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atsushi—the one to finally understand akutagawa’s humanity. now seeing his backstory, witnessing the lowest moments of akutagawa’s life—when he was most dehumanized—through his own eyes. someone finally seeing them for what they truly were: tragedy, relentless abuse, the suffering of a wounded child. no more the image of a heartless beast. no more “this is what needed to happen.” no more “this was the only way akutagawa could have learned.”

as someone who has seen the depths of akutagawa’s heart, as someone who has brought change within him through trust, sincerity, and companionship. as someone who treasures akutagawa’s humanity and fights for it—begging him not to lose to himself, because now, atsushi equates akutagawa with that humanity. he would die before letting him surrender to its erosion—and he did sacrifice himself for it.

as someone who, when akutagawa fully reveals that deeply human side of himself, embraces it so completely that he replicates that moment in his own sacrifice.

and now, he watches as akutagawa’s humanity is torn down, again and again. but he is someone who understands—down to the depths of his heart—that akutagawa’s humanity is inherent. that no matter what anyone else, even the narrative itself, wants him to believe—nothing can take that away.

Mood: atsushi reaching for akutagawa as one of them dies

Atsushi saw Akutagawa's past. He learned about Akutagawa's trauma. He knows how Akutagawa was treated, how he was taught, what he was put through.

He understands Akutagawa now

He fully sees Akutagawa for his humanity now

Atsushi has seen Akutagawa's darkest, most vulnerable side now

And that's just so...

I can't even put it into words oh my God, their relationship is so complex and heartfelt I'm screaming

I have a feeling that Akutagawa doesn't mind Atsushi seeing his past, seeing him at weakest, lowest point

I think their trust runs deeper than that

Also Akutagawa isn't alone anymore. Nor is Atsushi, because they have each other. Akutagawa has someone who knows and tells him he isn't weak, Atsushi has someone who can be by his side and save him. I feel like without each other they aren't complete

Look! They're in love

if Verlaine won't do it then Karl will

(as promised, @crowatyourwindow )

I WILL NEVER GET OVER BSD X TAYLOR SWIFT THINGS 🙏 they're always so good 😭

reputation by Taylor Swift

Shin Soukoku from Bungo Stray Dogs - My take on how the album reputation by Taylor Swift represents SSKK with each song with a bonus perspective.

1) ...Ready For It?

Perspective: Akutagawa

Lyric/Quote: "I see nothing better, I keep him forever, Like a vendetta" & "I know I'm gonna be with you, so I'll take my time"

2) End Game

Perspective: Akutagawa

Lyric/Quote: "I got a bad boy persona, it's what they like, you love it, I love it too 'cause you my type, You hold me down and I protect you with my life" & "You've been calling my bluff on all my usual tricks"

3) I Did Something Bad

Perspective: Atsushi

Lyric/Quote: "This is how the world works, You gotta leave before you get left"

4) Don't Blame Me

Perspective: Atsushi

Lyric/Quote: "For you, I would cross the line" - "My name is whatever you decide, and I'm just gonna call you mine" - "And baby, for you, I would fall from grace"

5) Delicate

Perspective: Akutagawa

Lyric/Quote: "My reputation's never been worse, so you must like me for me" & "Sometimes when I look into your eyes, I pretend you're mine, all the damn time"

Bonus from Atsushi's perspective: "Handsome, you're a mansion with a view"

6) Look What You Made Me Do

Perspective: Akutagawa

Lyric/Quote: "I don't trust nobody and nobody trust me" & "The role you made me play of the fool"

Bonus: "The old Taylor can come to the phone right now, Why? Oh, 'cause she's dead"

7) So It Goes...

Perspective: Atsushi

Lyric/Quote: "You know I'm not a bad girl but I do bad things with you" & "But when you get me alone, it's so simple"

8) Gorgeous

Perspective: Atsushi

Lyric/Quote: "There's nothing I hate more than what I can't have" & "'Cause you're so gorgeous, it actually hurts"

Bonus: "You should take it as a compliment that I got drunk and made fun of the way you talk"

9) Getaway Car

Bonus: Dazai/Chuuya

10) King Of My Heart

Perspective: Atsushi

Lyric/Quote: "You are the one I have been waiting for" & "My broken bones are mending"

11) Dancing With Our Hands Tied

Perspective: Akutagawa

Lyric/Quote: "I, I loved you in spite of, Deep fears that the world would divide us" & "And say, say that we got it, I'm a mess, but I'm the mess that you wanted"

12) Dress

Perspective: Atsushi/Akutagawa

Lyric/Quote: "Even in my worst times, you could see the best in me" & "Everyone thinks that they know us but they know nothing..."

13) This Is Why We Can't Have Nice Things

Bonus: Dazai to Ango

14) Call It What You Want

Perspective: Atsushi

Lyric/Quote: "My castle crumbled overnight" & He built a fire just to keep me warm"

Bonus: "My baby's fit like a daydream"

15) New Year's Day

Perspective: Atsushi

Lyric/Quote: "But I stay when you're lost, and I'm scared, and you're turning away" & "Please don't ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere"

Bonus: "You and me, forevermore"

tell me about the as we dance in the pale moonlight fic :000 from the ask game

That's the most boring WIP I have lmao 😭 but sure :D

It's a fluffy, kinda indulgent, oneshot I'm writing where Atsushi and Akutagawa simply just spend a night together. And, can you believe it, they end up dancing in the ✨moonlight✨

Idk I just love the idea of sskk dancing together but with no music and like, it's just *them*, together. It's peaceful and I love peaceful sskk

Here's a snippet (and no I don't know how to get italics on Tumblr 🙏 bear with me and my asterisks);

Akutagawa watched his red blood swirl down the drain of the sink, the pain from his injuries stinging lightly. He quietly sighed and looked in the mirror.

His black and white hair was messy, his skin was paler than usual and the bags under his eyes weren't helping with his tired appearance.

Akutagawa had gotten back from a mission, bloody and bruised, and gone to the bathroom almost immediately to wash his wounds and bandage himself up. 

He heard a knock on the door, before a voice spoke up.

"Ryuu?"

Akutagawa felt the corner of his mouth twitch up. Hearing Atsushi's voice made his muscles relax. He loved being able to come back to his apartment and Atsushi was there to greet him. 

"Yes, weretiger?" He answered back, turning off the tap and drying his hands on a towel. 

"Are you alright?" Atsushi, on the other side of the door, creased his eyebrows as his tiger-honed ears caught the sound of the water shutting off. He knew it was inevitable for Akutagawa to have been injured someway or another, that was just the nature of ex-vampire's job, but it didn't mean he wouldn't *worry.*

"I am fine," Akutagawa reassured in his weary voice. He unspooled the bandages and wrapped them gently around his raw, but now clean, wounds. 

Atsushi let out a small sigh of relief, he couldn't help it. After a few quiet moments, Akutagawa swung open the door with a loose tendril of Rashomon and was greeted with the sight of a very concerned weretiger.

The white-haired detective immediately assessed Akutagawa's bandages and how bad they appeared.

"Weretiger, I said *I am fine,*" Akutagawa repeated, knowing what was crossing Atsushi's mind.

He cupped Atsushi's face in his hands and looked his boyfriend in the eye, Akutagawa's silver glare turning soft as he met the weretiger's upset gaze. 

"You don't *look* fine." Atsushi grumbled, leaning into Akutagawa's calloused yet lithe touch. 

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Yeah I have no idea what the heck that even is, it's definitely not my best work 😭

Also anyone seeing this post can ask me about my other WIPs I'm very lonely and want to talk about writing 😔

i open tumblr. i close tumblr. i check discord. i open tumblr. i close tumblr. i open spotify. start a song. open youtube. pick video, ending song. video bad. i close youtube. i open tumblr