I Am The Love Of My Life

Felt cute like a pin up girl cute without the wonder bra and lingerie

Brown eyes, brown skin... During this time you have love how brown you are cause you are powerful

good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

Trying to post my poetry here or my creative I shall say but I'm afraid no one will like it

Black Rose Bae

Vanilla

So plain yet it stains..

you cry wolf and I'm credulous

Ànd everything else becomes mundane.

Masking the pain of you basking in the shame.

.people would frown trying to understand how it all went down

So I store some parts of you in manilla folders

I deserve better than these clandestine folders

Oh vanilla,strip tease as i please..you on your knees..

Pleading. Kneading your want into crevices of my skin.

I impede your needs for I don't know where it would lead..

I remind myself vanilla stains

And how I don't want this pain

Cause it will make me insane and the safe words wont be so plain.

but scintillating we could be even if its just a tease i appease

to accept

monotonous Vanilla stains

Eczema

The itch I have, yet can not scratch

For if I scratch the itch

It will lead to a series of uncontrollable scratching

Allowing me to glitch and open wounds

With no cognizant mind....

That I'm actually hurting myself

Followed by self-loathing as to why did I just do that

Opening wounds after would all to satisfy the 10min bliss of a

Itch..

That wanted to be scratched.

Similar to sex... That most can't deny...

They wonder why did I just do that.?

Cause 10minutes of bliss can fill the void of a father that left for bread and milk and...

His still coming back..

10minutes can make an empty vessel feel whole

10minutes of destruction could help uncover a foundation

10minutes does help a hole feel whole but 10min.

Is all I have to allow myself to self inflict and further no more

Cause 10minutes is all I have look over myself and clean my wounds.

10minutes is what he said it would it take..

For him to come home

10minutes is all I get to scratch the itch I got..

#poetry #creativewriting

yes #upgrade

Well there you go

A hug can be expensive

But

Really it is cheap

I mean it's easy to embrace someone, anyone, a loved one

But you can't just hug everyone

Cause not everyone is ready for that hug that leaves you with warmth, a hug that is more than just two beings wrapping their arms around one another.

A hug that Mae's you feel protected & safe, a hug that is sensual and makes you feel wanted.

These are all expensive

Why you ask?

A hug is time, time I have taken to decipher, whether I can trust you in my personal space... Space to be torn open by arms that might never hold me again.

A hug is something I open my heart to, cause feeling safe, protected, love, warmth and wanted.. Was maybe never on my agenda.

A hug is like an imprint on your soul, cause you will forever remember the embrace that once enfolded in your arms.

So I ask you.

Will you hug me?

So that all of the above can unfold....