These I Have Loved

I wish I could say I regret that day But, darling I can't I wish I could hate you And say that's truth But I wouldn't change a thing Not even change the kisses that Went wrong In fact I would take you Hug you and never let go even if thing's repeated themselves I would get the feeling I so long ache I wish history would repeat itself this just this once I miss the time's and most of all I miss you

“I have no enemies, but my friends don’t like me.”

— Philip Larkin

~ Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

In my bed in my head in my heart

I walk down memory lane because

I love running into you

Rose tinted memories come flooding in

And I have you back for a few

Its hard to think

That not everything is cataclysmic

That the universe didn't plan for us

When all the pieces seemed to have fallen into place

Wrong person right timing?

Maybe next time around

When you're brought into my orbit

Ill have new moons and might finally know my place in this galaxy

But will our gravity be enough to make you stay

3 years ago I wasn't enough

3 hours ago I was too much

And what a shame

I had already imagined us

I dont know if I loved you, or the space you filled

In my bed, in my head, in my heart

And I can still see it

Concerts in your boxers and rooftop philosophies

I loved the thought of being with you

Or maybe it was the thought of not being on my own anymore

Alone

In my bed, in my head, in my heart

How do I ask the universe for anything other than you?

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IMBIMHIMH 28/12/21

“And when I drove to the seafront to find myself in the comforting silence of waves rolling to the shore, the ocean screamed your name.” - // of oceans and lovers j.d.m.

I loved you so much, I hated how much I didn't tell you this. If you ever read this I still love you A. E

They asked me whom I love

I thought of the hue of your eye's

I thought of the dark tint of your hair

I thought of the strong perfume you always have

I thought of how we clicked, we never got bored of each other

I thought of you

I thought of you

I thought of you

I thought of you

And I think of you

I think of you

I thank of you

And

I

said

No

one

2018.05.23

It's silence I crave, it's why I swim

The weight of water

Over me

Around me-

The safe silence of submergence.

At the waters edge I may be ugly,

But underwater, we are made equal And

When I speak strokes

I Am Beautiful.

-Adaptation of my favourite book, the weight of water by Sarah Crossan