EVERYTHING MAKES ME FEEL LIKE HIDING

I often do Russian horror illustrations, often working with body horror, insects and mushrooms

Feed the hand that bites you.

one of the best ways i’ve found to combat that inherent depressive pessimism without veering into toxic positivity territory is simply the phrase “i’m open to the possibility”

this particularly works with anything negative i’ve forecasted. “i woke up feeling like shit today, so my day is gonna suck” isn’t a particularly helpful thought, but “it’s a great day to be alive!!!!!” feels hollow and insincere when i have a pounding headache & am running on three hours of sleep

instead i’ll tell myself, “i really don’t feel good right now, but i’m open to the possibility that coffee and breakfast might perk me up a bit.” or “i’m in a lot of pain today, but i’m open to the possibility that my workday might still have fun parts despite that”

sometimes, when your impulse is to slam the door on anything good, but you’re not exactly up to going out & hunting it down yourself, leaving the door open just a crack makes all the difference

Fancy 🤌🏻

them: r u ok

me:

Spin Cycle. Oil on canvas, 8 x 10"

Isolation, watercolor and ink on paper by nickbleb

phoenix chan, ghost heart

Adding to this,

YOU ALSO CANNOT HATE YOURSELF INTO A BETTER PERSON

i repeat

YOU CANNOT HATE YOURSELF INTO BECOMING A BETTER PERSON.

REMEMBER THIS.

what im learning is that you cannot avoid your way into a life you enjoy

too rotten to be saved.