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Dazai is cruel. Dazai is abusive. In some way Dazai haven't changed and won't change. Dazai is manipulative. Dazai is dangerous. Many of Dazai's actions are disgusting. His actions could be perceived as inhumane. But Dazai is a human being.

It's always about being human. In your own eyes. In the eyes of others.

Dazai doesn't consider himself non-human because of his cruel actions. It's nothing about his morals. After all, Dazai had dealt with so many cruel people. He knows evil is human. He thinks he's lacking something. Something that makes others move forward. A purpose in life. Isn't he just lost?

Dazai's character is portrayed as infallible but it's not truth. To make mistakes is the most human thing you can think of (next to peeing in the shower). His mistake is that he can't tell he already has meaning in his life: working for ADA, protecting his friends, protecting the world.

"Anything I would never want to lose is always lost. It is a given that everything that is worth wanting will be lost the moment I obtain it. There’s nothing worth pursuing at the cost of prolonging a life of suffering." – he's always ready to leave. Dazai tries not to get attached. He's always ready to lose everything. Doesn't it make him just a passive observer in his own life? From a manga reader's perspective, we know he has significance to the story but Dazai sees himself as nothing. He's able to catch the moment only when it's already a memory. Dazai may think of himself non-human because he only lives his life halfway. He plays chess – he moves the pieces but does not appear on the board.

So even if you're a genius, still you're nothing more than a sinfully stupid and cruel human being.

15! dazai gave 15! chuuya his scarf

I will go bankrupt but eat strawberries

I want to find a language that my heart speaks fluently

Я знаю правило «скучаешь-напиши», но после того как раньше я писала и мне не отвечали- спойлер- годами, писать кому то первой звучит как очень плохая идея. И я знаю, что люди разные, но у неё было два повода написать мне и она не написала. Я не заслуживаю её любви, но сука почему так больно

BSD rollerskating AU! Elise

she is a menace..

i just love people watching. not in a creepy way, of course, but rather in a way that i love seeing humans being human, doing the most mundane things ever that make you realize how we are such peculiar creatures. there’s something so heartwarming in observing people’s actions, listening to their words because everyone you see or everything you hear is unique in its own way, yet you can easily be reminded of something you’ve already heard or someone you’ve already met because at the end of the day, we’re all the same. isn’t that just magical?

Do you love Regulus Black or do you just love the idea that you can be as mean and awkward and judgmental as you want and the perfect person will fall in love with you as you are?

Многие люди, которых я знаю, удивляются когда я говорю, что не записываю сны. По простой причине, что не хочу их вспоминать.

i was listening to you're so dark and the idea of chuuya stumbling upon that song after dazai defected is so funny to me like imagine ur 18, ur 3 yr long situationship (guy that coerced u into joining the mafia) disappeared off the face of the earth and also arctic monkeys just released AM