OK SO CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE WHOLE EYES BEING IMPORTANT TO THE CHARACTERS THING. Because This Chapter

OK SO CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE WHOLE EYES BEING IMPORTANT TO THE CHARACTERS THING. because this chapter had a whole lot of that. ohhh boy it had a lot!!!!! it did!!!!!

FIRSTLY. akutagawa. for a while, his eyes have been pitch-black. last chapter, they regained their light, as he remembered atsushi. and then they're pitch-black again in this chapter-- as the person who brought light to them, to akutagawa himself, is gone.

SECONDLY. dazai. as he tells akutagawa he can "certainly" give him a reason to live, at the same time, he himself looks like he has no reason to live, as if he's not living at all. his eyes are dark and dead. pitch-blacm just as akutagawa's were at the start of the manga, and this chapter, but with none of the determination or bite akutagawa has. just emptiness.

THIRDLY. (child) akutagawa. his eyes aren't empty, nor pitch-black at first. they're dark, with light within. he has not been shown light, nor has he been pushed into the shadows. they become purely fully of light when dazai claims he can give akutagawa a reason to live.

his eyes turn his signature pitch-black with his time in the mafia. he was not given a reason to live. he was given fear, pain, emptiness, and desensitivity to brutality. the chance of light and goodness in his eyes from when he was a child is erased by the port mafia-- by dazai.

his eyes become like dazai's dark, lifeless ones as dazai trains him. any chance at light, or goodness, or happiness, or true life is sapped from him and replaced with violence, abuse, the mafia, dazai, dazai, dazai!

atsushi is what brings akutagawa that light. and when atsushi is gone, the light is gone.

"the light in somebody's eyes" is a phrase meant to refer to someone's spark of life. their reason to live. akutagawa says that killing atsushi "became [his] sole motivation." but when atsushi dies, that takes the light out of his eyes. his reason to live vanishes along with atsushi.

atsushi is akutagawa's reason to live, isn't he?

TGR SPOILERS !!!!!

Reading TGR and seeing Jean finding himself with the help of the Trojan's and getting the chance to heal makes me realize how much the Ravens still effect Kevin. Kevin having to down half a bottle of vodka before his interview with Jean and still being unable to talk about Riko and the nest without breaking down. Kevin also still heavily relies on Andrew due to the Raven's "buddy system" and still feels like he can't be alone.

His dependency on Thea is also a problem as Thea still hasn't properly spoken out against the Ravens past she only bashes the current line up for being a disgrace to the Ravens legacy. I wonder if Kevin clings on to her is because he saw what Riko did to Jean when he realized Jean was queer.

Jean has similar problems to Kevin's but he's only been out of the nest for about 4 months, whereas Kevin left 3 years ago. Kevin has nothing besides the court. Jean has his friends and his motorbike whereas Kevin has nothing and is still scared he will lose his court again. In the fight between the Foxes and Ravens he favors his right side to protect his hand cause if he loses that again he loses everything. He could just as likely add to the fallen Ravens as the current line up has. Jean is obviously still traumatized from his time at Edgar Allan but he knows he didn't deserve what happened to him and is actively seeking help and is being supported by the Trojan's every step of they way. Whereas Kevin pushes everything down or drowns it out with alcohol. He knows the ins and outs of the Raven's abuse but still doesn't know how to handle it. After Neil spent his winter break with the Ravens Kevin tries to comfort Neil but if he can't help himself there's no way he can help anyone else.

I wonder how Kevin felt seeing Jean doing so well after only a short time away from the nest...

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mm653339

2 months ago

Yuulma… that is all 🥺

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mm653339

2 months ago

drawing vince for the the first time in awhile feels like a cold glass of water after running a marathon

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mm653339

9 months ago

here is a handful of palestinian family fundraisers id like to boost. (these are all verified fundraisers & ones i have supported in the past.)

Low on Funds:

Mohammed Family - Farhat Family - Yasin Family Albaz Family - Ayyad Family - Hussein Family - Tashmali Family - Abumousa Family - Mekawi Family - Dawoud Family - Almoghrabi family - Yousef family

Halfway to Goal:

Al-Deeb Family - Balousha Family - Mahmoud Family - Alanqar Family

Close to Goal:

Ayyad Family - Aldeeb Family - Saftawi Family - Shahwan Family - Shaqqoura Family - Ahel Family - Alhajjar Family - Shehab family - Al-Sharif Family - Ahmed Family - Jamous Family - Al-Talouli Family - Maliha Family

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mm653339

6 months ago

Remind me later.

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mm653339

1 month ago

Just noticed something while using my phone to read the rough translations of the new chapter. Probably not that deep but, the moment I saw Past!Lavi telling Apocryphos he was underestimating humans, I got whiplash all the way back to chapter 115 with Allen vs Tyki. I left the panels under the read more to cover spoilers, but it does make ya wonder. 🤔

Chapter 254:

Chapter 115:

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mm653339

9 months ago

it makes me so fucking angry. Why do palestinians trying to escape genocide have to ask how you are. Why do they have to apologize for sending asks. Why must every message stast with saying they wish the reader well, they they hope you're doing okay, that they're so sorry to bother you. Do these people have to act nice and sweet for anyone to care? Do they have to make sure you're doing well before they have the right to ask for anything? Its horrific.

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4 months ago