone, of asking for help, makes me sick to the stomach.

for the longest time, i thought what conan gray meant when he sang “but for now i’m only people watching” is that he is a part of the people who are watching.

a few weeks ago, it’d only registered in my brain that what he meant was he is people watching. like the activity of watching people.

………

Am I annoying? Yes

Do I give a fuck? Also yes I really am sorry about me all the time

i’m always in my own little bubble

i almost never want to listen to new music

i stay in the following feed of social media

i really only have, like, 6 friends i continuously talk to

i’m always shocked when my friends are talking about a topic that seems so familiar to them

i’ve stayed in the same school my whole life

i’ve lived in the same city my whole life

i wear the same clothes, the same hair, and the same face everyday

but frankly, i enjoy it.

yes i want to explore

i want to know everything and everyone

but knowledge is terrifying and clearly there are some things better left unknown.

so yes, i might not be as aware of my surroundings as i should be, but i am comfortable.

How to explain jurdan to a neophyte:

James going to the astronomy tower in the middle of the night to look at the regulus star and finding remus already there looking at the sirius star

Remus:

James:

Remus:

James:

Remus: wanna join?

James: yes please

yes all my favorite characters are desperate to be loved. no i don’t think that says anything about me

have you ever thought about how YOU were the problem? and then you start feeling really guilty and sad and oh my god why did i do that to them? then after a while you think back and you’re just like WAIT. i gave them chances. i told them about how i felt. they never changed. or was it me with standards to high? and then you’re just confused and lowkey frustrated