Nicoledavisss - Wistful Thinking

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This is it

today is the day. the day I move away from the shit hole I live in. No more getting disrespected and treated like a pile of shit. No more being everyone’s mule and driving everyone around like I’m their taxi. I’m so happy that I’m leaving, so happy to be rid of the negativity in my life. I don’t even care if they get mad. I’m gone. I can’t wait to get home after my shift tonight and pack my things and be gone. I can already feel the weight being lifted off my shoulders. Things can only get better from here <3

you matter.

Dream come true

This is like a dream come true. Here I am sitting next to you and you have a new girlfriend. And she has no idea that I'm staying the night with you. I know there's still something there for me and this proves it right here. This and the fact that since you started dating her, we've talked so much more. I still see that little sparkle on your eye when you look at me and you can't tell me that it's because of her. You just started dating. I get the feeling that you're missing me in that way. And I feel this way because I don't think you'd have me stay the night with you if you didn't. No one would do that if they had a girlfriend. No one. I just want you to admit it to me is all. That's all I ask for. Tell me that you miss me and that you still love me because I see it. I know you told me that you wanted to experience what it's like to be with someone else and you are but I feel like it's making you miss me. Just admit it already.

>:(

getting really tired of my money getting played with at work. I’m supposed to be getting paid $10 an hour and our payroll system still says that I’m getting paid $9 an hour. I’m not gonna keep saying something about it to anyone. I’m getting fed up with it.... If I have to ask one more time, I will change my line of business. I can’t work for a business that could give a rats ass about it’s employees.... it’s either the company or the TL’s don’t do the shit they say they are gonna do. I’m getting sick of it.

You just can’t make me different and then leave.

Looking for Alaska, John Green sognatricesenzali (via sognatricesenzali)

Still Dream Of You

Is it bad that I still dream about you? Still think of what life would be like today if you never left. Why everytime I close my eyes to sleep, there you are, sitting beside me telling me that everything is okay. Holding me, kissing me, loving me. I still can't shake you from my mind, and I have no idea why. Just last night I had a dream about you. We were hanging out somewhere with a group of people I knew and you were sitting across from me. You kept looking at me and smiling but not saying anything. Then you talked, and oh my heart melted at the sound of your voice. So gentle and so soft. I can still hear it now. You asked me what my plans were for the night and I told you, unfortunately, I had to work and you said that's too bad because you wanted me to join you because you were going bowling (weird, since that's something you never did). And I said, well I can always call out. I mean, I do have tomorrow night off anyway and I've only called out of work 2 times since I've been there. And then your face lit up and you blushed at the thought of me joining you. You said, are you sure? And I said, of course. I would be more than happy to call out and join you tonight. You said, awesome with a smile on your face which in turn made me smile. I then mentioned that I would need to go home and shower and what not before we went out and you said that you had a shower I could use at your place, blushing as you said it. I said okay, blushing as well. Everything turned black and then we're at your house. So bright and cheery. I can just barely remember the layout and the furniture. I can remember, me getting out of the shower and you waiting by the door (as if you haven't seen me nude before). I get out and I remember you touching my neck, so softly. And then you just grab me and kiss me. My world exploded as I felt the same spark I felt when we had our first kiss. I melted into you like we were one again. I woke up after this, I guess my mind didn't want me to see any more as I had woken up almost 3 hours before my alarm was scheduled. I don't know why I still dream of you as if you're coming back into my life. I would love that more than anything but I'm not sure if it'll happen or not. Maybe it's a sign? I don't know. All I know is that as always I miss you.