Time To Go Play In The Woods And Never Return To Society

i really wish five hours of sleep was sufficient because going to bed at 2 and waking up at 7 would be heaven but the body keeps score

(me on a first date) and what do you think of the inherent intimacy of surgery? have you considered the love someone must have to put their hands under your skin and hold the most grotesque parts of you and put them back together nicely? is anyone really closer to you than that? we all get uh a little enamored on the surgery table don't we haha. wait come back

i don’t feel like i’m old enough to be my age

Most days I try hard to act human, to breathe like a human and speak with the same flat language, but often

my kindness is clumsy—I stop a stranger to tie his shoe and end up kissing his knees.

— Kaveh Akbar, from “Against Hell,” in Calling a Wolf a Wolf

STOP asking me questions about my future ., i dont think about that stuff

one thing about me is i cannot do this right now

i bet crossing spears with someone to block entry into a location feels so fucking good

she asked me if i believed in god and i told her that when i was four i almost drowned in a public pool and in my panic mistook a stranger for my father. i clawed my way up his leg. four years later he’d send my parents a picture of the scars alongside a tin of cookies. he said, “i hope she’s still okay. i carry her with me. it isn’t every day you save a life. it isn’t every day you feel like you were here for a reason. when it does happen, you have to cherish that memory. for once, i had a purpose. just being there was enough. she tore me open but she taught me a lot about love.”