I Have So Much Rage In Me One Day I Think I Will Explode. I Dont Think I Know How To Forgive As Much

phoenix chan, ghost heart

Dear diary...

What do you do when you gave up on life, but life won't give up on you yet...?

I feel like a walking corpse.

David Mitchell, Slade House

hey quick question how much deeper of a rock bottom do i have to hit before things get better

Be mindful that your guilt is useless unless you allow it to evolve into something more meaningful […] Guilt is always a crossroad. It can be a gateway to consciousness, or we can obsess over what we have done, wallow in our guilt, use it as an excuse not to grow, and fixate on the idea that we deserve punishment rather than seeing our guilt as a signpost pointing us toward the true path.

Matthew Kelly (The Rocking Chair Prophet, pages 85, 85-86)

{Words by: Virginia Woolf from day and night/ Mahmoud Darwish}

i like to think you are there, there

too rotten to be saved.

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I say this with the utmost sincerity, but I hope you have the courage and space and freedom in the upcoming year to be the nasty little freak that you are. I hope you can find a place to realize that the things you think make you unlovable and disgusting are in fact very lovable and not disgusting in any way. I hope you find sincerity beyond your ability to even comprehend.