Going Stealth Means Choosing Between Your Safety And Your Community--a Decision I Never Want To Make.

going stealth means choosing between your safety and your community--a decision i never want to make. i fear the time to make that decision is drawing closer and closer. facial hair and muscle growth, a deep voice and adam's apple, blending in and keeping quiet. stifling excitement when i see someone like me. unable to speak up. hiding a pivotal part of who i am. fear. fear is on all sides of being trans. the side that holds most love is with my brothers and sisters, protesting and speaking out.

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3 years ago

LGBTQ+ Fall Flag Edits

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lesbian, gay, bi

trans, gay/queer, pan

ace, aro, enby

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3 years ago

t4t romance is the most beautiful thing in the world actually

3 years ago

Thinking about laying in bed with a boy during the early hours of the morning, preferably during a rainstorm. I would lay my head on his chest or shoulder, and we would both listen to the rain and each others heartbeats

3 years ago

soup in the candle <3

My brain literally feel like when a candle has like,, soup in the candle like you just see the sauce

2 years ago

i got the copper iud today!

honestly, it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be, but it was still pretty awful. the insertion was painful but i wasnt nauseous, didnt pass out, i was kinda thirsty and tired afterwards tho. 

my nurse was also a trans guy too!! his name was pete and he was so nice and made me a million times more comfortable.

around an hour or so after the insertion was when i started getting really really bad cramps. typically, my period cramps are like a 5 or 6 but these were like an 8 in my opinion. the only thing thats helped so far has been tylenol (cant take ibuprofen for medical reasons) and heating pads--cant stress that enough: heating pads were the only things that helped. a couple hours after the insertion the pain was too much for me so i took so melatonin and slept it off. 

biggest piece of advice, drink water and eat something beforehand, bring some water and a stuffed animal with you for support, and have the doctor talk you through the procedure. afterwards make sure you have a heating pad, some tylenol or advil, and if you can, sleep it off. call some friends to take your mind off the pain as well.


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5 years ago
“I Love Thinking And Writing And Researching Stuff, Going To The Library And Looking At Microfilm.

“I love thinking and writing and researching stuff, going to the library and looking at microfilm. Environmental concerns are top on my list. If we don’t heal the earth, we’re gone” 

— River, 1988

2 years ago

why dont more ppl talk abt charlies rage room he had the right idea


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2 years ago

TRANS MAC TRUTHERS YESSSS

woke up thinking about trans mac…

luther let him transition as a child because he wanted a son instead of a daughter anyway, so it benefits him as well as mac, but it’s all under the circumstances that it’s very hush hush and nobody finds out so that “shame” isn’t brought to their family

mac is incredibly performatively hyper-masculine because he feels the need to compensate for being born in a girl’s body

he pretends not to be gay because in his and luther’s mind, being trans is “bad enough” as it is. he was also taught to associate being gay with femininity

gets hormones/surgery with the money he makes dealing weed at high school and whilst working at the ice rink

literally has a therapist tell him he has body dysmorphia, but specifically in the sense that he worries about being too small or frail… i.e, too feminine, not masculine enough. sounds like gender dysphoria to me, pal

“button in a fur coat” = metoidioplasty or clit growth

charlie knows because he’s known charlie for the longest and as a younger kid there’s only so much he could keep secret from his best friend, but charlie forgets that mac was born female by frying his brains with glue and other inhalants

going really hard on the homophobia to compensate for being trans

we only see mac get with one other person in the whole show that lasts more than a hasty hook up… carmen. he sought her out, protested just enough to make him look like he’s weirded out by her being trans, but actually, is the whole reason he sought her out in the first place. if he can’t allow himself to be gay, then then second best option after that is to be with another trans person, somebody who will at the very least understand

the internalised transphobia ends up becoming externalised, ending their relationship. he focuses on the fact that she’s pre-op and doesn’t care to hide it that much, because he’s deep down, envious that she doesn’t hide being trans whilst he’s spent his whole life living in shame and fear that people would find out

when he does come out as gay, it takes a while to breach the topic with luther. before he comes out to him, he spends ages getting absolutely shredded, aka masculine, the most physically masculine he can possibly get himself. only then can he stand in front of his father and say that he’s gay — because he needs to make up for the associated femininity with being gay when it’s in front of him. either way, luther stands up and leaves, so mac stops holding onto the masculine front and allows himself to curl up into a woman’s lap and cry for (i think) the only time on screen

claiming to be a top so valiantly because he associates getting fucked and bottoming with “being the woman”, even if he isn’t a top deep down. he stops pretending to be a top after coming out to and losing luther (the pressure to rid himself of femininity)

also i swear to god. i swear to god he has visible scars in global warming.

Woke Up Thinking About Trans Mac…
2 years ago

im not arguing with a man with brown eyes. whatever you say gorgeous

4 years ago

i absolutely adore the zuko/sokka/suki ship

HELLO I am here to point out that the guy who helped sokka, zuko & co escape from the boiling rock mistook their relationship with Suki as a polyamorous one

HELLO I Am Here To Point Out That The Guy Who Helped Sokka, Zuko & Co Escape From The Boiling Rock Mistook
HELLO I Am Here To Point Out That The Guy Who Helped Sokka, Zuko & Co Escape From The Boiling Rock Mistook

He addressed BOTH of them and called her their girlfriend and no one corrected him.

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