If it keeps you from killing yourself it's not stupid. This applies to anything btw.
My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?
I think something that often gets overlooked about the Lonely is that it isn’t just the fear of being rejected, abandoned, and unloved.
It is that, but it’s also the heavy sense of dread that settles in your bones when you realize that whatever danger you’re in, you have to deal with it on your own. It’s the realization that no one is around to hear you scream and that no one is coming to save you. It’s the feeling of calling emergency services (911, 119, etc.) and asking the operator when help is coming, only to be told that no one is coming, because they’re all tied up on other calls right now, so it may be another hour or so before anyone gets to you. It’s the visceral terror you feel when you finally realize that the help you need is never going to come, or if it does, they won’t be there until it’s already too late for you. It’s realizing that you’ll never see your loved ones again, and wondering if anyone will ever find your body, if anyone is going to care that you’re gone, if anyone is ever going to find out what happened to you, if anyone is even going to realize that you’re dead.
you'll carry on, somehow you always do
I can't tell you how bad it gets
EVERYTHING MAKES ME FEEL LIKE HIDING
"Poem" by Langston Hughes I loved my friend. He went away from me. There’s nothing more to say. The poem ends, Soft as it began,— I loved my friend.
Alt stills under the cut:
thanks as always to Trigun Ultimate Overhaul for the Manga scans!
sorry i'm being an absent friend i'm being an absent self too
"let people be wrong about you" is such good advice that i am unfortunately physically incapable of following. if i am incorrectly perceived by anyone i will simply start ripping things with my teeth
Vent blog, I do not encourage anyone to hurt themselves in any way shape or form, if you're not ok, there's hope. Reach out to someone, don't be like me making a secret vent blog instead
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