And Do You Know What's The Worst Thing? I Couldn't Even Be There For Him.
And do you know what's the worst thing? I couldn't even be there for him.
I couldn't tackle-hug him and whisper tender words of comfort. I couldn't hold his hand and tell him that he mattered to me. That he matters to me alive. Everything that connected me with him was this stupid little piece of plastic and metal...
I don't want to lose someone. Not again. And now, not because of me. Even if I know him for less than a month, I'm not going to let him just end his life. Even if I didn't care about him, I'm not letting a person die by their own hands.
I'm going to do everything to make sure this man never thinks of getting rid of his existence. Not from this world and not from my life...
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I can't stop crying... Something has happened. I almost lost him. He scared me so much. It happened so suddenly.
I wasn't even scared that much the first time. The first time it was just a joke went wrong, triggering him slightly, that we scared each other and talked it out. This time I almost lost him...
He wasn't prepared for my answer. We talked about life and future. I said I might not even be here tomorrow because who knows what might happen, it's life. That's the right way of thinking for a christian - being prepared for end any moment.
After hearing that he wanted to end his life.
I talked him out. I think I did, he said so himself.
But I was scared
I was so, so scared
And still am
This never happened to me before
I don't want to lose someone I care about. Not again...
As I'm typing this I'm crying again
I'm scared I won't receive a "good morning <3" from him when I wake up
Today I had to leave the farm to go to town and perform at our uni's gala. We got first place. I arrived back at the farm at night, safely. We got stuck literally near our small temporary houses and had to wake up some of my groupmates in the middle of the night to help move the car. All is well.
I have to sleep now and wake up very early, but I can't. Not after what happened.
But hey, at least the night sky was beautiful
I'm going to sleep
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Oh my gosh, I can't 🤣
Finally back and able to post this!
@mrtophat518 with Grudge Puzzles!
Poltergeist is stunned as we can see
PSA: I've decided to actually make use of my tiktok account and start posting my work there. It'll be just the same art but now with... ✨music✨
Me on the bus: ...
Stranger's cat in a carriage: ...
Me: *slowly blinks*
Cat: *slowly blinks back*
Me: *happy* :]
So who's Meggy? A squirrel mayhaps?
Some sketches from Anthro SMG4 AU
Another 'what-if?' scenario with my sona:
What if Nira got possessed by GodBox! SMG3?
(and by 'what if' I mean what is going to happen)
GodBox!AU by @grinnames . Joining the Possession Collection :)
CW: descriptions of gore!!
The transformation:
hehe. she has the teethies :)
• Despite her harmless appearance, Nira has a little secret — a giant maw with two rows of sharp teeth. She keeps it very well hidden and almost never opens her mouth because she's afraid of scaring people with it 😥
But SMG3 will be sure to use it to its full potential :)
• How it all happened: she gets jumped in the back of an alleyway or something lol
It's over in seconds. She tried to fight. She really did, as much as her weak pathetic body could resist
• As for the consequences:
You see, Nira has an interesting special power. She can manipulate one's bodily functions with a single touch, and as a kind soul she is — uses it to help people. Now what will happen when SMG3 is the one in control? Oh. Nothing good :)
Hmmm, let's see... How about restricting the work of the respiratory muscles and watching, while the person struggles for their life and dies from asphyxiation? Oh, or how about melting ALL the bones in the body so it becomes nothing but a screaming mass of skin and organs? Oh, oh! Or how about slowly increasing the pressure inside the skull till the point everything inside EXPLODES and leaks through all the natural head orifices? The possibilities are endless ~
Hm? How would she feel about all that?
Oh, absolutely devastated :)
Chat I am so normal about this
I appear from reblogs to state that I have finally updated the fic!
https://archiveofourown.org/works/55465879/chapters/151947475
*shakes Mr puzzles plush around* this man hasn’t left my mind for months, yet I needed a lil break after the holidays.
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Welcome, stranger. My name is Nira. • Adult, cis girl, INFP • • vet student • • I love animals, videogames, comics and cooking. May occasionally crochet or draw something • 🌇 Timezone: UTC+4 🌃 ✅ Feel free to spam like ✅ • I also have a YT animation channel, I guess, but it's more self-indulgent: @niranutcake (and also TikTok but it's just my art from here) • ❌ NOTE: Please do not ask me for money. I am very sorry for whatever you may be going through right now, but I can't send you money because One: I am not rich, and my family could use some extra funds too, Two: I'm unable to do international transfer. I'm sorry, but all asks requesting money will be ignored and deleted ❌
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