Day Three Of Shop Updates! (I Know, I've Been Busy!)

a fools guide to not wanting to die anymore

by me, a fool who doesnt wanna die anymore 

never make a suicide joke again. yes this includes “i wanna die” as a figure of speech. swear off of it. actually make an effort to change how you think about things.

find something to compliment someone for at least 4 times a day. notice the little things about the world that make you happy, and use that to make other people happy.

talk to people. initiate conversation as often as you possibly can. keep your mind busy and you wont have to worry anymore

picture the bad intrusive thoughts in youe head as an edgy 13 year old and tell them to go be emo somewhere else

if someone makes you feel bad most of the time, stop talking to them. making yourself hang out with people who drain you is self harm. stop it.

My maternal grandmother could crochet.

Nothing complicated. Basic granny squares and double crochet, but she was the one in the family who made blankets for her kids and grandchildren. Dementia hit in her nineties but she still remembered how to make granny squares and made dozens. I asked her for one last blanket but by that point the dementia had taken how to join the squares. They were stacked in piles around the dining room table and when she went into care, into a plastic box for storage.

When she died, I asked for them. By that point I could crochet but didn’t know how to join, and figured, someday, I’d learn.

It’s at least a decade later. I’m the one who makes blankets for my nephews, for my cousin’s children, for pregnant coworkers. Last year I made seven blankets, three for Project Linus, the rest for family and a friend. I can follow crochet charts, filet crochet, do clusters, fans, basic lace, amigurumi.

The world, as is its wont, is on fire. Tonight, I have opened the plastic container for the first time in a decade. I’m sorting them into piles by color. I know now how to look at them and see where her memory slipped or areas I’ll need to repair. There’s no printed pattern but if I need more I have the skills to copy the pattern.

Each square is 5 inches. Blanket size for Project Linus is 40x60. I’ll see how many people I can give her last crochet legacy to.

Making a "don't kill yourself" post for the disabled people. You are needed and valued. You deserve to live. Your needs deserve to be met. You deserve to take up space and have your voices heard. Getting healthcare is so difficult, and we deserve better. We will not be silenced.

Last post of the year! Someone inspired me to make Mighty Nein ducks and since I'm meeting the #CriticalRole crew in April, I'll be making more. Enjoy Jester, Caleb, Nott, and Caduceus ducks. And stay tuned for an update on what's coming in the new year!

You've been dead. Interesting. Yet it seems your programming has held up.

Finally finished this drawing of a scene from our D&D game in which the terrifying archfey that half the party is secretly (even from themselves) in service to shows up. Pictured here: Grandmother (aforementioned archfey) and Dagger (my character, undead sorcerer).

btw with art when people say 'youve got to do it scared' 'youve got to draw bad' 'youre not gonna know how to do it until you do it' it sounds like bullshit but its true. 90% of art is just getting over the fear that it's not going to be good enough to deserve to be made in the first place. but you're here. you're alive and, with no need to justify that, you're going to make art. it's just part of being alive. you'll spend so long worrying you aren't doing it good enough that you'll look back and realized you didn't live a single day of it.

Kofi only allows 10 photos per listing and some of my sets have 12 items each. So here's an array of the product photos of the "Pocket Pals Starter" collection.

This listing is for a SMALL crochet pocket pal type amigurumi. This item is a finished product, NOT A PATTERN! Each item is handmade so sizes/colors/shapes will vary.

***These items have been made in a home with a cat so if you have allergies, please let me know ahead of time!!***

Item Details: Approximate height: Ranging between 4 in/10.16 cm and 5.5 in/13.97 cm tall

Materials used: Acrylic yarn, plastic safety eyes, poly fill stuffing, embroidery thread, felt, E6000 glue

*Washing instructions: Recommended spot cleaning by hand, but can be washed with a washing machine in a laundry bag (delicate setting and warm water) and air dried.

**The patterns for these items were created and designed by 53Stitches, and handmade by Sly Fox of Nerdvana Crafts. These items are intended as fanart, and I am in no way affiliated with Pokemon. These characters are owned and copyrighted by Pokemon.

Pattern for Yellow and Black Bean: 53stitches.com/pikachu

Pattern for Bulbed Sproutling: 53stitches.com/bulbasaur

Pattern for Flame Hatchling: 53stitches.com/charmander

Pattern for Water Pistol Baby: 53stitches.com/squirtle

Some of the fruits of my previous sorting party. Some very sparkly dragons! Been in a diamond art kick, probably going to do some more today.

seeing all the 14-17 y/o queer kids who don’t know what v for vendetta is…. u mean the blockbuster film written by two trans women about a masked vigilante who decides to singlehandedly take down a fascist alternate version of england set in the distant year of 2020… and his driving force was getting justice for a lesbian who he never met but whose diary he found, who was separated from her wife before being killed by said fascist gov…. and it stars natalie portman…. okay

Some super cute ghosties haunting my store <3

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