Idk What I Want More: For Me To Fall Asleep On His Chest Or For Him To Fall Asleep On Mine

mac mcdonald is trans and you can fight me on this idc

TRANS MAC TRUTHERS YESSSS

woke up thinking about trans mac…

luther let him transition as a child because he wanted a son instead of a daughter anyway, so it benefits him as well as mac, but it’s all under the circumstances that it’s very hush hush and nobody finds out so that “shame” isn’t brought to their family

mac is incredibly performatively hyper-masculine because he feels the need to compensate for being born in a girl’s body

he pretends not to be gay because in his and luther’s mind, being trans is “bad enough” as it is. he was also taught to associate being gay with femininity

gets hormones/surgery with the money he makes dealing weed at high school and whilst working at the ice rink

literally has a therapist tell him he has body dysmorphia, but specifically in the sense that he worries about being too small or frail… i.e, too feminine, not masculine enough. sounds like gender dysphoria to me, pal

“button in a fur coat” = metoidioplasty or clit growth

charlie knows because he’s known charlie for the longest and as a younger kid there’s only so much he could keep secret from his best friend, but charlie forgets that mac was born female by frying his brains with glue and other inhalants

going really hard on the homophobia to compensate for being trans

we only see mac get with one other person in the whole show that lasts more than a hasty hook up… carmen. he sought her out, protested just enough to make him look like he’s weirded out by her being trans, but actually, is the whole reason he sought her out in the first place. if he can’t allow himself to be gay, then then second best option after that is to be with another trans person, somebody who will at the very least understand

the internalised transphobia ends up becoming externalised, ending their relationship. he focuses on the fact that she’s pre-op and doesn’t care to hide it that much, because he’s deep down, envious that she doesn’t hide being trans whilst he’s spent his whole life living in shame and fear that people would find out

when he does come out as gay, it takes a while to breach the topic with luther. before he comes out to him, he spends ages getting absolutely shredded, aka masculine, the most physically masculine he can possibly get himself. only then can he stand in front of his father and say that he’s gay — because he needs to make up for the associated femininity with being gay when it’s in front of him. either way, luther stands up and leaves, so mac stops holding onto the masculine front and allows himself to curl up into a woman’s lap and cry for (i think) the only time on screen

claiming to be a top so valiantly because he associates getting fucked and bottoming with “being the woman”, even if he isn’t a top deep down. he stops pretending to be a top after coming out to and losing luther (the pressure to rid himself of femininity)

also i swear to god. i swear to god he has visible scars in global warming.

mlm blogs hitting “post” after typing “boys”

Son of Apollo and son of Hermes

Reblog this if there’s a cute boy you really want to kiss rn.

did you guys know i’m gay? like so fucking gay.. men <33

i call him sunshine, and he says it makes him feel soft. i think that’s precious. he always points out how gentle i am with him. i hate to think about anyone not being gentle with him. he deserves softness, he’s a person with a heart and a soul. he deserves to be genuinely loved. i wanna show him how much he deserves. if no one from his past showed him his worth then i will. he’s worth so much. he means everything to me.

yes, i just rewatched avatar, why do you ask

1. yes bc hand sin hair feels nice on both ends

2. all of them but brown eyes are underappreciated

3. dont have either rn, but i love when boys

4. yep! same time that i came out as trans almost 3 years ago

5. shoulder, my heart always starts pounding when theyre on my chest and they always have to ask if im okay, plus then i can still give them kisses

6. bedroom pop and indie music

7. messy hair, im always afraid ot mess up tidy hair

8. not sure, ive IDed as bi for almost six years but i question if im gay from time to time, which is why i just say mlm mostly

9. ik everyone says this but i fuckin love frank ocean

10. im more sporty since i dont draw much anymore, but i prefer someone who is also sporty

11. soft,,

12. clean laundry and pine needles

13. ...yes he has a gf......its ok shes hot too <3

14. i didnt even realize that not liking boys was a thing so i guess always 

15. idk literally everyone i see on here bro 

16. all of them

17. ive always liked boys os when i realized i wasnt a girl then ig

18. am i going insane or is this one a repeat 

19. i have a lot of straight people hobbies

20. IAN FUCKING GALLAGHER AND MICKEY GODDAMN MILKOVICH

🌈 mlm asks 🌈

do you enjoy playing with boys hair? 🐛

whats your favourite eye colour? 🍑

whats a cute quirk that your crush/boyfriend has? 🥐

have you come out as mlm? if so, when? 🌸

do you prefer to have boys lie on your chest, shoulder or lap? 🌾

what music genre reminds you of boys?

do you prefer to play with tidy or messy hair? 🥟

are you gay or bi? 🏁

who is your favourite mlm musician? 🥮

are you more sporty or arty, and do you prefer sporty or arty boys? 🍰

eboys or soft boys? 🥀

what scent reminds you of boys? 🍄

have you ever gotten a crush on one of your friends? 🍯

how long have you know you were mlm? ✨

expose who you have a tumblr crush on 😳

talk about the guy that made you realise you like boys 🧩

do you tend to like masculine, feminine or androgynous boys more? 🐚

what genre of music reminds you of boys? 🎨

what makes you feel rejected from the mlm/lgbt community sometimes? 🌻

who is your favourite fictional mlm? 🍃