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I don’t feel strong anymore I feel like falling to my knees. Things aren’t the way they were before, They’re not the way they’re supposed to be.

Atarah L. Poling (via observando)

I’m free

I’ve finally moved out of there. Moved out of the shit hole I was in. The place where I couldn’t have any privacy and was paying half of the bills when there were 5 people living there. I was done, and I finally made the move and I couldn’t be more happy because for once I finally have privacy. I’m so happy with the place I live now. It’s beautiful. The neighborhood is quiet and the area is so relaxing. I’ve been through a lot when I was living where I was before but now things aren’t so bad. I have nothing to stress about. Nothing to worry about. The feeling is so foreign to me. I’m genuinely happy. I haven’t felt this happy since I was with my ex so it honestly feels amazing. I don’t think anything can really trump my mood. My now ex roommate was threatening to take me to small claims court for the rent money but she has no probable cause when she’s broken every single rule in the complex and I broke none. She moved people in without putting their names on the lease; she changed the deadbolt on the door when the 2 that moved in with us at first moved out cause she was afraid of them showing back up to the apartment. Who would want to? I didn’t even want to come home after work everyday cause I couldn’t stand being there. She also has her dog and the other one has her cat and neither of them paid for the animals to be there. So, I told management about all of this. You wanna threaten me, I’ll get you kicked out for negligence. Try me. 

Sometimes,

I wish I could go back to being a kid. When I was a kid, life was so easy. No worries about money, not having my heart broken into a million pieces, the newest technologies or getting a licence. All I wanted to do was hang out with my friends, play outside, play video games, and crush on celebrities. I hate that I had to grow up just to work a shitty job for shitty pay to try and make ends meet, to deal with stress on a daily basis, to deal with my heart being broken so many times, and to lose the people who were very close to me. But, I keep my head up and work through them because I have a lot to live for and I’m not gonna waste myself away stressing out about stupid crap. My family, my close friends and my boyfriend are all that matter to me and they are the ones who keep me sane in this place I call hell.