i don’t know. i’m barely a person. i just want to be kind and hold someone’s hand. eat an ice cream cone. stare at the lake. feel the sun on my skin. lay in the grass. run through a sprinkler. it’s so easy to forget life is supposed to feel like a deep breath and not a gasp
can't completely stand upright rn, but i'm still gonna try to function tomorrow (we'll see how that goes)
my back pain is so bad today idk how i'm supposed to do things or even sleep!
i'm already doing physio therapy so idk what else to do about it at this point
fighting the occasional urge to scream, because being chronically ill feels unfair and it really is all too much sometimes
i hate when i, a completely healthy person (very chronically ill), get sick (flare up) for no reason at all (i exerted myself way past my limit just cuz i didn’t wanna be “annoying”)
started doing physical therapy again and my chronic pain got worse... really debating just quitting rn
someone told me that they would end themselves if they had even half of my health issues... idk what to do with that information...
sometimes i forget you can actually just pass out from pain
my body just said "nope"
please if you're sick stay at home if possible or at least wear a mask!
... even if it's just a cold some people don't have the best immune system and i am tired of being sick on top of my chronic illness every other week
i'm in too much pain to sleep and i have to get up in a few hours cause it's a busy day
i am lucky if i get to close my eyes for a few minutes and it sucks
made the typical joke about "being allergic to gravity" today and i got an understanding nod instead of a "wtf"... now i'm the one that's confused