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Okay, someone named the whole season 8 and I just finished rewatching it and HELL YES WHAT WAS THAT like what do you mean Dean told Cas 'I need you' with that desperate voice TWICE

What do you mean Cas broke literal mind control because he doesn't want to hurt Dean like he can't hurt Dean, despite all hundreds of fake Dean's he's killed (Naomi was so smart but Cas was gayer)

What do you mean Dean was running and fighting in purgatory for the whole year just to find Cas, who he was mad at for the whole previous season. Dean Winchester became a nightmare of every monster in MONSTERland. He prayed to Cas every freaking night. And Cas' 'I ran away to... to keep them from you'.

And what do you mean you Dean started seeing Cas everywhere. I mean. Yeah that was Cas trying to reach out, not just his nightmares, but It's the narrative. It's not Sam seeing Cas. It's Dean seeing dead Cas and his internal guilt for failing him.

And Cas telling Dean that he planned to stay in purgatory or when he told why he can't go back to heaven. I don't know, these scenes just killed me and they also killed Dean.

And the scene in the bar with Dean's 'talk to me'. A second ago he was fighting with Cas but here he's just 'hey man you really want to lock yourself with pissed off angels who want to kill you are you sure?'. He's still worried.

I don't know guys I wish they weren't such fools and the world was easier and they could finally kiss and stop making me sad.

of all deancas episodes which one is your personal roman empire? the one that you keep thinking about for some reason?

(the despair goes without saying)

Sometimes I miss drawing him so much...

my ocs my boys my meow meow ♡

(coloured words on the right side of the spread translate as "meow meow")

IM SO SORRY FOR THIS BUT I NEED TO COPE IT ALL SOMEHOW

I am hyperfixated on that one Castiel's death in 12 season for no reason and I overthink it too much (I can't even think about rewatching it rn, it's painful, so I'm sorry, if I didn't remember something), but I just realised one thing...

It's not the first, when Cas dies, but all other times he more like. disappeared. or was soon resurrected (like in the end of s5 or when he was a human). There was no time to grief or no body to cry on, so a small chance of Cas being alive was there. And Dean did believe in it, keeping his trench coat in Impala. But this time... It's different.

For the first time Dean had to deal with Cas's dead body. He saw, how he died. There was no chance he might be alive. No place for faith. God didn't answer. Nothing changed, when he returned and put up the blanket. The dead body was here and that was the end.

For the first time Dean had to arrange a real funeral for Cas, had to look how his body was burning. He lost two people he loved, and one of them had gone forever... And now he had to deal with that fact and his grief. He was completely broken.

Weeping willow symbolize grief and mourning

I read Addictive by NoNoNoah on AO3 yesterday and I just had to draw something. That's a really nice and warm work, I recommend!!

my meowmeow because I love his colour palette

oh where did he take that fancy green robe... no idea

Winter serirei (and one frozen reigen) that are all accidentally in the same color palette ❄️

A small spoiler of my work for the Let There Be Frames project 🤭

🩸 Day 5 — scars 🩸

My time management is a whole mess...

Sometimes I like drawing character's bodies with scars even if they're random. And if you think I did this only to draw Dean's boobs... well... maybe...