when jeanette winterson wrote “i want to be able to call you. i want to able to knock on your door. i want to able to keep your key and give you mine. i want there to be no gossip. i want to make supper with you. i want to go shopping with you. i want to know noting can come between us expect each other.” and when franz kafka wrote “you clam you haven’t done enough nice things for me, but is there anything nicer, any greater honor you can show me than simply being with me and allowing me to sit in front of you” and when james schuyler said “not to be in love with you i can’t remember what it was like it must’ve been lousy” and when caitlyn siehl “You are making breakfast in every dream that I have of you. You are in the kitchen, your soft middle pressed up against the cold marble countertops like a vision too beautiful for the magazines, sprinkling dark chocolate chips over pancakes. I think for a brief second that I am dreaming inside of my dream, that I had to make you up twice, just to get it right. You, brushing your dark hair out of your face, smearing batter across your cheeks. You have come and made my dreams smaller, narrower. Filled them with sugar and your body humming in the same room as mine. I dream, now, of a normal life with you. A life where breakfast lasts until the sun goes down, until I have finished gazing at you from across the table, flour dried to your forehead like a kiss.” and when sanna wani wrote “I want to eat fruit the same way you eat fruit with your lips not your teeth tongues stained with juice when I smile I want you to smile back wipe the corner of my mouth with your thumb kiss me kiss your thumb show me how fruit tastes in your mouth just a touch different from how it tastes in mine” and when daniel walsh said “I crave the simplest love of you with you. a cold night, warm sheets, and your skin against my own. certainly, that is all I could ever ask for.” and edna st. vincent millay wrote “I am going to make you love me. sweetheart, what I mean is: I want to sit on the edge of your bed while you have your breakfast - i want to laugh with you, be incredibly silly, be incredibly happy, be like children, and I want to kiss you more than anything in the world.”
June Jordan, “Resolution #1,003.” Haruko/Love Poems
The original percy jackson series is about cycles of abuse and neglect, right. Were introduced to percy as a kid who has clearly been left behind by a school system that has given up on him, restless and unengaged and self-defetist because hes been given nothing that works for him and no one even tries to meet him where he is. Then hes told no, listen, your neurodivergence is amazing and you just need to be given something that actually utilizes your unique palatte. And thats obviously the uplifting idea rick wanted for his kids, right. But once we get to know chb the same cycles are happening there too. There are kids "left behind" there too for one reason or another, because their parents dont want to claim them, because their parents werent important enough to get a cabin. Do you get it, all the kids who dont fit the most common neurotypes get shoved into the same closet. Kids are being left in a cruel world to fend for themselves without the tools they need. Theyre dying because no one bothered to accommodate them. Its such an obvious parallel that the first chapter introduces a teacher whos written to be especially hard on percys disability and she turns out to literally be one of these monsters trying to kill him. Meanwhile sally jackson tells him she named him after Perseus because she wanted a redemption for a hero whos story ended in tragedy. Meanwhile every book in the series replicates a greek myth step for step until the moment they break the cycle. Annabeth, playing Odysseus, is talked down from her hubris and grounded by her friends. Percy, playing Heracles, meets someone wronged by the original Heracles and rights his wrongs by refusing to go down the same selfish path as him. Monsters are reborn because they are--as the books explicitly call them--achetypes. These kids are stuck inside the cyclical nature of mythology because thats what happens to mythology, it gets retold over and over again. But these are the kids who have to live it. The series ends with percy being offered immortality and he rejects it because he wants to use his godly favor to force them to break their cycle of neglecting their kids. The series ends with a declaration that we cant keep letting this happen. The very first book offees the same choice. It ends with percy refusing to keep the head of medusa as a spoil of war, refusing his heroic reward. He lets his mother have the head and use it to kill gabe. Isnt that fucking crazy for a kids book? Gabe wasnt a Monster. He wasnt going to Turn to Dust and Disappear in a narratively convenient way. He was a living breathing mortal dude and percy and his mom killed him without remorse. Break the cycle of abuse!!!! Dont let this happen again!!! Anyway thats why the original percy jackson series is Hey where are you going with our breadsticks
the smallness of the quest, returning a lost chalice, let the audience see a side of percy that is different.
this is a percy that has time.
a percy that has time to go to school and join clubs. a percy who has time to go to smoothie shops with annabeth and grover. a percy that has time to think about what he wants and what he's scared of. a percy that has time to be a kid.
i love the implication that annabeth just gets approached and asked for autographs often by fans - dryads, naiads, satyrs, other demigods. she has her own little fan club and resident member percy jackson didn't even know about it but was like "yeah that makes sense" when he found out.
the smallness of the quest, returning a lost chalice, let the audience see a side of percy that is different.
a percy that has time.
he isn't running from monsters or at the epicenter of a war.
this is a percy that had time to go to school and join clubs. a percy who has time to go to smoothie shops with annabeth and grover. a percy that has time to have dinner with his mom and step-dad.
a percy that has time to think, about what he wants, about what he's scared of. a percy that has time to be a kid and just exist.
just finished the new percy jackson book, the chalice of the gods and i'm curled up into fetal position, crying my eyes out— because this book was truly written for us, the ones who read the series at 9 years old and were absolutely taken with the sassy hero who loves his friends too much. the ones who are now in their early years of adulthood and inheriting a world of uncertainty.
the themes of growing up, trying to figure out what that means in this world, and desperately wanting to live a good life. rick wrote it with that boyish charm that percy has always had but he knew his audience has grown up and he told this story for them, the twenty-somethings who will never forget opening that first book about a boy who never wanted to be a demigod.
richard siken, crush // christopher healy, a hero’s guide to saving your kingdom // the amazing devil, ruin // j.d. salinger, raise the high roof beam // susan sontag, as consciousness is harnessed to flesh: journals and notebooks // claudia rankine, don’t let me be lonely: an american lyric // the avett brothers, i wish i was // frank bidart, the war of vaslav nijinsky // nicola toon, everything, everything
Keeping this quote to my grave
kiddie au for fun
I love you (I love you)
I miss you (miss you)
사랑이 그놈 참 어렵구나 (ay girl) Love, that jerk, turns out he’s pretty difficult (ay girl)
Young love
I love you (I love you)
I need you (I need you)
(You know what)
Yeah 1, 2
이런게 사랑인가봐 This must be love
참 바보인가봐 How foolish
너만 보면 기죽되고 Whenever I see you, I get discouraged
네 앞에만 서면 작아지는 걸 Whenever I stand in front of you, I get smaller
이런게 사랑인가봐 This must be love
참 웃음만 나와 It keeps making me laugh
왜 자꾸만 엇갈리고 Why do we keep passing each other by?
다가가면 내게 멀어지는 걸 When I move closer, you move further away
사랑 Love
My love is so young
It’s like the littlest child
지구 몇 바퀴라도 돌 듯 계속 뛰는 이 마음 This heart keeps beating like it took several spins around the globe
어느 그 아무도 모르게 정말 우연히 Without anyone knowing, completely by chance
알게 된 널 본 그날 난 내 심장과 마주쳤지 The day I got to know you, I bumped into my heart
Oh it goes fast
너와의 시간이 넘 빨리 가 Time spent with you flies by too fast
그렇다고 내 마음까지 빠르다는 걸 아니야 But that doesn’t mean that my heart’s moving too fast
남들 사이는 TV도 아닌데 왜 자꾸 틀어지는지 What happens between others isn’t a TV show, why do people keep pressing play
근데 왜 우린 서로 아끼는지 But why are we so fond of each other
널 좋아하는데 I like you
아 이유가 없어 Ah, there’s no reason
난 너랑만 있을 땐 물감 칠하듯 번져 When I’m with you, it’s like I’m paint spreading around
어느새 작은 말투 하나하나까지 너 같아 At some point, even little things about the way I speak seem like you
쉽게 말할게 내가 너가 돼 To put it simply, I’m becoming you
Then girl I like that
언제나 너와 함께 Always with you
넌 내가 너 안에 있지만 난 항상 너 밖에 없어 You always keep me within you but I can’t do without you*²
내가 부르는 노래 속에 있을 거야 (young love) You’ll be in the songs that I sing (young love)
이런게 사랑인가봐 This must be love
참 바보인가봐 How foolish
너만 보면 기죽되고 Whenever I see you, I get discouraged
네 앞에만 서면 작아지는 걸 Whenever I stand in front of you, I get smaller
이런게 사랑인가봐 This must be love
참 웃음만 나와 It keeps making me laugh
왜 자꾸만 엇갈리고 Why do we keep passing each other by
다가가면 내게 멀어지는 걸 When I move closer, I grow further from you
사랑 Love
내 맘을 몰라 (my love is so young) I don’t know my heart (so young)
내 맘을 몰라 (my love is so young) I don’t know my heart (my love is so young)
내 맘을 몰라 (my love is so young) I don’t know my heart (so young)
Our love is so young
내 맘을 몰라 (my love is so young) I don’t know my heart (so young)
내 맘을 몰라 (my love is so young) I don’t know my heart (my love is so young)
내 맘을 몰라 (my love is so young) I don’t know my heart (so young)
Our love is so young
내 맘을 몰라 (young love) I don’t know my heart (young love)
내 맘을 몰라 (young love) I don’t know my heart (young love)
내 맘을 몰라 (young love) I don’t know my heart (young love)
Young love young love
Young love
Translators’ Notes: * The word used here is ‘애매한’, a Korean word used to describe something awkward, ambiguous, uncertain, or even in-between. It does not really have a direct English equivalent. When used to describe a relationship, it implies that the relationship between the two is not very clearly defined, and that there is a slight awkward element to their interactions. 2. The Korean plays on the words ‘안에’, meaning ‘inside/within’, and ‘밖에’, meaning ‘outside’. The phrase “너 밖에 없어” in Korean is often used to mean “I have no one but you”, but can also be literally translated to mean “I have none outside you”.
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I think you carry the people you’ve loved with you forever, not in a ‘you can never get over them’ way but more like loving them changed you and it meant something and you have to make peace with that
chen chen, nature poem in ‘when i grow up i want to be a list of further possibilities’
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