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Illustration by anime character designer/animation director Chizuru Kobayashi from Pandora Hearts 24+1 Official Guide: Last Dance

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Football, fame, and solitude

In the emotional and thematic climax of the Neo Egoist League, Blue Lock concludes this arc not with shouts of victory, but with silences that resonate louder than any ovation. Chapter 301 presents a delicate counterpoint between the noise of fame and the echo of intimacy, and in that contrast, its true heart emerges: the insatiable desire that drives the players, and what is sacrificed in its name.

Kaiser and Ness: ruin, redemption, and the spell of affection

The first act of the chapter is a fall. Kaiser, broken, faces utter loss: not only of victory, but of the image he held of himself. His rhetoric is filled with self-loathing “I’m trash,” “I’m destroyed” as if his worth depended solely on winning. In front of him, Ness takes a step that subverts everything we’ve seen from him up until now: no longer a servant, but an individual who chooses to stay. “I’m not going to do what you say anymore,” he says, and it’s perhaps his most powerful line in the entire manga.

What follows is not a promise of success, nor a motivational speech. Ness speaks of a spell, a cure for the broken Kaiser. He speaks of affection, of humanity. What he’s trying to revive is not the player, but the human being. Until this point, football seemed to consume everything. But Ness reminds us that bonds when not based on dependence or manipulation can also be a form of resistance.

The parade of new heroes: masks of glory

The scene shifts abruptly, transporting us to a bus with the 23 players, still unaware of where they’re headed. There are jokes, anxiety, trivialities. The confinement in the bus recalls the early episodes of Blue Lock, when everyone was merely a number. But now, they’re about to face the other extreme: the public showcase.

The parade in Roppongi is the consecration of this transformation. The world applauds them, shouts their names, fights for their images. It’s the highest point of visibility they’ve ever experienced. Yet, Isagi’s monologue blankets it all with a disturbing haze of clarity: “With a single shot, you can become a hero or plummet.”

That line encapsulates the essence of the new football: there is no safety net, only the vertigo of the result. The spectacle is glorious, yes, but it’s also cruel.

Compared to the early days of the manga (that closed space, without windows, filled with psychological bars this parade is an external triumph). But internally, the bars remain. They’ve changed form: now they’re made of expectations.

The silence of Nagi: a world without football

And then, just as the noise reaches its peak, Blue Lock chooses to be silent.

The chapter ends with Nagi. Alone. At home. Facing his cactus, Choki, the same one that accompanied him before entering Blue Lock. His monologue is neither a celebration, nor a reflection. It’s a statement: “Nothing has changed. We’ve simply returned to the routine, to an empty everyday life.”

This ending contrasts with the frenzy of the parade. While everyone bathes in applause, Nagi returns to square one. There are no teammates. No football. Only the void. His “I’m back” doesn’t sound like victory; it’s a surrender, an acceptance that, without that competitive fire, the world loses its colour. Nagi represents the player whose motivation was external—the duo with Reo and now that that bond is broken, he seems to wonder if there’s anything left to fight for.

The comparison couldn’t be starker: while Isagi sees the summit as an abyss he must climb, Nagi looks at his surroundings as a desert he doesn’t know how to fill. One finds meaning in the vertigo; the other drowns in the silence.

Conclusion

The chapter doesn’t close with a coronation, but with an open question. What is left of the human being after submitting to a system that turns them into a hero? Is that recognition worth it when bonds, certainties, and even purpose crumble off-screen?

Blue Lock has often shown us that egoism can be a tool for greatness. But in this chapter, it suggests that it can also be an unbearable burden if not balanced with humanity, with meaning, with something beyond the result.

Because when everything fades away, when there are no stadiums, no applause, no rivals... the only thing left is silence. And not everyone knows how to live in it.

By @isthepame

I'm gonna be honest half of these are just what i want to happen but oh well. i also spent way too long on this. I spelled kunigami's name wrong i apologize im too lazy to fix it

comic from forever ago

BABE WAKE UP NEW NO.6 ART JUST DROPPED

Lavi and Kanda the siblings ever

“for soccer” LMFAO

📸 This is not just a newspaper cover. This is our reality in Gaza.

This powerful image was published by The Independent on May 11, 2025. It shows the faces of hungry and terrified Palestinian children — the result of a brutal blockade and forced starvation.

The headline reads: "For all their sakes, end the deafening silence on Gaza now." But the silence continues ........

💔 I am a father of three children. We live every day under the shadow of hunger and fear. There is no food, no clean water, no safe place — only the constant struggle to keep my children alive.

The siege has taken away our jobs, our homes, our futures. I am doing everything I can to find food for my kids, to give them something — anything — to eat.

Please, if you are reading this: don’t be silent. 🎯 Your donation could mean a meal for my children. 🛑 Your support could save their lives.

🙏 Even $5 can make a difference. 📢 Share this message if you can’t donate.

Please Donate now:👇👇 👇

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Donate to In the Face of War: We Need Your Help to Survive, organized by Elham Abdelrahim

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🤝 But don’t look away. We need you now more than ever.

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Some past!laven hc because I'm in the trenches (they shouldn't have that much of a hold on my brain)

They're both occasional smokers. Lavi picked it up from Bookman and Allen was peer-pressured to take it up while in the army. Out of them both, Allen is the most likely to stress smoke.

The cape Allen is wearing in the second part of the flashback was given to him by Lavi, he never bought it. He likes the heaviness of it on his shoulders.

Lavi saw Allen smile for the first time months, if not years after the start of their journey. That's what truly got him.

Lavi smiles whether he's happy or sad. Allen learned to see through his expressions pretty fast, but he still would rather see Lavi be fully sad or angry than look at more fake smiles.

Allen is Lavi's best audience (canon), but it doesn't mean Allen is Lavi's only audience. Whenever they stop at a bar, he ends up telling stories and legends from across the world to drunken men and women, and sometimes to children on the street as well. They typically recieve a few coins for it. Lavi's a pretty good storyteller.

Past!Allen may not be as good a cheat as current!Allen is, but he fares pretty well on his end. Plus he actually has some luck. Lavi tries not to stay too close to Allen whenever he plays, just to be sure Allen doesn't fall victim to his bad luck.

Allen has his own stories to tell, but he doesn't talk about them much. Lavi only hears them sometimes, in the middle of the night, when sleep cannot find either of them and Allen is too tired to keep them in.

They spent so much time together Allen can tell the weather based on the state of Lavi's hair. High humidity means Lavi struggles to keep them in a ponytail, cold weather means he won't even try.

Allen cannot grow a beard. He tried, it won't. Lavi shaves though, both to not piss Allen off too much and because he likes the feeling of kissing Allen better that way.

Hanging out with them for less than 24 hours means being subjected to the most old-married-couple-and-happy-about-it energy. They talk to each other like best friends, they flirt with each other in code, they will be insufferably lovey-dovey in the strangest of ways. Oh to be gay travelling lovers in the 19th century and everything it implies.

Link Click is hilarious because all the main characters all think they're in drastically different genres of story.

Cheng Xiaoshi thinks he's in a buddy cop movie. There's a bit of comedy, a bit of suspense, some romance, but everything turns out all right at the end of the day.

Lu Guang is standing somewhere between Shakespearean Tradgedy and a psychological horror. Nothing is ever okay, and he cannot escape but he also can't ask for help because how would he even start.

Qiao Ling thinks her life is like a mystery novel. People are clearly hiding things from her and people she loves keep getting hurt but by god is she going to get to the bottom of this no matter what.

Xia Fei (as far as we've seen so far) is trapped in a coming of age story. He's just lost his mentor and is going to have to go off and figure the world out on his own. But he's making friends and learning the error of his ways.

Vein thinks this is a romance. Do not deny it. He's trying to live out his dark romance fantasy, and it's so bad for everyone involved.

Liu Xiao is a mystery to me. He's been playing Tetris on set. Honestly, he probably thinks he's the narrator, smug bastard.

Isagi and Reo really did have this heavy aura over them in this chapter which is understandable considering that they're the most affected characters by Nagi's elimination in the previous chapter.

Will this open for a meaningful interaction of them together once again in the future?

Chapter 90-92 of the manga is one of the most memorable chapters for me considering how their heart to heart talk with each other in the monitoring room had a positive impact with each other's characters. I'm hoping that we will get to see them talk once again in this arc.

the way their eyes look so damn empty here it breaks my heart. to have one half of your heart torn away so swiftly and so violently.

gluttonous beast

this is the funniest thing I’ve read in my LIFE

the idea that it’s ‘creepy’ to interact with things posted a long time ago is so terrible for artists and contributes to the pressure to be constantly creating new work, at an unhealthy and unsustainable rate. I hate it so much.

[ryusae meta/analysis]

This post is a bit of a journey since it was a struggle getting my thoughts together lol, but please bear with me as I explain how I've noticed that Sae consistently allows Shidou past his iron-clad emotional barriers, as evidenced by how frequently we're shown Shidou managing to elicit reactions from him. Let's go!

When Sae is introduced to the U20 team, we get a close-up of his face and a full-body shot. His face is blank, devoid of any emotion, back rod-straight and hands glued to his pockets. He maintains this pose throughout the entirety of the meeting.

From his introductory speech, to his exchange with Sendou, and even after the whole scuffle between Aiku and Shidou, where Aiku ends up body slamming Shidou into the ground, Sae locked in the same pose, unbothered. Any words and actions from anyone fail to elicit the slightest change in his demeanor.

There are only two points where this changes and Sae allows a reaction.

A Guide to Sae's Reactions: Intentional Intimidation vs Genuine Exasperation

First is when he gives everyone a glimpse into his one desire as a player - becoming the best in the world. Through a terrifyingly cold expression, he conveys the vastness of the difference in their ambitions and why he deems everyone before him worthless in comparison. Although it didn't hurt him by any means, Sendou's remarks did illicit a reaction out of him. Therefore, questions about his calibre as a player does affect him. Not in a way that weakens or stirs any insecurity - Sae has a very strong sense of self as a player.

Sae's entire life revolves around football. Day in, day out, he spends time practising and analysing football data to hone his skills and advance in the path to becoming the best in the world. So naturally, he'd have something to say when he encounters someone not on his level ability-wise, clinging to titles like 'regular forward in the best team in Japan' to assert their dominance over on this subject.

On Sae's part, this reaction is intentional and purposeful. He intends to strike Sendou where it hurts and humiliate him before his fellow teammates to demonstrate the consequences for anyone that dares challenge him as a player. He deliberately utilises his facial expression here to drive the point home and intimidate Sendou into silence.

This is an act in-line with his characterisation as a icy cold genius unafraid of speaking his mind and calmy tearing apart those he deems unworthy.

The second time is when Shidou defends him.

It's an expression of mild exasperation and resignation at Shidou's antics. The little speech bubble is used to convey how he's totally speechless.

This is an indication that Shidou's actions and the intentions behind them were received by Sae. You don't react to something that doesn't affect you. Especially Sae, as evidenced by his characterisation as a whole and specifically, during this whole chapter.

Except, unlike with his first reaction, this one lacks intentionality. Sae's not trying to convey any message, it's purely his raw reaction.

Let's take a moment to look at Shidou's reasoning behind attacking Sendou's and break it into two pieces:

1) He has a very strong sense of self as a person and a player, and that extends to his expectations of his fellow players. We see this in his conflict with Kunigami as well, where he severely dislikes Kunigami's playstyle and philosophy to the point of taking immense pride and glee in eliminating him during the second selection. Sendou also simply doesn't fit the bill lol (for the same reasons Sae listed earlier) so he has zero respect for him and therefore has no problem enacting his own personalised form of justice, for the crime of being an uninspiring player hung up on titles rather than actual ability, by slamming his head into a table LMAO

2) At this point, Shidou has never seen Sae play. However, if Sae is someone predominantly characterised by a calm, cool, and logical playstyle, then Shidou is a master of instinct. He doesn't need to physically observe someone to get a feel for their essence as a player; to sense their explosive potential.

Shidou could feel what kind of player he was the moment they met, felt the aura radiating off him. Hence the huge grin. This scene started with him raging at Ego and initially being utterly unimpressed and irritated at Sae's presence, only for a few words from Sae to completely change his mind.

He gained immediate respect for Sae here and that's why he couldn't let Sendou's remarks slide. Just as he won't tolerate mediocrity, he won't allow insolence against someone he deems is a worthwhile player. He can't stand that Sendou would dare challenge Sae, so he's the only one in the entire room to jump to his defence.

[NOTE: To be clear, I'm not expecting anyone else to do this after Sae said all that stuff to them LMAO this is more about what's transpiring between ryusae here]

If you really think about it, it's quite sweet lol

Sae walked into a room full of people who are already teammates and therefore have each other's backs and intentionally created a storm by insulting everyone and humiliating their ace. He never expects any defense on his behalf. He's this solitary genius, who does everything by himself and for himself.

Yet here he is, being faced with this guy, who's barely an acquaintance, offering such a passionate defence. Something I doubt he's received from someone in a long time.

Based on the clues we've gotten thus far regarding his time in Spain, which was the turning point in his career, attitude towards football as a whole, and immeasurably damaged his close relationship with his brother - Sae has evidently been on the receiving end of casual cruelty at the hands of his peers there. Which undoubtedly shaped the completely closed-off, icy cold, and cruel persona he's now embraced.

He's fashioned himself an immpenetrable barrier against any and all attempts at connection from others. The degradation of his bond with Rin being a prime example. To the point where Kaneshiro revealed in an interview/fan event that he doesn't even consider their fight, the one that changed Rin's life, to be a fight at all. He's evidently emotionally stunted. Trauma will lead to the development of such concrete, even destructive, emotional defense mechanisms.

We get a small glimpse at the kind of people Sae's had to deal from Luna's introduction. Where he cruelly ridicules the Japanese players with a cheery smile on his face and the following panels show how badly received it was by the Blue Lock players. To the point where Loki has to step in and apologise on his behalf.

So it can be inferred that Sae has not been in the company of camraderie for a very long time. Therefore, this moment initiated by Shidou holds quiet but clear significance to him.

A reaction breaking through his otherwise continuous blank demeanor, signifies that he definitely registered what Shidou was doing, why he was doing it, and his subsequent speechlessness shows it resonated with him but he doesn't know how to process it. So he resorts to pulling a face.

Sae Regularly Allows Shidou Through His Defenses

In fact, Shidou is shown to affect him regularly. He frequently manages to drive emotions out of Sae. For example during his big bang drive, we see Sae express genuine awe.

When Shidou jumps on his back and captures him in a hug (something Sae intentionally allows, btw!!) and Sae can feel Shidou's...excitement, we see him break his usual impassivity to express disgust. Despite this being a negative reaction, Sae compensates by still promising his touch as long as the conditions of scoring a hattrick are met. So his initial repulsion appears to be quite shallow and momentary, more of a knee-jerk reaction (understandably lol) than a total rejection.

Notice the zero pushback on Shidou's counter offer of scoring ten more goals to move in with him too. These subtleties on Sae's end, formed by his deliberate lack of denial to Shidou's direct romantic and/or sexual offers, are demonstration of how he's allowing space for and accepting Shidou's feelings. The same Sae who slapped his other teammate's hands away and denied Aiku's handshake, is shown permitting Shidou's physical and verbal attempts at connection and reciprocating in full.

Throughout their brief but intense union, both on and off the pitch, Sae continuously allows Shidou to cross his tightly maintained barriers, to occupy spaces where he's actively and cruelly denied others access to.

I never made this link prior to making this post, but Shidou so emphatically and boldly jumping to his defence, during their second time ever meeting, definitely has something to do with why Sae is willing to do that. On top of genuinely considering Shidou a worthy striker, and as I've outlined in a previous post (here), truly liking and feeling comfortable him. Sae so clearly has a soft spot for him :')

“sorry reo, in the end wanting to be the world’s best wasn’t as strong a feeling as my fear of BEING SEPARATED FROM YOU.”

i am literally crying bro, nagi really just wanted to be with reo forever and play football. the endless apologies and reo saying not to apologize as SOON as nagi was abt to say sorry for breaking their promise. SHUUTUUT UPP😭😭😭 not strong enough for this lord

after nagi’s river of apologies… then reo apologies for everything… THEN NAGI SAYING HE WAS HAPPY BEING BY HIS SIDE WHATTTT. the tear drop on the grass with them reflected on it is insane… and the speech bubbles being all wobbly for reo’s words can’t do this no more ,,, voy a gritar :)

bro also reo looks so beautiful crying what sorry- heartbreaking tho…

the icing on the cake was nagi calling his time with reo the treasure of his life. the flashbacks … omg the flashbacks literally they cannot be separated from each other they need each other so so so bad… nagi holding his wrist not his gloved hand BYEEEE. Too Many Tears came out this chapter it is actually devastating wow.

deadass left my lecture at school cause i was literally crying reading this . these two have such a HARD EFFECT ON ME DONTTALKTOME and i still crying.

the way shin soukoku is developing right now, i'm starting to believe in atsushi being the one who'll have to join the port mafia theory - it would be a really interesting narrative choice for where these two are headed, i think there could be a lot explored with it

so. guys. that new bsd chapter???? how we feeling??? we alright??

(insert deep breath)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

ATSUSHIS FACE. hes so fucking conflicted he wants him gone but still thats practically his FATHER. ohhh shoot me 87 times instead that would HURT LESS. his eyes being scribbles make it worse harukawa you are EVILL

i love the combination of the titles. dont even i love it so bad the chapter titles were pieces of the full sentence..... ajdflgjkg im Going Insane. this isnt okay im not okay im going to crash out so hard

oh.

oh.

this is insane. do you all know how insane this is. whos face, (or words) come to mind instead?? instead of the mentor akutagawa has despised yet idolised for half his life?

SHUT UP. SHUUUUTTTT UP.

SHIN SOUKOKU FANS WE ARE BEING FED. WE ARE FEASTING. these past chapters have been SPOILING US.

akutagawas reason to live, to keep going, its atsushi.

do yall know how absolutely insane this is. im tweaking out So Hard like this is INSANE. SHIN SOUKOKU WE ARE SO BACK. WE HAVE ALWAYS BEEN BACK. IM CRASHING OUT TWEAKING SHIN SOUKOKUUUU

THE FUCKING MOMENTS. THE FUCKIGGN MOMENTS WITH THEM FIGHTING ASAGIRI AND HARUKAWA WHAT HAVEE YOU DONEEE. guys atp stop writing the fics canon is all we need 😭

the fucking QUOTES atsushi said to him??? about true strength???? might as well have chucked a brick at me.

im so insane this chapter isnt okay

THE LIGHT COMING BACK INTO HIS EYES????? AT THE MEMORY OF ATSUSHI????????? THIS ISTHE MOST QUEER THING EVER SHIN SOUKOKU YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS

no but do yall know how wild this is. him getting that "light" in his eyes because of atsushi. do YALL KNOW. his eyes being dark for most of the manga (showing how dark his soul is) BUT THIS. THIS IS THE BRIGHTEST THEYVE EVER BEEN. and its at the thought of saving ATSUSHI. HIS RIVAL MORTAL ENEMY. no this is wild actually

harukawa my lord and saviour i love you.

HIS REASON TO KEEP FIGHTING. HIS REASON TO KEEP GOING. hes LITERALLY fighting god to get atsushi back. literally fighting something practically unkillable to get his jinko. asagiri i fear this is the hardest you have ever cooked. shin soukoku this is the queerest you've ever been. we are winning so hard. my brain is a jumbled mess of shin soukoku i cant go live my life when this is happening.

NEW CHARACTER EVERYONE CHEERED

they look so cool im genuinely so hyped for them. bsd is getting insane i Swear. im actually so fucking excited for what happens next i feel all electric and tingly

genuinely this chapter was insane. im going to go mentally scream in my head all day and not think of anything except sskk now. goodbye

bsd 123 has some insane moments but i genuinely think this is the craziest.

like, yes, this is about how atsushi helped akutagawa realise that dazai’s word is not something he can rely on, and that dazai’s validation is not a reason to live—but it’s not the only thing to take away.

firstly, this is the first time that akutagawa has realised that somebody believes in him. this person hated him, didn’t get along with him, fought him to the death on more than one occasion, saw the worst of him, yet still believes in him. atsushi believes in him enough to bring back his consciousness, and to try and do it twice. atsushi believes in him enough to reassure him often, even if it doesn’t feel like reassurance all the time. atsushi believes in him enough to protect him, even though akutagawa has been the protector his entire life.

secondly, i don’t believe that atsushi has now become akutagawa’s reason to live from this panel. akutagawa thinks about two things after his epiphany that dazai’s words don’t hold the same weight anymore. the first is his promise to atsushi, and what that means to him. the second is atsushi’s words about true strength—which akutagawa realises he now has. it’s not about a reason to live anymore, but that akutagawa has someone who believes in him and because of that, he feels alive.

this panel isn’t about akutagawa’s mentality shifting. it’s about him finally finding his strength and fighting for something that he, and not anybody else, thinks is right. he’s hoping. he’s caring. he’s understanding. he’s strong. he’s alive.

If you think Nagi's confession and Reo's reaction is dramatic in blue lock, then you're not ready to see it from epinagi's perspective.

The level of yearning is gonna be astronomical.

Facts about your body after you turn 25, AKA things I wish someone had told me:

you will get hair in fun new places. this is normal and fine.

these places include (but are not limited to) if you don't already have them: your asscrack, your back, your ears, and moles. it's fine.

some of you, dick or not, will also lose hair. this is normal, but also if you have ovaries maybe get this checked out for PCOS.

your acne will probably change. some people get better. some people get worse. it's fine.

your nails will probably get an infection or a fungus at least once in your life. this is fine. (but also let your doc know).

how you gain and lose fat and where you do so will change. this is fine.

how you smell will change. this is fine. (fishy or rotten smells mean doctor time though)

if you have a prostate: it gets harder to pee. prostates enlarge as you age (get this checked regularly). this is fine.

if you do not have a prostate: it gets easier to pee but not in a good way. as in as you get older, your pelvic floor muscles tend to lose some of their strength. this makes it harder to keep pee in. this is fine.

all breasts and pectorals eventually sag, with the rest of your body. this is fine.

a decent percent of the population will experience a cyst at least once. some of you will make up for the rest with multiple. this is fine, but keep them checked out by a doctor. (sometimes this is a condition! get checked for that too!)

almost half of everyone gets hemorrhoids. it's a good idea to just expect them since your chances of getting them get higher the older you are. your toilet will look like a murder scene. definitely get your booty checked out BUT this is almost always perfectly normal. just eat more fiber. "but I already-" eat more fiber. and maybe suck it up and buy some hemorrhoid cream, you'll thank me later.

yes, this means you will probably need to make an appointment for a doctor to see your butthole. it's okay. not only do they really not care but 1. they've seen weirder that day and 2. they'd far rather you see them now than later when it's been going on for forty years and now it might be colon cancer. it's okay. consider it a rite of passage.

adults need more sleep than children. don't believe the myth that you need less than they do. that is capitalist propaganda to make you give up more of your life to the work grind, comrade.

vitamins and medicine, something you are more likely to take as you get older, sometimes make the toilet turn weird colors. it's okay.

if you still have your tonsils and get those little stones and get sore throats more than once a year you should plan on getting those suckers out before the tonsils cause an infection and go septic. if you're getting stones at all you should get those reevaluated every year, especially if the stones are bigger than a needlehead (or get bigger over time). it's gross and yucky. I don't care. get them looked at before you end up in the hospital.

you'll probably need to add foot support to your shoes if you don't already do. this is fine.

your body changes. sometimes it can feel sorta weird and upsetting that it isn't what it used to be. that is okay, and it is okay to be upset. just know that this is normal, it's normal to be upset or not upset, but don't let it hinder your quality of life. trans or cis, there is a certain level of acceptance you just gotta give your body and forgive your body for as you get older. it's okay.

it's okay. I promise.

Just noticed something while using my phone to read the rough translations of the new chapter. Probably not that deep but, the moment I saw Past!Lavi telling Apocryphos he was underestimating humans, I got whiplash all the way back to chapter 115 with Allen vs Tyki. I left the panels under the read more to cover spoilers, but it does make ya wonder. 🤔

Chapter 254:

Chapter 115:

D.Gray-man Chapter 254 Translation

Notes: Million thanks to @konakatomo who helped me start the translation ASAP and proofread/revised everything!

Some parts are directly quoted from previous chapters, translation credits go to @jeidafei

As always, it can be improved, feel free to leave notes !

Lavi: Eh... it's snowing

Bookman: Looks like it

Lavi: Really? I didn't think it would snow around here, there are so many weird things happening lately

Just the other day ! so many flowers bloomed before their season and-

the color of the lake changed overnight and-

the lady from the inn said she harvested sooooo much so she gave us some vegetables and-

Bookman: That was big help.

Lavi: A big help!!

Bookman: Was there a ripple somewhere? Something big enough to have such an impact on the surface...

[or could it be... was the helix...]

[Lavi: Dad]

Bookman: [I can't... Again, it's all I can think about....]

(Says "it" but the kanjis say Helix)

[To think that you have become a part of it...]

Lavi: Gramps, Do you think the snow will pile up ?

[Remembering his son in the silver snow]

THE 254TH NIGHT: IF IT IS INDEED FATE, WE'LL MEET AGAIN SOMEDAY . CONCLUSION

Apocryphos: it's been 2985 days… we've been at a standstill for about 8 years.

What now?

Apocryphos: Is that the host....!?

Apocryphos: What about Bookman Jr....

.... Hope. Struggle

Love. Hatred...

huh? so that's all?

It was a waste of time

after all this effort... let's just kill hi- [!!]

[What...!?]

//ugh

[LAVI: Hope

Struggle. Love. Hatred.

Lives touching lives

Bonds. Convictions passed from one to another

The traces left behind, of a life lived with that heart. That is what makes the helix stronger.

You, all alone, couldn't fathom the bonds between lives, could you ?

You underestimated humans, Apocryphos!

Apocryphos: [what was that, just now

I felt an immeasurable energy

It's the first time that I've felt such Helix energy]

Am "I"… trembling ?

[Does that mean this helix is connected to this little life? This is beyond human level]

[The Helix energy, already powerful in Nea alone, reached a whole different level when it absorbed the life of Bookman Jr.

So the karma of the Bookman clan runs so deep?]

Ah I see, that's right… they were closest to the Heart...

[If this amount of helix energy could be offered to the Heart…]

Since the person connected to this one helix is alive,

The more joy, pain, and sorrow he experiences, the stronger the helix will become.

Energy will be offered to the Heart, through the innocence that has taken possession of his left arm.

This will bring forth the revival quicker than expected

This child will surely become the perfect sacrifice for the Heart

I shall shape him so myself.

[Lavi(?): Allen

From now on, you will go through a great deal of suffering

but

somehow

Please keep on living]

[Please continue your journey]

Allen(crying) (me too): Lavi...

Apocryphos: You will be reborn as an unsightly orphan who has forgotten his own name among everything else after being abandoned by his parents.

Yes…. I'll sell him to a circus

This shall be the tale of one who started from the bottom and went on to become a beautiful sacrificial angel.

Go ahead, live on.

For The sake of the Heart.

[Allen's memory was all true...]

D.Gray-man ----- To be continued.

imagine being 17, participating in the soccer version of squid game and a 31 yo with twisted ideals trash talks your boyfriend who's just gotten eliminated, blames you for it and also makes sure your heartbreak gets livestreamed

this made more sense when i was operating on 0 sleep..

I made it inspired by my drawing. Lavi will follow him like a ghost, thinking that everything about Allen, what he experienced in this holy war, will be shown as a painting and that Allen will not lose his effect on Lavi even after the holy war. Not a real ghost. The remains of the eternal friend who did not leave Lavi and the neutral pages.

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Damn it i really it . You should see the other things I've done too