Star Girl ⋆⭒˚.⋆

a burning hill // mitski

you ever have situations that make you want to take people by the shoulders and go "you are not 15 any longer. this behavior is no longer quirky and cute. it is exhausting for you and everyone else to act like a teenager you haven't been in a decade or longer. knock it the fuck off"

on self-sabotage

the bomb, florence + the machine// appointments, julien baker// abject permanence, larissa pham// never wanted to dance, mindless self indulgence// king, florence + the machine// quote: lauren e. bowman// in the woods, tana french// does the universe fight for souls to be together?, jamie varon// olivia laing on loneliness, marrying the poet ian patterson and the challenge of intimacy// left alone, fiona apple// @mjalti //renegade, taylor swift// a burning hill, mitski// ICU, phoebe bridgers// legit tattoo gun, the front bottoms// just, radiohead

missing the way someone used to be is such a restless type of longing. it’s not love or hatred. it’s just forever living with the gap in your life they once filled and won't ever again because they aren't that person anymore

when i was sixteen and insane for my shakespeare class final i had to do the “alas poor yorick” monologue at a competition and while i was doing it i had this insane thought of like. i’ve never been and never will be closer to experiencing hamlet’s mental state than i am right now. like of course all that stuff didn’t happen to me but when you’re 16-19 you kind of feel like all that stuff is happening, all the time, constantly

— Piano Man, Billy Joel (insp.)

Andrew Wyeth; Wind From the Sea 1947

Thinking about the fact that both Cosette and Eponine are perfect portrayals of female adolescence, both shown in two different yet incredibly accurate ways, but despite that they both are referred to and treated like woman

I think there was even a line about Eponine how she was the type who just mostly skipped the stage of being a child

And I know a part of it is because the term "adolescent" wasn't there yet or barely just had been invented and societal norms were different but still

Two girls being so deeply just girls, just typical teen girls and yet viewed as women, the implications of their characters- AND THE FACT THAT JEAN VALJEAN IS THE ONLY ONE WHO SEES AND TREATS COSETTE AS A KID/TEEN???

And don't even get me on the parallels they are to each other's

GODDAMN I was not prepared to get so emotional over them when starting the brick

Cho Gi-Seok: Memory (2024)