This Is Rlly Random But I Headcannon That Nicole Used To Be Really Close With Her Brother And Played

this is how i feel lately

the devil couldn’t reach me so he made me feel like i dont belong anywhere.

Js found out he ignored me for a week bc he was mad at me for shouting….

HEY HOE 😭 no cus im actually PISSED my account got FUCKING TEMRINDSVKIENFLAEIFHLAIE LIKE

I didint even DO ANUTHJINGIGSIH 💔💔😭😭😭😭💔💔💔🚬🚬⛓️⛓️⛓️⛓️

justice for rhea guys……..

Finally found a comfortable way to draw Nicole in my style, so I included a few headcanons I have for her below, Jeckole included.

Girlie definitely would have scars, and I can absolutely also see her having plenty of facial piercings.

A bit nervous to include the last picture, but oh well.

Might make this digital if I can find the energy and/or motivation, but this is all I was able to sketch out for now. Once I can figure out how to draw Jecka in my style too, I'm most definitely going to draw more Jeckole stuff (and probably a page similar to this one for my headcanons for Jecka as well).

Nicole trauma hcs??? 😽

Oh…..oh….. 💔

- Has been s3xually abused by her brother, which is a reason she avoids him so much + hatred for men stems from

- Her mums ex’s have been physically p, mentally, and verbally abusive, again fueling her hatred

- since she was only born to baby trap her dad, her mum didn’t care too much for her, meaning she was left to care for herself from a too young age. Her dad was extremely emotionally distant and threw himself head first into work, meaning she was issentially ignored (another reason why her brother was able to abuse her)

- When her parents divorced, her mum gave her one of the worst beatings because she couldn’t make her dad stay. Since it’s more likely for her mum to get custody either way in court, just for fun and some sort of ‘revenge’, she would make up the most vile accusations against her ex husband and Nicole would have to listen, and when she tried to deny no one believe her because she was too young.

- Would be locked in her room for days as punishment

- her mum is genuinly the most vile woman Nicole has ever had the displeasure of having a relation with. She is manipulative, Abusive, neglectful, an abler, a liar, and Nicole has never wanted to disappear more when around her.

- shes also a boy mum, meaning that when Nicole finally confided her in what her brother had been doing, she called Nicole a liar, an attention seeker and a cow for wanting to mess up her brothers future, even though she had witnessed it first hand. In her eyes, it was only a joke, and her son had the best life ahead of him, even though he was a ped0, future burnt to the ground by the time he was 12.

- At some point, between the stress of trying to make new friends every other week, stopping her brother from coming into her bedroom, keep up her grades, be nice, stay clean, be a good child, She crumbled and started acting up more hoping her mum would get her so ba she’d accidentally kill her. Because then, she wouldn’t be called “selfish” for taking the “easy way out”; her mum would be charged and out away for a while, maybe her brother would get caught, and her dad would have a peace of mind knowing he wouldn’t be harrassed anymore by his ex wife. She thought it would make everything better.

- She’s not actually a sociopath, but she does have a personality disorder, and ADHD. However instead of like, getting treated or therapy, her mum took it as an excuse to beat the shit out of Nicole because she saw said disorders as an excuse to act up. Her dad did try to get Nicole some sort of medication but her mum wouldn’t allow him to see Nicole so he could give it to her.

- Nicole is an empty shell of what could’ve been someone with a bright future.

- She sees herself as worthless. She lays there at night and knows that with the “casual” drug abuse, the smoking, the drinking, the SH, the attempts, the self-sabotaging and the not trying has fucked up her future. She’s “knows” she will end up in prison or dead in the future so she doesn’t see the point in trying because there’s no way to turn it around this late into her life.

- Since she sees herself as friendless, there’s nothing to do where they live, and she feels like she’s wasting everyone’s time for asking to go out - she bedrots. All of the time. To the point she had bugs under her matress creating fucking ecosystems. To the point there was mouldy food all over her room. To the point maggots had started forming on said food, and she couldnt do anything about it. She didn’t shower, laid in her own bodily fluids, had matted hair, and only when her friends at school realised that she hadn’t been to school in nearly two months without a text did they actually go and check (jecka, Ari, Emily). They were actually disgusted with the fact her mum let this happen.

😓😓 sorry Kay

in my delsusional little world, nicoole and jecka have aminecraft wolrd that nicole built for them, and jecka just made their beds pink and put them together <3

Wait cus Nicoelpe looks like such a cutie in this

checka n nicotine

Two types of lesbians

They are in love

Nicole’s dad (sorry for the ahh anatomy + colouring and drawing I haven’t slept since yesterday afternoon)

His name is Akeno and his ex wife’s name is Martha

He is half Chinese, half American.

Doesnt really know why he’s fighting for visiting rights/custody of Nicole because he’s NOT suited to be a parent but when he sees the STATE Nicole’s left in he feels guilty

Taught niclle how to play guitar + draw

Accidentally let Nicole see his SH scars once and ha felt bad ever since because he’s the one who ‘introduced’ it to Nicole (in his head)

Skitzophrenic 🙂

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