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A Eurylochus pov: playlist

Just a Eurylochus playlist bc I love him

01_ Way Down We Go - Kaleo 02_ Game Of Survival - Ruelle 03_ Glitter & Gold - Barns Courtney 04_ Like a tattoo - Sade 05_ Non-Stop - Hamilton 06_ My Body is a Cage - Arcade Fire 07_ Who are you, really? - Mikky Ekko 08_ Backstabber - Kesha 09_ Blood in the Water - Grandson 10_ Unfair - The Neighborhood 11_ Eventually - Tame Impala 12_ Black Out Days - Phantogram 13_ YKWIM - Yot Club 14_ Fourth of July - Sufjan Stevens 15_ To build a home - The cinematic orchestra 16_ Brother - kodaline 17_ See You Again -Wiz Khalifa ft.Charlie Puth

It's always "How dare Eurylochus call Odysseus captain after mutinying" and never "How dare Odysseus call his crew his brothers after sacrificing six of them to a sea monster."

Like, the latter strikes me as far more absurd. In Eurylochus' case, its the equivalent of reaching out for help after jumping off a cliff; he's afraid because he just did something that would seal his fate, and he's reaching out to the captain he once knew, the one that was clever enough and cared enough to get them through 10 years of war without any of their lives lost.

In Odysseus' case, he's just sacrificed six men to Scylla, and then when his crew is rightfully upset about it, he hits them with the "My brothers...why?" like tf do you mean "why" bro 😭.

Eurylochus calling Odysseus captain is a representation of the love he still has for him. Odysseus calling the crew his brothers is to me, a representation of the intense self centeredness of Odysseus in this situation, where he's too focused on getting home and ensuring his own happiness to understand that if you show that you're willing to callously send people to their deaths, then they arent your brothers anymore.

I find Eurylochus to be a funny character, whoever, people put to much blame on his shoulders because of stuff like the bag, and leaving men in Circe's island or for Mutiny.

But I'm not here to talk about that, I want to talk about his wife Ctimene, because I saw a video of her being rightfully mad that she doesn't see her husband. And most of not all of the comments are "Well if SOMEONE hadn't done X, Y and X".

And like... That is not the point.

How I see it, Ctimene loved her husband as much as Odysseus loves Penelope, and she trusted her BROTHER to bring back her husband safe, which he didn't do.

And maybe I'm over stepping but if my SISTER trusted me with bringing her husband back, who is also my friend and second in command, bitch even with all three things that he did I have to bring him with me, I have to keep him alive even if I'm mad at him just for the sake of my sister being happy.

But he didn't do anything, Odysseus was selfish, he was so far down in his monster era that he forgot that Penelope, Telemachus and Ithaca as a whole weren't the only ones waiting for him. His sister was waiting for him, and his sister was waiting for her husband the second in command.

Let's even flip and add to the script here, if we had been told that Eurylochus opened the bag because he wanted at least one thing of the treasure inside just to give it to his wife, would you still be mad at him for doing so?

Am I being mean to Odysseus and I hate him? No. Am I babying Eurylochus and making excuses for him? No.

They each have their faults and those hurt the people around them, and in Odysseus case he hurt his sister.

Who wants a rant on why Eurylochus (in Epic) did nothing wrong? No one? TOO DAMN BAD!

SO! 1.) The wind bag. See, Odysseus did NOT, in fact, tell them what was in the bag. In the Odyssey, Odysseus tells no one what the wind bag is. In Epic, he tells Elpenor and Perimedes. None of that would matter, though, because Odysseus is also a well known liar. If the guy who lies constantly, including at points where there is literally no reason to lie, tells you the bag which is almost certainly full of treasure is actually full of air, that bag is full of treasure.

2.) Circe's island (with relation to his reaction to Scylla) Suggesting they leave the 14(?) men who Circe had taken is not the same as outright sacrificing six men. Circe is an extremely powerful spellcaster, much more powerful than anyone Ithaca had to offer. That meant that, if they got the men back, they would very likely still be pigs. Only Circe and a handful of other extremely powerful spellcasters could turn them back into men. meaning that they wouldn't actually be saving the men at all, they would be acquiring pigs. These pigs would be pigs until they died. It would be much better to simply leave the pigs with Circe and her nymphs, knowing they'd be taken care of, than to bring them on a perilous journey by ship when they knew they were being hunted by Poseidon.

3.) The mutiny. Valid crash-out, outright. Jorge has said that Eurylochus acts as the voice of the crew, and the crew has just lost six members. They're tired, they're angry, and the main things they probably remember right then are Scylla and Polyphemus. Whether or not any of this is Odysseus' fault, they (very fairly) blame him. If your boss is willing to fire you to get home a little earlier, report him to HR. If your captain is willing to kill you to get home, mutiny.

4.) The cows. By this point, the crew haven't eaten in days. This is inevitably leading to a Donner Party style situation, and looky here, there are a bunch of cows. And look again, LYING MOTHERFUCKIN ODYSSEUS says that you CAN'T eat these cows! Why? He won't say! (he doesn't in the song. He does in the myth, I think, but again, LYING Odysseus.) Hunger rewires your brain chemistry to do things that are utterly illogical for food. The other important thing to remember is that Eurylochus quite likely does not believe they're going to survive at all. They can't, actually. If they leave the island and the cows, they'll likely starve to death. As a demigod of sorts, Odysseus will take a somewhat longer time to starve to death, but the rest of the crew will very likely be dead in a week. If starvation doesn't take them, Poseidon is still trying to kill them! If Poseidon doesn't kill them, these men are still aging. If it takes them another year, even another six months to get home, they're not young men. More of them will die on the journey. They can't fight or run like they could 12 years ago, any danger they encounter will kill more of them. Dying here, with full stomachs on nice grass, very likely seems like the best option to the starved minds of the crew.

5.) The final, all encompassing, important point. Odysseus is familiar with the gods. His great-grandfathers are Hermes and Zeus, he was trained by Athena. This means that he likely has a much more grounded, personified idea of the gods. Eurylochus, and by extension, the rest of the crew, do not. Poseidon's wrath is not something to be avoided, it's the unquestionable end. Circe's curse isn't something to be undone, it's permanent. Helios' grief isn't something to be a little wary of, it's the very welcome grand finale to their journey. It will leave them as a tragedy, but it will end them, finally.

I’ve been reading so many post-war snarry fics, that i think i’ve successfully gaslighted myself into believing that snape survived. like i feel nothing about him having died - because he didn’t. The neck scars from nagini's attack feel canon to me. like how are him and harry supposed to have duels with too much sexual tension, if he’s dead? it just doesn’t add up. obviously he survived.

I randomly remembered a quote from a love confession where they said "want you? I crave you" and I was hit with all the incredible emotions I felt. Desperate to rewatch the movie to experience it again, I searched the quote but I just could not find what movie it was from anywhere.

Only to realise... it was from a snarry fanfiction

I just want to cry thinking that since the last time ive read this damn series ive changed and grown and matured so fucking much and i remember most of what happens in the series and still. STILL. Its so fucking exciting??? Im on the edge of my seat. And there was a new chapter posted about a year ago. And the first chapter of this series was posted in 2019. Insanity. I read this on my school chromebook during english class. So many times. It kept me going through the worst of my depression. Fanfiction i love you. Snarry i love you. I almost got cancelled once because of snarry fanart but internet clout is temporary, SSHP is forever. Sorry this post is incomprehensibly and has no story beats or anything. No key frames. Just love.

Reblog if English isn't your native language

Changing Fate

"After Sirius dies right in front of him, a desolate Harry would sooner die himself than be sent back to the Dursleys one more time. Voldemort gets creative, however, and instead of dying, Harry finds himself rocketed twenty years into the past and straight into the memories from Severus' pensieve. Harry reacts without considering the consequences, as per the norm, and saves Severus from his family. He only meant to spare an innocent pain, but in saving Severus and securing his alliance, he has set in motion a series of ancient prophecies as old as written history and changed the course of fate forever."

Name of the series: The Tapestry of Time

Amazing story By Lyraonyx. Haven't read something this intriguing in a while. Sending love and good luck to the autor!

Help a Family in Need

I am reaching out on behalf of my dear friend, Mohamad S., who is facing one of the most challenging times of his life. Mohamad is 37 years old and left his homeland in 2015 in search of a safer and better future. He’s a kind, hardworking man, and his small family has always been his greatest priority.

Living abroad, Mohamad has recently endured unimaginable loss and financial strain. Amidst the ongoing conflict in his homeland, his mother passed away, leaving behind his sister and her five young children—the last remaining members of his immediate family.

As the situation worsened, Mohamad managed to help his sister and her children escape to safety in Egypt, covering their immediate needs and securing a temporary refuge for them. Since then, he has been fully responsible for providing everything they need to survive during this transition.

In his efforts to support his family and cope with this devastating loss, Mohamad has found himself deeply in debt. To make matters even more difficult, he recently underwent knee surgery, which limits his ability to return to work for the foreseeable future. This has made it even harder for him to manage his financial responsibilities and the pressing need to provide his family with a stable future.

Mohamad is now working to bring his sister and her five children to join him in Belgium, where he hopes they can find stability and opportunity after all they’ve endured. This transition, however, requires significant resources that he is currently unable to meet alone.

For privacy reasons, we are not sharing Mohamad’s full name, as he has chosen to keep his identity discreet. While he initially refused the idea of asking for help, I couldn’t stand by and watch him struggle alone. I insisted on doing this for him because he deserves a chance to overcome these challenges.

Your contribution will help Mohamad repay the debt incurred during this difficult time, cover ongoing living expenses for his family, and assist with the costs involved in bringing them safely to Belgium.

Mohamad has been a good friend of mine for years, and I’ve always admired his resilience and generosity. Any support, no matter the size, will make an incredible difference in helping Mohamad and his family rebuild their lives after these painful experiences.

Thank you for reading his story and considering helping a man who has always done everything he can for his loved ones.

Adam

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Why does life kick the ass of our best fanfiction writers? I'm talking the dozens of chapters, 200k words, slowburn, rated E, hurt/comfort, angst, every character is perfect, 900,000 hits, 250k kudos (not to be a kudo snob) fanfic writers.

They leave for a year and come back with a gut-wrenching story just to have to leave again to face more trauma. And come back another 2 years with even more gut-wrenching trauma.

Support our fanfic writers. We need a wounded warrior fund for them or something. An AO3 veteran affairs. Take all the money going to Isreal and set up a therapy line for them.

Fanfic writers. I love you.

Such an amazing concept! I can't wait to read an update ❤️❤️

Once upon a time…

A whisper could be heard among the hills of an old abandoned land. A prophecy where it was said that an angel would come from heaven, bring glory to the world plunged into darkness and with his roar, would open the earth for it's rise.

But the prophecy was simply modified until it became a legend. However, it was never forgotten, since, in any case.

It was also whispered that the angel, whether of perdition or hope, would be much greater than the Sun itself.

Hello everyone, welcome to this post where i will introduce to you my story on Archive of our Own or AO3 about the theory of Papyrus being the Knight.

Must say that this took so long to publish due to some issues i had to fix, but now i can say everything is ready for you to enjoy!

With the following, I will give you some extra information about this story.

This story/AU is inspired by the theory of Papyrus the Knight, where you will see his point of view and his evolution.

Some characters have changed in age, like Papyrus in this case.

I apologize in advance if the story has grammatical errors, it is not my first language but I use several tools to make it understandable and enjoyable to read!

There may be slow updates, because I have external issues that may prevent me from updating frequently, but I will do everything in my power to achieve this.

This story is completely separate from the comic i did time ago.

And I don't need to say much more, you will have to discover that for yourself during your reading!

Now, let's start with the fun stuff!

Meet… "The Advisor"!

What? Does he have another name? Well, yes, but not right now.

This charismatic Darkner is the one who guides and advises Papyrus and his teacher, Dess.

As his name suggests, he is the advisor to the King of Spades.

He is enigmatic but very charming!

Meet the intimidating and powerful royal sorceress, Dess…!

Yes, strangely enough, she is only known by that nickname.

Dess is known as the Ice Sorceress, due to her superb control over magic and being very strong and good at hitting things!

(She is a bit grumpy but nice if you know her better.)

And let's not forget this charismatic skeleton that everyone knows!

Say hello to the GREAT PAPYRUS!

our dear knight, who is always excited to learn and protect others!

Believe in him or not, he will show you how cool he is!

Now that you know them, what are you waiting for to read their adventures?

Here is the link so you can go read it, I wish you a pleasant and interesting experience!

THE OG GOOBERS 😭 I need to go to my roots more often theyre so wonderful

eagerly awaiting chapter 3/4 so I can get my hopes up again to see my BOYS

The newsletters are…..ACCEPTABLE for now 🙄

Oh yeah and Kris and everyone else that I love, theyll all be there too. yeah.

ik its just one surface level drawing but…..for some reason it comes with the same amount of yapping as a typical Forgettable AU fanart (why do I do this to myself)

The thought was “its a running gag that Sans eats condiments straight up, I wouldn’t put it above him to eat the leftover stuff when baking.

THEN that spiraled into “omg new headcanon, Papyrus… WE LOVE HIM BUT UNDYNE DOES NOT HELP WITH KNOWING HOW TO COOK so what if hes not all that great at cooking but like INCREDIBLE at baking, just doesnt do it as much cause thats not Undynes style”

Toriel Undyne and Papyrus cooking together- i gotta draw that I have so many interactions in my head already 😭 like

Undyne: NO!!!! STIR HARDER!!!

Toriel: You’ll just make a mess that way!

Undyne: THATS THE POINT, NGAAAAHHHHHHHH *grabs papyrus’ arm and fucks up everything*

No but cooking is like- BAKING MAKES SENSE for Papyrus to be like really good at cause its NUMBERS its a PUZZLE its measurements, seems more his style (autism)

also I was totally giggling adding the stars on his sweater hehehe hes a star

also I had way too much fun drawing Sans licking the spatula without a tongue or opening his mouth

he absorbs it through his teeth

yknow

like a normal person

duh

Messaging people for the first time is so hard. What am I supposed to say? Like, "You seem really odd and your blog intrigues me. Do you want to have philosophical conversations or perhaps talk about fictional characters?" What! Whatever. I will just follow you back and stare at your blog with my big beautiful brown eyes.

I was thinking about Othertale and what a meeting between these two bone heads would be like... Then I remembered this song:

Sans and Papyrus from Undertale are in love. There's nothing you can do to stop them.

Sans and Papyrus from Undertale are in love. There's nothing you can do to stop them.

Oh yeah, weird ¿Right? Worse yet, he's your twin.

Having a crush in high school is mostly a embarrassing situation, but Ford needed to make it weird too.

Like man, he is your brother.

friendship

companionship

loyalty

friendship

companionship

loyalty

Yay! Thank you for responding to my last ask :) I absolutely love the family (Steve, Larry and Rob) Can I know your Mr. Small or Robert headcanons too?

Oughh This one’s pretty long, so once again putting it under a cut ⬇️

(Like last time, if u don’t care abt me yapping there’s some drawings down there too haha)

• Mr Small likes anime and cosplay.

The biggest reason for this is his cosplay of Sailor Moon in “The Ghouls” episode. But along with cosplay I feel like he just likes to dress up in general. He has a surprisingly large amount of outfits throughout the series like: The honesty bear (The sock), Criminal Bozo fit (The allergie), Classic Hippie fit (The Silence), The Small hours music video fits (The Singing) and a couple more that he wears frequently like his rollerblading fit and his meditation fit. And those are just the ones that come to my head first, there’s definitely more in the show I think. He also has a bunch of outfits in the comics but I haven’t read those (yet. I really want them)

Similarly Larry does the same thing actually. Although, it makes more sense for him since he does it specifically for work reasons (And we see him so much more often). The thing is about Larry’s outfits is that I think are especially cute is that he dresses up for his role (specifically as a stereotypical worker you’d expect to see in whichever store he’s in) even if there isn’t a specific uniform. I’ve made a post about this before right here. Basically something I noticed is that he puts on temporary tattoos for a few of his jobs, not to mention he literally put on a fake gotee for his barber outfit. I like to think Larry is too busy to have his own hobbies but he accidentally adopted dressing up and he thoroughly enjoys it, even if he’s not exactly aware that he’s doing it.

• Rob takes both of Larry and Steve’s last names after being adopted.

I’ve thought for a long time which last name was gonna be their family last name but I was sooo hung up about it cuz both Larry and Mr Small’s last names are pretty important to their work. Larry is known all over town for being “Larry Needlemeyer” so it would be a pain to get that changed for him and be bad for his publicity as a well known worker. As for Mr Small he’s literally a teacher, everyone at his workspace adresses him by last name so it would be strange for him to change names as well. Basically what I’ve settled with for now is that they would share a hyphenated last name. So Mr Small’s would be “Steven Needlemeyer-Small” and Larry’s would be “Laurence Needlemeyer-Small”. This same thing would apply for Rob with him being “Rob Needlemeyer-Small”. I feel like this would be the best way for them to share a family name while staying consistent and least confusing. Plus it won’t affect neither Steve’s or Larry’s jobs all that much.

• Rob has a million nicknames

We all know the gag about Rob being called different names. I think it would be fun if when Larry and/or Steve calls for him (whether they need help or he’s in trouble) they call him by different variations of “Rob” like: Robert, Robbie, Roberto etc… I think his legal name would be still be just “Rob” tho, there’s really no reason for it to be anything else as that’s the name he remembers after getting out of the void.

• Mr Small is really bad at relationships

The thing about Mr Small his the he is one of the few middle aged adults in the show without a spouse or family members at all. Almost all of the middle aged adults in the show are the same age, we know this because they all went to school together but most importantly because they all went to prom together. My point is, almost all of the people he went to school with are either married, dating someone or have children of their own. Meanwhile he is single, no known family and doesn’t seem to have many friends outside of work. We even see him talking to Mr Corneille about his struggles online dating (The Wish), admittedly he wasn’t on a dating website but rather a pizza delivery app but that even further shows how he’s not super good with social queues and close relationships as he couldn’t tell the difference.

To contrast Mr Small, Larry is super good with people interactions. Obviously, with his work he needs to be. But as far as romantic relationship go, I think he’d be a very stereotypical good boyfriend type. Where he’d take his dates to nice restaurants, buy them flowers or go for walks. He likes things simple and classic.

• Rob likes video games

Idk I don’t really have a reason for this one. I think he’d constantly play Super Smash Bros on a Nintendo switch he was gifted for Christmas or smth lmaoo. The idea of him ragging online is very funny to me, especially if it’s stupid simple kids games where there isn’t much brain power to do them. He’d stream “Playing Fireboy and Water girl by myself!” if Larry let him.

Okay that’s already too much writing for one post, but if you wanna know more feel free to ask for it! ❤️

(I may not answer right away, but I appreciate the asks really!)

happy family

one of those quick animations made out of boredom

one thought everyday and its just the amazing world of gumball especially these three freaks (doodles + some headcanons below :3)

mr small -

my interpretation of small becoming more mellowed out in the future seasons as opposed to season 1 is him managing his anger in a more healthier way (meditation, etc) (plus i think all those herbal infusions are incredibly effective on the nerves) . that being said i think he still has underlying anger issues and lashes out if prompted too much . another reason hes nicer and more of a pushover in the later seasons is because i like to think hes guilty of his plethora of outbursts earlier on, especially towards students (unwarranted shouting which as a school counsellor he should know is pretty harmful on younger kids) . the fact that he tries to offer his help when its absolutely not needed so many times later on in the show further makes me like to think he’s making up for it all

hes also so autistic to me hes on the spectrum you cant tell me otherwise and i think hes pretty awkward and considered strange by the whole town (which is saying a lot for elmore standards) . still super friendly and approachable but he also cant take hints and he definitely stims (and has special interests, alternative medicine are you kidding)

his music taste i love to think is all over the place … i get the general consensus is he listens to mystic chants and sitar music but he definitely listens to more, ranging from pop to indie to rock to metal (this may or may not have become an idea when i was listening to ‘darts by soad and associated it with him,) . also what with his stupid little self funded album that is such a jarring listen ‘cause of all the ridiculous genre changes

i think he crochets/macrames as a hobby along with other diy stuff (most of the decorative items in his home crafted by him) making him, surprisingly considering how incompetent he is sometimes, super crafty/handy .

larry -

larry is a great person: incredibly intelligent, he’s very knowledgable on a plethora of subjects and he has a big heart, holding little to no virtriol against the people of elmore (except the wattersons but that is SO warranted) . thus i like to imagine he did great in school, moved on to do so wonderfully in uni whilst juggling jobs and his studies but after graduation was left stuck (alike so many people nowadays) . neither small or larry came from well off families but i think for larry he didn’t have much of a support system anyway so currently he overworks and works and works just to catch up on the student debt whilst simultaneously paying his taxes (i still think about that episode all the time fuck the police . big pink son of a bitch), loans and not to mention the bare minimum to keep himself alive

he’s a very sweet and kind person but anyone under the immense stress that he’s under would be irritable and temperate (he deserves to be more angry imo) and i whilst he has so many jobs he always aims to excel at all of them, having an incredibly particular way that tasks must be done and having them organised . because of this, he can be a lot more temperate when interacting with coworkers, especially those who don’t do their job as well, having to take matters into his own hands . as he and karen (his girlfriend throughout the series) share some jobs it puts a strain on their relationship (which was built off of the mutual ‘having several jobs’) and they break up .

even so, though larry consistently tries to propose to her in the show, in “the laziest” he doesn’t seem to be happy nor comfortable at all with the prospects of marrying her . in fact, even when he’s achieved the ‘american dream’ (properties like a house and car and a family (his girlfriend soon to be wife)) he’s unhappy . personally i don’t think he knows what he wants to do with himself ; he works all day and night and has little to no time for himself to even think in peace that the only purpose he knows is work .

i like to think he used to be an artist; self taught, it was a hobby and an enjoyment but his studies and his work took over so his one form of self expression was squeezed out of his life .. (i like making their lives as bleak as possible soz ! 🙏) he still admires the arts and i think that’s another reason he likes steve so much; his handcrafts and mini projects .

steve and larry are two opposites that are similar in ways .. but i love their dynamic so much . my interpretation of them is that steve will help larry balance out his life slightly better to leave room for himself instead of working 24/7 . steve has his head in the clouds and larry grounds him, and larry is so stuck in his ways with work that steve pulls him out of it slightly, lifting him up a little higher (AUGHHHGHH I HATE THEM I HATE THEM

as for their relationship with rob, im very much a stevelmeyer adoption truther !! both larry and steve coming from dysfunctional families, they aim to help rob and take care of him to the best of their abilities . further, larry taking on taking care of rob gives him direction in his life again . 😁😁😁😁😁😁

this isnt gonna be the last post headcanon/idea wise i still think of them 24/7 but heres jus SOME things .. (im such a yapper sprry not sorry !) :3c

stancest is healthier than billford ok byeee

Caught You Looking

“If ya wanted to check me out in these booty shorts, Sixer, all ya had to do was ask.  Y’know, it’s perfectly normal to be curious!

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I love them

Was it casual when we said we’d spend forever together and then I spent 30 years literally living in your shadow trying desperately to bring you back into my life

Ok I’m doing it. Idk if anyone will read this but here’s a compilation of all the stancest crumbs from bill’s book along with a stancest endgame theory:

I say theory because I can’t think of a better word atm. I know this is obviously not the intention of the text. I am merely taking the information we were given and twisting it to fit my sick agenda. It’s what bill would have wanted (Well maybe not quite like this but lol fuck him anyway).

So! Obviously billford was the star of the show here, but as I learned a little bit more about the codes I didn’t just learn what they say. I learned that all the stancest ship fuel is contained within them, and even tho it’s not much in comparison, what we did get is pretty profound!

There was a brand new code alphabet introduced in this book that we’ve never seen before. This cute little bros code that Stan and Ford invented when they were kids. Besides this image, this code is used only three times in the entire book.

The first (and insanely subtle) instance is on this page where ford concludes that Stan is the only person he can turn to after bill drives him to his breaking point:

It’s very small and hard to make out. On the window amid the equations.

It says: “miss you”

Pertaining the contents of this page, my first thought was that this is probably meant to be interpreted as a message directed at Fiddleford. But that wouldn’t really make sense given how it’s presented. This wasn’t written in after the fact. It couldn’t be directed at Fiddleford, they’re standing together arm in arm. It’s a code only Ford and Stan know, and this pic wasn’t taken long after they separated. This message must be about Stanley.

Ford uses the code on the next page, the last lost journal page where he’s talking about reaching out to Stan. It translates to: “have I been too harsh all along?”

This is so gut wrenching to me because he’s never written in this code literally anywhere else in the entire journal. And he says this vulnerable little line about Stanley in this code he probably hasn’t used in years but still remembers, in this code that only Stan would be able to understand besides himself.

The last usage is by Stan. Because the rest of the family is watching him write this, to the rest of them it just looks like he’s censoring his cussing for the kids’ sakes. But to ford, stan’s slyly writing him a little message that only he can see…

And what does it say?

“Love ya bro”

Ford’s arc in this book is realizing he should put his attention and concern in the ones that love him rather than fueling his obsessive hatred toward the one who hurt him. He comes to understand that he’ll be happier if he’s open about his past and rely on his family whose affection isn’t conditional like bill’s was. He moves past his shame, and comes out of the paranoid isolation that bill had encouraged him into.

And of course he receives this comfort from his whole family. But I think it’s very interesting how bill is framed as this toxic ex, Fiddleford is framed as the one he should have put his trust in during that pivotal time in 80s where ford ultimately blew his chance, and then there’s Stan.

Stan is hardly brought up at all but his presence lingers in more than few of Ford’s vulnerable journal entries. Stan is the one who put Bill in his place. Stan is the one who made Ford realize where his priorities should be. Stan is the one who’s accepted him all along and is the one remaining by his side in the end.

Bill even blames Stan for stealing ford from him like a jealous ex who can’t stand the fact that ford has moved on with someone else. (This is directed at the reader but it mirrors his frustration with the stans when they worked together to defeat him)

In conclusion: incest somehow ended up being the healthiest partnership option all along. Who knew?

BONUS CODE THAT CAN BE MISCONSTRUED IN A MORALLY REPREHENSIBLE WAY:

At the bottom of the first lost journal page where he’s talking about his loneliness and yearning for human connection, he mentions Stan in a code again. After embarrassing himself in front of the waitress he says: “Stanley could have made her laugh” 💔

LMAOOOO

iits not joever guys trust missa Will come back and we’ll have the most heartwarming pissa reunion ever with a kiss at the end and And And (going delulu and inhaling Insane Amounts of Copium)(rocking back and forth)

Everyday it's getting closer

iits not joever guys trust missa Will come back and we’ll have the most heartwarming pissa reunion ever with a kiss at the end and And And (going delulu and inhaling Insane Amounts of Copium)(rocking back and forth)

Everyday it's getting closer