Why Not....

Black cats are lucky. (via leahweissmuller)

I want a funeral while I'm still living

I want a funeral for the me who's still alive

I want a big cake and pretty flowers and dark clothing

I want my favourite music playing and my favourite people with me

I want a funeral for someone who's still alive.

In some missing sort of way

Because she deserves a funeral filled with dancing and laughter

She deserves a funeral with flags in blue, pink and white

And she deserves to have a funeral, so that I may have a birth.

I want a funeral while I'm still living

I want a memorial for who I was and a concert for who I'll be

And at her funeral I don't want tears or agony or blood relations

At her funeral I want her surrounded not by her life but by her carried on memory

I want a funeral for myself before I became me.

And I want it filled with people I love that she didn't even know

And I want it filled with "thank you for being there" rather than "I miss you"

Because I don't. Not anymore

And I'll never miss her again. And I'll always love her

And I'll show up overdressed with crazy coloured hair and wrinkles

And I'll dance as they lay the dirt. And she will hug me and happily watch herself detach completely from me

Because that's the burial she deserves.

And I want a funeral for the name I used to respond to.

I want a funeral for the person I used to exist as.

somebody on twitter dimmed the music and got the dialogue from that one tfatws clip

depression tips™

shower. not a bath, a shower. use water as hot or cold as u like. u dont even need to wash. just get in under the water and let it run over you for a while. sit on the floor if you gotta.

moisturize everything. use whatever lotion u like. unscented? dollar store lotion? fancy ass 48 hour lotion that makes u smell like a field of wildflowers? use whatever you want, and use it all over. 

put on clean, comfortable clothes. 

put on ur favorite underwear. cute black lacy panties? those ridiculous boxers u bought last christmas with candy cane hearts on the butt? put em on.

drink cold water. use ice. if u want, add some mint or lemon for an extra boost.

clean something. doesn’t have to be anything big. organize one drawer of ur desk. wash five dirty dishes. do a load of laundry. scrub the bathroom sink. 

blast music. listen to something upbeat and dancey and loud, something that’s got lots of energy. sing to it, dance to it, even if you suck at both.

make food. don’t just grab a granola bar to munch. take the time and make food. even if it’s ramen. add something special to it, like a hard boiled egg or some veggies. prepare food, it tastes way better, and you’ll feel like you accomplished something. 

make something. write a short story or a poem, draw a picture, color a picture, fold origami, crochet or knit, sculpt something out of clay, anything artistic. even if you don’t think you’re good at it.

go outside. take a walk. sit in the grass. look at the clouds. smell flowers. put your hands in the dirt and feel the soil against your skin.

call someone. call a loved one, a friend, a family member, call a chat service if you have no one else to call. talk to a stranger on the street. have a conversation and listen to someone’s voice. if you can’t, text or email or whatever, just have some social interaction with another person. even if you don’t say much, listen to them.

cuddle your pets if you have them/can cuddle them. take pictures of them. talk to them. tell them how u feel, about your favorite movie, a new game coming out.

me watching the Avengers: Infinity War trailer: 

Don’t read the last page But I stay when you’re lost and I’m scared and you’re turning away

love this piece by Javier Pérez titled ‘Carroña’. Ten stuffed crows carefully placed on a shattered red chandelier to look as if they were feasting on a dead animal. 

So it's Father's Day. If any of your dads suck or aren't there for you, I'm your dad now. Cmon sport let's grill footballs.

They always look like a longtime married couple.

Doesn’t matter where they are

What they’re wearing

They always look #married